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Post your contact and in 3 sentences or less describe your major malfunction. Skip all the preamble and backstory and excuses and white lies and just lay it bare for people what exactly and precisely is wrong with you.

Try to avoid throwing out a bunch of letters like BPD or PTSD and actually describe your own personal story and why you're fucked up.
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>>34882161
lemme fill that in for you...
>I'm a retarded nigger who needs to kill herself pronto
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Incel. Alone. Haha.
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M,21. I speak Spanish and English. I need someone, to make friends,or only chat.have fun.i have no friends, please,talk to me.Im a chill person.
Teleguqrd:VW5MEXPLX
Telegram:@xZanto
Teleguard:VW5MEXPLX
Telegram:@xVentus
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>>34882315
Posted it two times sorry
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>>34882148
Letter version: ADHD BPD cPTSD DID
Non-sugarcoated:
- persecution complex and deep paranoia stemming from childhood abuse/neglect
- pathological liar
- tendency to become randomly violent or completely withdraw from social interaction
- zero self-esteem
- Y chromosome

If you want to know why I am like this then ask me I'm not gonna tell you my whole life story in 2500 chars but the summary of it is that my dad was a violent alcoholic narc with a sex addiction and my mom is bipolar
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>>34882148
Insta is @serotonin2a
I want to be loved by a faithful girlfriend but I’m addicted to cheating, lolis and more. Oh well
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i am traumatized, self-destructive, impulsive, obsessive, and crave attention even if the person hates me, i attatch easily to the worst types of people. i have no standards or self-worth and everytime i try to get better i just fail. Self-harmer

tragicgirl123 on discord
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>>34882502
You know your post is going to attract abusers, right? You'd fail less if you tried to not attract those types.
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>>34882504
>tragicgirl123
It's okay, that's not a findable username on discord.
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>>34882509
Weird, this is the third time I've seen them post I assumed it was real
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>>34882511
>>34882509

its my username idk why its not working...
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>>34882504

ive tried everything and i feel like theres no point in getting better when i just fall back into these habits, but you are right
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>>34882530
Back to my original point then. Not to talk you out of being abused and spiraling, but don't you think you might be happier if you looked for people who would respect you somewhat? When you describe yourself in the terms you do, you only attract predators and savior types (which are just predators wearing nicer clothes).
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>>34882530

Have you set it to block friend requests from people you don't share servers with?
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>>34882539
no i havent i checked and my dm settings let anyone friend / dm me
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>>34882538
It's hard to be respected when you don't respect yourself. Even if you fool them, it feels like you're putting on an act. Is that really complicated?
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used to turn tricks for drugs now i am dangerously antisocial and paranoid and the only intimacy i've had in years is helping random guys on the internet get off with my voice. not a female, not trans.
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26 years old hopeless mentalcel truecel who copes by wageslaving, watching vtubers and jorking to little anime girls once a week because goypills made my penis into a shrimp. the only human interaction i get is by baiting anons into replying to my time wasting posts. discord: gilgamesh02777.

https://youtube.com/watch?v=l3G9-vhLV44&t=1849s
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I watch porn when I was kid 8 or 9 years old, now I don't trust any woman and I don't wanna marry now I'm getting old to 30 and never date, and I only fucked escorts and prostitutes and cum inside most of them, porn is a problem that useful made me see the people and life reality but now I quit porn when I was 20 yo but gain a useful thing to stay alone forever
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>>34882161
this ugly dog is ban evading
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>>34882538
we don't need the armchair therapy
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impulsive for the wrong things, procrastinate about the wrong things
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I'm selfish, possessive, and extremely mentally unstable. I can't regulate myself and I act out without regard for others until it's too late. I have many layers of trauma and there's something fundamental missing inside of me

dc: suicidalrapist
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I'm an honest person who lies as easily as they breathe interweaving the two until even I don't know what is real and what is not. I care about people, but then I don't. I feel alive and then I'm dead. I feel sharp and witty and then I'm dull and in a fog. I want a profound deep spiritual and emotional connection but then I only care about carnal, feral and self serving sexual gratification. I hate and love myself. I don't expect people to put up with the bullshit because I'm exhausted of myself and I wouldn't expect somebody else to not be. The rhyme and reason to it, I just don't know. It ebbs, it flows, the changing of the seasons both worldly and of my mind. I'm a bland person, but the worst kind of bland, the kind that is too terrified of genuine self expression to actually to speak freely. A person who hides behind the visage of non chalance deeming anything and everything cringe, when the reality is that I am the cringe one casting judgement on those who I wish I could do nothing more than join in care free enjoyment of this life. All in all, a sad sack of shit, or at least, how I feel in this moment. Could very well be I wake up tomorrow feeling like I am the shit and like I run this bitch not caring at all for what the world or those around me think about me, choosing to impulsively do things without thinking of the ensuing consequences because I feel alive. Alive.
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m 44 Scotland
paypig and all-round generally submissive rat needs his bank account taught a lesson
kik: misbehavingmalcolm
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>>34884068
Spamming/flooding is also true.
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I've been through (and overcame) a lot of hardships in my lifetime. I spent over a decade recovering from a life-changing event that was like hell on earth, and kept pushing myself no matter how bad things got. It paid off, today I'm doing better than I ever thought was possible, I'm well off financially, in great shape and health, I have the time and resources to truly enjoy life on my terms, and I thank God every day that I was able to get to this point. But I have issues trusting others, especially women, and I can't relate to women in a way where I can build a long-term relationship, and most women aren't worth pursuing anyway.
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Yh I'm honest
28/m/ UK near Liverpool / Manchester
Own place own car zzzz bored, stayed at my friend house last weekend. Drive too fast, chill guy
Discord: Afrenzy
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Need female friends cuz Im a girl and every girl ghosts me for some reason

