>>42487803
Voluntarily for depression I went to the kind that was exclusively for minors when I was 15. I was shocked at how many kids there were between 6 and 10, and most of them got admitted by their mom's as punishment for simple things (talking back, not doing chores, etc.). It was kind of revolting to know that parents were using a psych ward in lieu of standard at home discipline.
There was also this kid who was allergic to peanuts. And I watch them, give him peanut butter, and I had to tell the nurse to check his chart.
This was in 2008 in Florida

>>42487818
I may be a sad sack of shit, but at least I didn’t voluntarily enter myself into a psych ward for depression at age 15

>>42487803
I was sent to one after a manic episode I had after spending the entire day drinking and smoking weed with my friends from college. My girlfriend was there to. I envited my best friend to come along but he only arrived like 20:00pm, our encounter started like 1:00pm lol, so I was already deep in psychosis when he showed up. I remember wanting to greet him with a taser but my girlfriend didnt allow it lol. H e showed and was clearly uncofortable with the way I was acting. I started asking about a mushroom trip he had and how was seeing all that shite while sober
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>>42487849
He ementioned how dilated my pupils were and how I was talking nonesenses with anything, I then reveled to him I was on something called psychosis. He was acting very calm and serene but I could see in his eyes and mind he was uneasy. I know that because he started rolling tabaccos for us to smoke instead of joints. To make matters wose for him (not me I was having a blast), there was another guy in there in psychosis. He was this other friend of mine who is like 6'3 and very fat and large. He wouldnt stop saying how he was arrested for trying to murder a guy not long ago, this made my friend even more uneasy, but he kept his composture, he good at that. Anyway, my girlfriend and some other friends of mine convinced me to go with them to a hospital and
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>>42487891
>>42487891
I arrived there, at this point my best friend wasnt with me anymore (I never seen him again after this incident). I was very violent at that point so they needed 3 guys to tackle me to the gound (Im 5'8). They drugged me and I slept for 12 hours straight. I spent around 21 days in there. I ate like a king and was allowed to keep my traing, they also allowed you to smoke in there and my mom brought cigs to me. They started giving me weaker drugs but they were still strong asf, to the point I would drill from my mouth and buy a batman costume on amazon. I still dont remember how/when I did it. I also kept telling doctors my family invented the radio and then would demand them to give me milk. They fed me rivotril for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I stayed there over 21 days and couldnt go back to college after that. I miss my bff, hope I can see him again this year

>>42487803
I have been four times, two times sectioned, two times voluntarily. It was interesting, sometimes good, sometimes bad, the voluntary stays were much better and I had much more freedom. Breakfast varied, it was often great though, not everybody liked it, but I personally really enjoyed it. We'd get full cooked breakfasts where we could eat as much or as little as we liked. My first two stays were both 28 days, my third stay was 7 days, my fourth was 14 days. Some staff were lovely and really tried to help, others were straight up evil and playing head games with patients. I've made a few friends out of there, some really good, some ended up demonstrating why they were in that place in the first place and I had to cut them off. They gave me lots of drugs, some made me hallucinate like I was acid and I don't know what they were. The ones I know of were aripiprazole, olanzipine and carbamazempine. Each has its benefits, but the drawbacks are real. Aripiprazole made it so I couldn't sleep and couldn't stop moving, carbamazepine made me more mellow than I've ever been but I would sleep for 20 hours straight. Olanzipine is a bit better, but it's made me gain weight. I hope your friend gets out soon, I couldn't imagine doing more than a month.

Only once. I am very lucky and the pills work really well so I only really come to /x/ to reflect. I was sent there forcefully because I got aggressive because I thought my family had been body snatched by hostile aliens. It's all a laugh now but it felt 100% real to me. Anyway, it was pretty shitty but way better than what movies and stuff make it out to be. The food was dogshit aramark slop but I was hungry enough on my antipsychotics not to care. I can't remember any of the time frames, I was so crazy I was in a fugue state and time just sort of disappears (this is called time blindnesss).
The nurses were the best. They were super super nice and wold dispense of pills pretty freely because I was so distressed.
They tried to make things nice and fun even though it sucks ass to basically "wake up" from madness and realize that everything you saw wasn't real and you were actually hurting the people you love and yourself. There was lots of coloring.
Infrastructure was a sore spot for sure. There was one method of exercise- a broken exercise bike. I was suffering from extreme akasthesia and that was basically torture, so I just walked laps up and down the ward over and over.
I can't imagine how underfunded they are now in the US. Everything about healthcare I here is a million times worse, but nurses are probably still amazing hopefully.

