>>43278298

>>43278298
a dog that is laying on the floor whimpering while its being kicked over and over again

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this is me

>>43278298
>how do you view yourself and what is the mental image that comes up whenever you happen to think about your existence
i genuinely struggle to form a mental image of myself. i am nearing 30 and have zero understanding of what my "self" is, to the point that I am assigned by my therapist to come up with any vague definition i can.
its been months and i still have no clue

>>43278497
me either but in my experience thinking about your "self" is only going to make it more confusing, you find out who you are by doing stuff and not overthinking it.

>>43278517
>you find out who you are by doing stuff and not overthinking it.
i guess thats the problem
despite how old i am, im still a complete hikkineet with zero relationship experience.

if i don't think about it, i do nothing.
if i think about it, it stresses me out, i spiral, then do nothing.

i cannot understate how few interests i have : /

>>43278298
just some guy. with mental problems

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>>43278298
>how do you view yourself and what is the mental image that comes up whenever you happen to think about your existence?
When I was a kid, these panels from I Feel Sick always lived in my head rent free. Devi is so beautiful in them. Whenever I thought about what kind of person I wanted to be I would think about her sitting on her bed here.

>>43278639
>Whenever I thought about what kind of person I wanted to be I would think about her sitting on her bed here.
surprisingly wholesome ngl

>>43278298
i dont know at all

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At the risk of sounding edgy, the honest answer is that I don't know because I waited too long and now she's dead.

>>43281310
yeah..

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When I was a very young child I would say that I am an angel sent by God to save the world

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this is how i feel after 4 years of hrt

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I'm a roiling black void inside, something alien and misfit that frays and corrodes the very fabric of our reality by existing

>>43281579
Average femboy/boymoder
>>43278298
A man who got the shaft and got groomed into thinking of himself as a tranny. I don’t really think about myself so idk, but sometimes in my dreams I’m a big tittied tallish goth with my own face

>>43278298
Brad Armstrong but in a chaser way.

>>43278298
the inner me is a pretty girl. She used to cry alot but she's getting better at living now
I almost lost her through years of neglect. Never again

>>43278371
same twin

>>43281539
are you saving the world nona

>>43278517
this
the self is a verb not a noun
>>43278549
try adjectives to describe yourself instead of nouns
nouns are a trap

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>>43278298
i see myself as the dragon on the qing dynasty flag

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>>43278298
In my head most of it is just a white plane of nothingness. I exist as a Black humanoid silhouette. Only scleras are white.

>>43266003
She is a white silhouette with black spirals.

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>>43278298

>>43278298
gotta go to therapy first but I'll see if I can draw something later if the thread is still up

Princess Celestia
>working in the sun
>manage multiple mini ecosystems at once
>appear to age slower than others
>physically different from a lot of others in the room
>argue with little sister who stays up all night

There is nothing inside me but self loathing. I don’t know what it looks like

>>43278298
I am a doll dressed in frilly outfits and I have a feature where sometimes I pee and you can put a diaper on me and change me like a real baby.

>>43282445
I can't even save myself

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Agnus Dei but I'm a chud pooner irl. Im working on getting closer to what I want though.

I usually think of my head containing lots of levers and lots of little people inside it who represent different parts of me (happy, sad, gay, ect) running around and fighting each other for control of them and whoever gets there first or beats everyone else controls what i do until they are deposed by someone else.
It's like Inside Out, but with more stab wounds and mental illness!

I don't really know what i am, though, and i don't really have a solid self image of my body.
It's fun, try it sometime.