scorchedearth6
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I kinda wanna take acid again
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>>34886265
Don't worry they ghost us too
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>>34886381
I don't understand how a lot of girls got loyal and nice friends and they always abandon me I can barely keep one I wish I could meet a girl who's interested in knowing me
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>>34886265
>>34886381
I think covid + the Internet permanently damaged a lot of peoples ability to socialize. Only thing you can do is put in as much effort as you (appropriately) can and grit your teeth and forgive other people being self centered flakes. My friend group in college is being explicit about it since we're all at or nearing 30 now and felt how everyone was getting isolated. It sucks and is going to get much worse with AI.

Also people on this board are very mentally ill, on average.
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>>34884790
holy shit, this perfectly describes me and ive never been able to put it into words like this
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>>34886446
>>34882148
As for the thread question:
- obese, sometimes depressed
- quite cynical, it's hard for me to view women as equals. They're like retarded kittens who can't help but piss everywhere but also scratch you as you try to clean up the piss.
- can't relate to normie shit nor to internet shit (anymore)

I think this is kind of just what getting old is.
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>>34884790
Every soc user lol
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>>34886265
You're a closeted lesbian/bi and the closeness you seek with other women is too intense for a friendship.
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>>34886265
>>34886397
i don't like usinf this board because it makes me feel gross and theres too many evil peope on her e.. still i'm also looking for girl friendjs

but charlotte sometimes youre mean and racist to people and that makes me scared yknow. if youre willing to try & will be nice to me, we can be friends. i'm very ride or die for my girl friends so i wouldnt leave you for no reason that i can promise
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>>34882148
I'm just tired of life and want to die desu, but i get some nice dopamine hits talking to women. Ideally I want something long term but I have 0 expectations for any long term relationships over the internet and I know the females (and tbf males too) that post here are kind of retarded but I still have some hope lol.

disc: .backthen_
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>>34886478
Oh shit it's Charlotte? Yeah no girl wants to be friends with her because she's a bad person and has 0 charisma to make up for it.
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>>34886599
hey dont be mean to her i'm tryna make a new girl friend here. she could just be misunderstood honestly, i like yto give eberyone a fair chance
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>>34882148
26M EU

I'm a cowardly and manipulative virgin, and I have to constantly fight the belief that only a very kind, loving and obsessive girl could make me happy
I do as much self-improvement as I can and from an outside perspective I have high stats, but I can't really become close to anybody
Some things are OK and some things are fun for a brief moment, but nothing really makes me happy in a lasting sense, so I forever chase love

dc: brotherlonghair
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A/S/L
28/M/USA (East Coast)

>About You
Latino writer from Greensboro, NC. I write speculative fiction; cyberpunk, pulp zines, worldbuilding that takes the little guy in big systems seriously. I GM Cyberpunk 2020 campaigns and play too much Hearts of Iron 4. I go to open mics, read military history for fun, and stay up too late building fictional worlds. Self-aware HPD; meaning I run hot, I'm intense, I need to be in motion, and I'm probably more "on" than most people you'll meet. I'm telling you now so it's not a surprise later. It's a lot but it's never boring.

>Looking For
Someone with their own thing going on. Creative, opinionated, curious; the kind of person who actually cares about something enough to talk about it at 2am. Good conversation matters more than anything else. Bonus points if you have strong opinions about fiction, history, games, or music. I'm open to long distance if the connection is real.

>Not Looking For
People who want low-energy and chill 24/7; that's not how I'm built and I'll exhaust you. Not looking for someone who needs me to be their entire social life, or someone who thinks intensity is the same thing as toxicity. Also not interested in anyone who can't handle directness. I don't do passive.

>Contact
prognosticvaltiel
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I was the eldest of 6 children, and from as early as I can remember I refused to play "the game" of socialisation.

So I developed a very rich and intense inner world, but there's a gaping chasm when it comes to connecting with others. Truth be told, I will never truly care about you, or care for you. You exist as a placeholder to make me feel like life is worth living. Like there's someone out there worth suffering to protect, with the implied promise they'll shower me with affection and praise in exchange. Having been alone for 30+ years at this point, I'll probably scare you with how instantaneously I become obsessed with you, and the level of obsession I expect in return. I know I'm not normal, and my expectations are unreasonable, but I am who I am.

Discord:
soluszos
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>>34891879
wowzers, what a catch
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>>34891888
I'm not expecting anything, I know I offer nothing.
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>>34891879
Aren't you homosexual?
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>>34891954
Yeah.
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>>34882148

Without any justification, here are three.

1. I am either too prideful or anxious to approach a random individual IRL, even if they have the same familiar dead eyes and it seems like we'd find a common ground, I am too hesitant to make the first move.
2. I am too obsessive, too possessive, too jealous, to both, enjoy my free time when I'm not near my partner (not spending time with me) and to not be paranoid when my partner is not near me (spending time without me).
3. I have homicidal ideation and I find the idea of murdering someone with my partner extremely romantic, rather than hurting my partner (majority of women want to be hurt or dominated).

spawnofhalloween
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>>34894483
Inb4
>oh you edgylord, how can you imagine killing someone but be too anxious to approach a woman
Murdering someone dead ass requires less mental preparation
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>>34894504

>Murdering someone dead ass requires less mental preparation
Is you want to go to jail for the rest of your life, sure. But if you actually want to get away with it, I guarantee you, it is much harder than talking to a girl. By that statement alone I can tell, that youre fucking retarded and have less than 2 functioning braincells.
You should kill YOURSELF.
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>>34894530
Then how come I got away with it but still don't have a life long partner, imbecile? Apparently one is harder than the other. Preparation =/= improvised charisma.
Stick to true crime, faggot.
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>>34894537
what an embarrassing post to make, i really hope your age doesn't start with a 2 or 3
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Foid. Hypersexual gooner due to trauma. Employed. Games. Cooks. Speaks a few languages. Commitment problems. Fit.

post ur discord and ill add u
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>>34894542
Stick to true crime along with the other faggot. Your experience comes from media and reports of successful cases.
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>>34894537
pic related
>mfw
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>>34894559
>Intellectual nigger ignores the fact that not every country has as pragmatic of a police as the US, where btw niggers in niggerhoods get away with crime constantly because of high density and every second individual being a potential suspect
Figures.
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>>34894483
>Watches Natural Born Killers one time
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>>34894548
Discord: nonni281
21 m us! I think we would get along well!
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>>34894568
Never watched it, but it has a seemingly preferable dynamic, not sure about the details beyond "Bonnie and Clyde The Movie"
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>>34894565
>yOunEedtOBeLiEvEmE I aKsCHuALly kILlEd sOmEoNE REEEEEEEEEE
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>>34894548
reprih3nsible
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>>34894585
Believe me or don't, I know what I did and I cherish the moments.
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>3 sentences or less
stop posting blogs you fucking retards
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>>34894548
its me. thornedvines1
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>>34894548
brotherlonghair
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>>34894483
>>34894504
>>34894537
>>34894593
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M23. My major malfunction? I'm a blackcel who has almost everything in life except a woman to build a legacy with and suck my dick. I pretend like it doesn't frustrate me but it does. That and some other things. Only add me if you're a stoner girl who's gonna save me from 4chan otherwise dont waste my time sublime.physics
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>>34894548
Looong evening, I'll talk to you.
dc jaegersly
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>>34894971
Chad
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>>34886446
You might be right but what amazes me is I see other girls with actual online friends and wonder what Im doing wrong why can't I be like them and find someone I click with no matter how hard I try I can't find any
>>34886474
No I just want a real friend and Im sick of guys why can't I be like other girls with good friends duh
>>34886478
First who are you secondly why would you be scared of me Im just a fuckin loser just come up to me
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>>34897322
hey sorry i was off my meds when i posted >>34886478 i'm not really looking for friends from this board anymore.
>why would you be scared of me
i saw your post on crystal cafe a couple months ago but then i learned you were pretty infamous on here, so i was hesitant. anyway! ignore all the boring ass moids on here, you are very capable of meaningful girl friendships. i've made my closest girl friends through music fanbases, so maybe try that if you haven't. good luck best wishes
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>>34897648
Okay....
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My problem isn't me but rather what I want which is:

1. A girl I have a future with and can eventually start a family with. This is mostly a genetic thing. Being a "girl failure" is glorified here but that along with being a retard or crazy unstable bitch is heritable and passes on to kids.

2. I want a girl who is all mine. I can't deal with a ran through girl. I also can't deal with a fat girl. Not wanting a ran through girl effectively means finding a younger girl and I'm in my 30s already and keep getting older year after year.

This kind of thread generally doesn't work because no one cares about your problems or struggles, only what you can do for them. If I'm wrong about this, and there is interest to my post, then I guess I can post contact.
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>>34894548
You sound like you'd be fun to chat with after work
>theflyingpizzapie
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>>34902640
Doesn’t work
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>>34882148
i am a deeply socially inept and self-obsessed failure with little to no applicable practical skills, and i believe myself to be some kind of artist while i have little to no technical talent. i exist in a constant state of internal motion and thus cannot escape near constant anxiety and lethargy. i feel extremely lonely at all times, and this loneliness cannot even be sated by talking to people alone. here's a picture i drew.

@intheshadowofthevalley
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21m. Early sexual awakening derailed my life indirectly, first time masturbated at age of 6. Ended up having a consensual low key incest experience (I was of legal AOC here). Now im just reminiscing, failing my studies and looking to maybe hook up with a quirky maiden from here. Silver lining is that I'm still perfectly straight in spite of all the degeneracy. An self aware I guess.

sjpet_
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>>34882502
this cunt doesn't add people for weeks, don't bother
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19f. schizo NEET that likes fucked up movies and any music that sounds like shit. jack of all trades. blackjack fanatic.

dc: themadventriloquist
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yourexesaltaccount
30s m usa

I am very good to people I consider good and very bad to people I consider bad. Very few people are very good. Ideally, I'd rather engage with good people.
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23 male. i have social anxiety, it's even scary when i get a friend request, i have no friends, and i rarely leave my house. i have a very strong desire for a partner who doesn't have any friends and shares at least a few of my interests.

dc: obsessivepigeon
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i miss when /soc/ was about socializing and bullshitting with other mentally ill individuals as opposed to having camsex with other mentally ill individuals. what a disaster this place turned out to be
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>>34882579
are you homosexual? Or romantically attracted to men
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>>34897322
Charlotte different femanon here i long for other girl friends and still dont have any. i tried to be friends with you on multiple occasions because based on your posts we shared some similar thoughts, feelings, and mannerisms. but during the conversation it felt like you would put in no effort, even when you were double texting me it would be with very short responses that didnt have a lot of substance or much to work with. within only a few messages, texting you felt like a task rather than a mutual exchange, because i felt like i had to come up with substance to fuel the conversation. you probably wont remember me because our interactions were very brief, but I feel like you are very hard to meaningfully interact with
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>>34912666
>during the conversation it felt like you would put in no effort, even when you were double texting me it would be with very short responses that didnt have a lot of substance or much to work with. within only a few messages, texting you felt like a task rather than a mutual exchange, because i felt like i had to come up with substance to fuel the conversation.
That's the same as every terminally online zoomer girl that has become accustomed to having multiple orbiters to entertain them. They are incapable of any meaningful conversation. Also based satanic trips
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>>34912631
Why not both?
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>>34882148
>wooster411 on Discord
I am a boring autist who has a desperate need to feel love, platonically and/or romantically, which has caused me much despair as I am alone. I don't do anything with my life and will die alone due to lack of sexual compatibility. Want hugs.
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>>34912666
Yeah I’m a girl who tried to befriend her too, and it very much felt like I was being treated like a guy who’s desperate for her attention or something. I think she needs to put more effort into making friends and being interesting first. Also btw it is very possible to make female friends here, I met a very good friend online and we talk every day.
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Tg: 2Y3AZRDU9

My problem is I dont fit in anywhere.
Genuinely ive tried everything. I tried religion, I tried clubs, I tried a cult. Never could fit in.
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@Gon2410xd on telegram.
Almost a week away from become a 30 years old
Lonely AF cause I am autistic as shit
Still need to fuck or feel loved somehow.
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>>34882148
>Contact
Discord: not_a_scalie
>Honesty
I am divorced ex-con trying to take care of his kids and realizing that their mothers are far more of a problem than I have ever considered - both of them can now say they've had CPS cases on them for shit they did to my kids. I have spent years of my life working to be the man I should be but because of my past nobody ever thinks anything but the fact it is my fault. I have a life that I built for two which was destroyed by who I built it for.
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unemployed while runnin out of mons, in a bit of a depresso spiral that has lasted my entire life, too lazy to fix most things in my life. i just go online and talk to people instead or play videogames and watch anime.

>disc
tkwastken


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>>34912666
this shit is too funny, literally just a femanon seeing how so many man & female interactions feel through this stuff. yeah yeah "we just have too many people to chat through properly" or whatever but its still massively ironic.
welcome to how 9 out of 10 convos like that go.
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32/M/Spain

Former heavy abuse victim, recently got out of it after so many years. Old and repeated abandonment wound, currently going to therapy. I always had difficulties in the love department, and I've been hurt again by an old story very recently; I learn though, and therapy is working. I always try to help and take care of people. And I don't go out or meet people often yet, a consequence of the abuse I received.

I like the usual: reading, anime, movies, videogames, nature, discussing about whatever feels interesting at the moment, RPGs, I play chess a little...

Disc: thisnameisumavailable
Please try not to ghost me.
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>>34886265
Bump cuz Im still lonely
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>>34919059
I could get you a female friend if you're a cutter
I know how suspicious that sounds
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>>34882148
Adhd, Severe narcissistic abuse and medication induced psychological trauma and bad thinking habits
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>>34882148
I'm a perfectly functional adult man, with a career, good health, good looks and social skills, living alone, everything working out. I do not trust people however, and I cannot be vulnerable or open with others due to a life of ostracisation/bullying, and I have been this way for years. I instinctively imagine people can detect something deeply wrong with me - oftentimes when I'm talking to people, I imagine they're distancing themselves, so I distance myself first to spare the pain of getting attached.

g54tenthree
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I'm an extremely selfish and narcissistic guy, and also good at manipulation. But I have crazy trust issues and low self-esteem.

I keep letting people into my life who I then open up to about a variety of things I've done in my life which alienates them and makes them hate me, probably for good reason.

I've tried changing for the better, but I just can't seem to. I'd wish someone would be able to fix me as a person. It's hard to let people into my life.

voidedwork
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>>34919065
I am but I've been clean for like a month now also I don't want someone just to be miserable with I want a genuine friend
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>23/m/usa
depressive whose despair is exacerbated by the macroscopic world and further amplified by being extremely avoidant due to both personality and learned behavior from retarded faggot father. I never learned how to keep in contact with people besides speaking to them during school. since I no longer have any physical spaces to keep in contact with people I'd actually want to be around, and never being comfortable with using social media where your face is tied to an account, I have no idea how to meet anyone either. Besides my Mom and sorta my brother, I have no one I am close to.
>disc: s3313_
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I have a new relationship with a cute girl but I can't stop coming back here looking for more even though she's deeply in love with me. I didn't have a lot of success with girls growing up and this led me to want to hoard as many girls as possible. This will be my downfall.
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>>34886468
contact, please. :(?
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29yo M UK
1) KHHV
2) Inexperience
3) Neet
I'm looking for a similar girl to talk to about it, just talking and idc what you look like as i doubt it will go past that
But since i'm making a post then if there's any women out there that fetishize taking losers v-cards hmu lol
Tguard until we know each other LQMGX2FHU
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Damn that’s sad :(

25 white female
Was unloved as a child and pretty ugly with no friends. My parents bully me to this day, dad and bro used to hit me. Got a lot of childhood trauma. Very smart. Faked it till I actually made it, honestly pretty attractive and successful rn (making about 170k usd/a year). Family still sucks. Also I think I’m a bit autistic and just masking it super fucking well (hella friendly). Super depressed but hiding it from everyone around me.
Idk I’m kind of an attention seeker I guess and just feel super lonely. Hmu :,) 2YCXCJTBT
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>closeted lesbian in deep and extreme denial because I want a chance at a normal life
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>>34922607
you got disc instead?
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>>34922648
I don't know if you're religious or not, but reading Five Lies of Our Anti-Christian Age by Rosaria Butterfield might help you out a bit. She's a former lesbian who found God, married a man and now lives a fairly normal life and is very happy. It's a very good book and she probably has some others I haven't read that might help you a bit more.
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black male 39 usa

I used to like loli but I like women now
any adult women in need of a boyfriend
please contact me for a relationship
nine inch penis multi orgasmic great stamina

teleguard @ F47X9KUEN
discord @ unagi386
kik @ unagi386
telegram @ unagi386
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30/m/Eastern Canada
I've had dysthymia for most of my life, I'm low-energy and kinda under-socialized from being a hikineet. I try to make the most of my situation. I can be very nihilistic, misanthrope and narcissistic.

Looking for people to chat with, maybe playing Overwatch together would be cool.
Discord: LamestGod
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I dunno man this feels like retard shit to post

im 31 m from USA and like. I dunno, i feel like im pretty nice, I feel like most people tend to like me. I'm sociable and pretty normal but can't ever find a place where I can be long-term. people may tolerate me long-term, but I never feel the fit. Parts of me wonder if im too eager to fit in, if my enthusiasm for people scares them away, if I'm even capable of reading situations as well as I think I am. Maybe in my head I'm totally normal but outwardly I'm just an absolute fiend to be around and my brain is signaling that to me.

I've just never been able to belong in a group of people, or even settle into a single person. I guess I've lived a good life, I'm happy and doing well. I just wish I could find inner peace to settle in with people without convincing myself I don't belong there.
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I'm worried nothing will change and I'm going to be lonely for the rest of my life. I've made peace with never having any irl friends, however i'm not ready to give up on online friendships, but im just so socially stunted for it to ever become anything past a one-day convo.
Even worse, the older i get, the more appealing romance gets, which is even more out of reach than friendship. I can’t say i feel any regret from transitioning, but I'd be a fool to ignore how it has heavily lowered my appeal to men and therefore my chances of ever getting a boyfriend by an egregious amount.
I dont understand what went so wrong that i ended up this way, i dont have autism or had a bad childhood, i think i'm just naturally doomed.
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>>34924654
sounds like you got mentally raped by a computer like most of the people on here and you're somehow still oblivious to it
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>>34924664
i get what youre saying and ppl like that do exist but that is just simply not the case for me.
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>>34924670
that's kind of what they all say myself included. I guess you're right and nothing at all lead to this and it was just like, cosmic energy or whatever! great way to go about introspection
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>>34924699
do you not believe that people can just sometimes be unlucky and come out a little off? I dont think there always has to be some big bad reason for everything
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Just lonely. If you're up to larp as my gf here's my discord
madokasmagical
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>>34924755
>>34924910
Autocorrect. I meant shown people my pussy on video call and even voice chatted with lots of people from da chans.
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>>34882148
discord: bill_kilgore
im lazy. i love to do nothing but get high and drunk and watch streamers and eat food and jerk off. ive been doing this for years, and i just want a cute girl to do this with, but i also hate women so i would slap the shit out of them during sex. im fucked up because my dad made me work too much as a kid and never gave me a break so now i hate working, even though i have a decent job making 90k in NYC.
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nasajim108

"As far as I am concerned, I resign from humanity. I no longer want to be, nor can still be, a man. What should I do? Work for a social and political system, make a girl miserable? Hunt for weaknesses in philosophical systems, fight for moral and esthetic ideals? It’s all too little. I renounce my humanity even though I may find myself alone. But am I not already alone in this world from which I no longer expect anything?" - Emil Cioran
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>>34894548
throwawayanon154_
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>>34894548
Add on teleguard please, similar in some ways >>34922581
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dc: soluni
I'm a natural lier and addict to drugs. I prioritise my ego and self-endulgance even when it negatively affects me. I've been hardwired to the Internet, browsing liveleak and 4chan since I was 13.
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Health issues, lazy, bad work history, no specialization strong enough to compensate.

4-5 year long relationship ended disastrously for me 10 years ago with no rebound while friends and family drifted away.

Have given up, down, all around while abandoning everything except for the present breath.
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>Discord
isolusi
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>>34894548
Barry_mckawkener
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I'm almost 100% that some orbiter is posing as me doing nefarious shit to a girl i was talking to last year and then also acting as the "confident" to her. First of all, holy shit you're obsessed little bro, you can't act like you're above this place, while using it and being obsessed with me, someone who is just vaguely aware of your existence. Second of all, I haven't talked to or cared about that person since we stopped talking. The only person she should be wary of, is you, you mentally ill fuck. Eventually your fake ass nature will slip through. It doesn't take a genius to see it for what it is. Unironically kill yourself.
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I have an extremely adverse relationship with sex and romance but desperately crave to love and be loved in return. the only way i can cope is by reading gay romance fanfictions and imagining that's me, severely chronically online since birth as well. i'm a pathological liar with a savior complex and every time i am allowed to have someone who might truly love me i turn into an abuser to force them out of my life. i am both hypersexual and asexual somehow and used to sell my body instead of having a normal childhood. i have sexually assaulted someone. i might be developing schizophrenia.
natrlselection
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31/M
I spent too many years as the friend group punching bag and it convinced me that I was genuinely ugly and useless and would never amount to anything. Wasn't until I got into my mid to late 20's that I started gaining confidence in myself and realized none of that was actually true. Problem is that I got addicted to that feeling of confidence after making new friends and having sex with women, and I constantly chase that dopamine blast I get when making new friends and having sex with women.

Kik: Waterfowl_Baron
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>>34929102
>i have sexually assaulted someone.
kill yourself unironically, worthless rapist.
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>>34930180
lol everyone laugh at the loser rape victim
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I apologize that this is not three sentences or less.

I have very odd psychology due to a combination of a gene mutation that can impact neurological development during gestation, ADHD-I and autism + early death exposure + poor socialization (especially with other girls, pretty much all my friends are male and grew up being raised more traditionally masculine despite being female). I love humans, but I seem to be divorced from any felt sense of love/care directed towards me (love going "out" functions normally, love going "in" is not parsed).
I view myself as a case study and have dedicated my life towards being a research subject for my gene mutation, but I also want to be psychologically studied in the hopes that it can benefit humanity. Most people with PhD levels of understanding about psychology seem to find me interesting, but they don't really know what to do with me since my situation is rather aberrant.

I'm searching for anyone with a clinical understanding/background in Psychology, Neurology or Cognitive Science to talk with. I can get overwhelmed sometimes ("please be patient, I have autism"), so if I get quiet I'm just trying to mentally reset. I lost chronic dissociation last year, something that I had since I was a toddler. I have a really high tolerance to odd behaviors, but I'm also in the process of learning better boundaries. I will communicate directly how I'm feeling, just as long as you are willing to listen.

myrinne
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>>34930248
xhe wont fuck you, lil timmy
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No matter how hard it gets and how
much I get beaten and treated like
absolute filth I never choose to end it
could be that Im a pussy or too
scared of death Im so misunderstood
been through loads of online drama
people call me a cunt Im really not Im mostly to people who deserve it I've and people might even call me a whore or a lolcow cause I used to get really upset and sperge out over dumb shit or maybe that's just a normal reaction if you're getting harassed and shit on 24/7 I like how despite everything I always believe I can get through anything because I've been through hell and I think like it's fine cause I can bear it all Im just worthless at the end of the day though when I remember the small fragments of the horrible shit that happened to me it was so awful I forgot against my will I still feel so sorry for myself I feel so bad cause I don't know what I did in my life to deserve this and I see everybody who did me bad go on with their lives and have everything I wanted while Im just here suffering they don't see me as human Im a very confused and messy person but at the end of the day I can't lie to be nice Im honest about everything Ik allat was a trainwreck because Idk how to put my words in order or describe stuff properly guess I really am off topic now I just tried to let it out Idk what's wrong with people why are they so cruel and heartless I just want to be treated like a person Im a very contradicted person you can call me ugly but I don't like to talk to ugly people I brought that up because I met a lot of ugly fuckin hideous jerks who thinks they r something so please if you're an ugly faggot don't talk to me I just wanted to let that out
Im not a good person I made a lot of mistakes that I regret to this day cause they led me down the path of very horrible and insane people and Im still reminded of how reckless and repulsive I was as a person Im tired of the countless fucks calling me a tranny just because Im an androgynous looking woman
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>>34907609
damn, dudes who fooled around with their mother aren't really attractive to women huh
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>>34932444
??? you niggers really don't know how to apply even the most rudimentary zingers per board-culture, it's so fucking pathetic when you try to fit in. infinite uncanny valley, it's frightening.
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I can't have multiple friends or connections, I can only obsess over 1 person. I'm content enough to be alone, but to be happy and social it has to be with someone like me. Otherwise I'm a fairly easygoing person who can talk about anything, I'm not one for chaos or drama, I just like hanging out together.

Don't add me if you:
>Have friends irl or online
>Have a gf/bf
>Have a good relationship with your parents/siblings/relatives
>Have anyone in your life you care about basically

Discord:
isolusi
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>>34933992
uh-oh, chuddie's mad!
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>>34935786
that's not how that works lol you really are a subcultural zombie w stereotypical buzzword brain disease. sad!
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>>34935857
>obviously mad reply
>that's not how that works
lol
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>>34936030
so, so weak :( you ever get sad?
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>>34936041
she still wont fuck you, lil timmy... you should get used to that, but then again; you already are
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44 year old burn out from Northern Ireland with a drinking problem who’s penchant for younGER women has gotten me into trouble too many times to count. Thankfully I think I’m probably now too old to be interesting to anyone on here but never too old to yearn. I mean learn, sorry.


Discord: david_ononymous
Snapchat: NewPoorDecision
Telegram: @NewPoorDecision
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>>34936062
boy would i be quiet on the internet was i indian lol i always figured you guys are the rapists so why does rape upset you so much???
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>>34936070
>boy would i be quiet on the internet was i indian lol
and you are
>i always figured you guys are the rapists so why does rape upset you so much???
if you're not against rape, then you are very very brown
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>>34936082
that doesn't make sense and only indians use the word timmy. at this point my comment on the uncanny valley rings louder and truer with your almost robot-like use of the language.
you're brown and you'll always be brown. and your race rapes.
lol
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>>34936099
>and your race rapes.
>proceeds to defend a self-admitted rapist
you can't make this shit up
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>>34936105
you're not denying your melanated, degraded, servile background. i'm british lol, which makes this even funnier. know your betters little man.
also i wasn't defending anyone i was simply mocking you for your fake moral outrage you pearl-clutching sissy
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>>34936112
>i'm british lol, which makes this even funnier.
soooo... a paki? that'd certainly explain the rape defense ops you're running here
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>>34936114
that would make us like 3rd cousins probably, right? i should be so lucky
no, i've got my lovely lily-white skin, like the driven snow. meanwhile you've got feces under your nails with no contrast to your hide
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>>34936120
>i've got my lovely lily-white skin, like the driven snow. meanwhile you've got feces under your nails with no contrast to your hide
he says with his face flushed red with anger, lmao
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>>34936121
if it were so at least people could read that emotion off my face by the colour alone, aye? unlike your face.
why even use the word and unmask your scummy heritage like that, i really don't understand? like, at that point i had you by the balls and it's over, there's no coming back from being indian
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>>34936129
>if it were so at least people could read that emotion off my face by the colour alone, aye? unlike your face.
who said bri'ish wits were dead, eh? just a shame it had to be carried on by a paki from Birmingham, really
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>>34936144
you can't try and turn around what i called you out on, but i know that's how you lot maintain izzat. gotta maintain the izzat! lmao, it's so pathetic. and i'm not involved in your soulless little ethnic squabbles, brown is brown is brown, you're all going back.
just let it be, you can't come back from being indian.
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>>34936150
you are culturally and spiritually a pakistani, because you defend rape... just embrace it, lil timmy!
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>>34936157
what am i, schroedingers ethnicity??? you gotta circle in one one thing and stick with it. either i'm a timmy or a paki. it's not my fault your uncles took turns raping you, in accordance with the culture of course. you just gotta accept it and let go little man
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>>34936159
>what am i, schroedingers ethnicity???
it's schrödinger, actually. kind of sad that a supposed "white man" doesn't even have ä and ö on his keyboard, SAD!
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>>34936169
bro, up until the 50s germans used oe and ae plenty. you'd know that if you actually read literature or could actually speak german. but you're not european lol
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>>34936174
cope harder, I have ä and ö on my keyboard, so that means I am way whiter and european than you will ever be. how does that make you feel, bish?!!
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>>34936189
oh i see, we're some species of turkic now are we? the ethnic nightmare continues
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>>34936194
oh you wish, you seem to have kebab on your mind, fatty
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>>34936197
now that's just lazy and weak. and your esl shows
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>>34936199
don't really need to try, when you already set the bar so low
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>>34936204
now this is emblematic of the brown mentality lol! i like it, this is performance art
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>>34936206
>y-you're still focken brown!!
really? this was the best you could come up with?
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>>34936209
but you are and hence i needn't try any harder! it's fun playing that game together, no?
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>>34936211
>it's fun playing that game together, no?
well if you weren't such a dullard, then yeah... tell ya what, buddy; I'll graciously let you get in the last word here, since you're so eager to have a crack at it. make it count, lil tim-tim! (P.S. she still wont fuck you)
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>>34936225
this is what qualifies for an advanced and sophisticated psychological manoeuver when you're 95iq lol
you make me so so sad
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>two retards fighting
>chickn post
"honesty" thread
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26/M/PA
Outcast, NEET hermit. Terribly depressed. Unmotivated and lonely.
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Ok so your probably not going to believe the severity here but whatever
M uk
No friends. Don't connect with family. People i actually had died or literally went schizophrenia
Will serve anyone with anything. Ugly fat guy? Sure
Abusive goth girl? Sure
Council flat chavs? Yep
Not looking for friends per se. You can be nice tome fine but im literally just there for you to use as sex or cash or literally a toilet or anything else.
I dont care if you look like boxxy or cris chan. Want to move me while I buy you things after cleaning your asshole? Fine.

Give me a new life as a multiple use object.

P.s obviously id like to be able to meet but who knows

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Pic semi related. If you have questions then messege. But yes. I do want to live like this. I just want to be useful. Stop trying to save me and use me
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>A/S/L
31 M Germanistan
>Status
Retired (Unable to work due to not conforming to the wageslave system)
I though 'work' for spreading awareness, understanding and higher consciousness
>What are you looking for
Compatible people that share my mindset without delusions. Ideally someone local to meet and interact with, although when it comes to intimate things I'm definitely
not into hairy, beards, masculines and chubbies. I'm an androgynous male that some mistake for a women or fetishize. I don't like gender roles but I submit to this
avataras biological destiny to some extend. I seek for the advanced knowledge and those that seek it too. Those that dare the transgression and are not afraid.

For physical meetups I might have a garden area that requires a lot of effort as no one helps me and my ex relationship left me with immense fiancial burden I have
been working in no-money style for years and adapted very well to it. The garden is making progress but a mere blueprint for my future, one without (human) neighbors
is certain. You can become part of this process and we see where it will lead. Just do not force interaction if you do not geuininely resonate with my wording and
seek for a superficial relation or someone to exploit.

We might play video games excessively together or if you are into gardening you could help me in my projects to gain experience on your own. Someone for no-money camping
and illegal freedom would also be nice as that is one of the things I intend to do in the future. We could spend a lot of time in the forest together, maybe get high,
do duties, hunt for mushrooms, look out for cute spiders and possibly other thing
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>>34944367
>More about you
I'm 170 cm 66 KG (wanting to get to 55 again), long haired, very pale as I'm nocturnal, permanent NEET with infinite time but their own place in some magical forest hills
in western Europe. Don't bother for anything physical if you are not local or do not possess a valid identity to be here. I have been through all of that already. My
lifestyle is adaption to extreme poverty, if you are into money and worship the system its definitely not for you. I cannot be bought, but I'm attracted to those that
disobey and resist like I do. Interest in plants, nature and psychedelics would be ideal, as these are the main parts of my existance beside my computer systems. I have
a genuine F84.5 diagnosis that also allows me to become pensioned in such early age. I see it as a blessing not as a disability, as it allows me to see things more clearly,
but that is for you to judge yourself.
>Contact
endzeitromantik @ emailn . eu
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On the verge of just giving up on relationships and friendships.
On the verge of giving up on the person I am and become an asshole degen.
I’m trusting and untrusting of people. Sometimes I’ll forget to reply even if we are having a good conversation. Too boring and too normal for most people here.

Let’s keep this annon
JustSomeGuy404@proton.me
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I suffer from severe social anxiety, which makes it very hard for me to socialise. And because I am also extremely introverted, I never seek out social situations.
As a result, I'm lonely and have little to no way of fixing it.


Discord: kether5414
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20 something transgender but you can pretend I'm a cute girl still. Extremely shallow person. I hate interacting with people unless I'm attracted to them. Most of my interests are because people I'm attracted to are into them. The only real passion I have is for getting plastic surgery and eventually marrying someone I find attractive.
A dream of mine is to become some sort of Pygmalion. I don't think it'll happen. But if you're an East Asian man with interests in philosophy/art, and this interests you for whatever reason, I'd love to talk. I have money and can take care of you, and pay for any surgeries we agree on. Location doesn't matter.
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f23/maple land/southwestern ont/black. disc: noidedfoid
1. i fight tooth and nail to feel positive emotions
2. constantly scared and in a freeze/fawn response
3. life is too overwhelming but i am too scared to become an hero
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m/25/europe
adhd and depression make me lose interest in things i used to enjoy : (

i miss getting fucked up on dxm
anime/games/philosophy/math
neet atm living from savings, looking for job at this moment is but its kinda tough right now

would love to talk to girl in similar life situation
dc: firmapomidor
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>>34936105
holy fuck you are killing him
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>>34933944
Im ignored but it's fine I just wanted to open up I didn't think of putting my tag at the time but it's alright I'll do it now also don't add me if ur some gooner faggot also it would be preferable if you're a girl I don't have many female friends not even a best friend

scorchedearth6
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>>34894548

abstractstar_
would like to try chatting, i suspect we may have things in common based on your post

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