>>42488170
I’m gonna check into a psych word so a hot nurse just can suck my cock

>>42487803
Sometimes they're fine. But last time I went they gave me ETC. I now have about 12 years of missing memory. If I see the doctor who did this I will try to kill her.

>>42487803
I worked in one for about 4 years and the main thing I learnt is that the majority of the patients were almost interchangeable. More so than the general population. I think it's the irony that, so many of the patients considered themselves totally alone, or isolated by their uniqueness, when in fact they were more copy + paste than a Taylor Swift audience. It just always stuck with me.

>>42488685
You could be an MK Ultra subject.

>>42488685
>I now have about 12 years of missing memory.
That’s what they want you to think

>>42487803
Failed suicide attempt in my early '20s. They serve prison food and either the doctors are totally incompetent, or else the whole experience is calculated to worsen whatever condition sent you there. I met the psychiatrist maybe twice, we only chatted about Alfred North Whitehead's philosophy, and I left after one week of reading books and avoiding the other patients as much as possible. My takeaway was to never seek professional help under any circumstances. There may be some people who need to be institutionalized but in my case it was entirely pointless. I figured out how retarded I was being on my own.

>>42487803
I spent 10 days in one. They're garbage. You just shuffle around looking at the clock, there's barely anything to do. The treatment boils down to just giving people pills. I saw the psychiatrist twice and all he did was ask me how I was feeling. I was given antipsychotics and had my first and only sleep paralysis experience there, saw a shadow figure at the foot of my bed one night. Stopped taking those meds as soon as I left the place.

Here in the UK they used to be mixed with drug addicts and mental patients and the drug addicts used to bully us mental patients. Nowadays, they're not so bad but the situations I have been in them I've been extremely suicidal, hearing voices, penniless and fighting the govt and staff who were just taking the piss, moving me around and taking keys to my door and stuff. It's a real mixed bag. I have a good poker face and the govt kick me out of them occasionally.

>>42488724
dont you find that most everyone is the same? most are patterns, most ppl are the same. in or out of psych wards. curious.

>>42488800
Glad you woke up, anon.

I haven’t been in a psych ward but I have been through special ed if you wanna hear about that

>>42487803
A lady I knew got kidnapped by one and was there for 6 months cuz her insurance covered it that much. A lot of these places do this, we noticed it while there, and many of us planned to stay later after our insurance was up to put the cost on the hospital when we realized. They just keep people as long as their insurance will cover it for profit. The old lady had amazing insurance so she got kept for 6 months. She was normal and sane.

>>42487803
I used to work on a psychiatric ward. One of the perks of the job was fucking the inpatients. They’d cycle through every few weeks and nobody would believe them. Men. Women. Any hole is a goal, am I right?

>>42489846
please share tales

>>42487803
I went to a very nice one in a hospital attached to a medical school. Psychosis and hearing voices, really sucked. It would have been really enjoyable had I not been tormented the whole time. I met a lot of interesting people dealing with their own issues, had insightful convos, and was relentlessly bullied by the voice in my head to talk to people about jesus or else. Of course now I realize the little voice…big voice, was very paranormal. But yeah, I went to a nice one, lovely people even if I think medication ain’t the way to go. We did little calming sessions like coloring and foot baths and I got an Ipad to watch some disney stuff in my down time and got some outdoor time. I’ll admit I was in one of the nicer ones, Some of the other patients told me about their experiences in the staying housed and stuff and man that did not sound pleasant.

>>42490858
>now I realize the little voice…big voice, was very paranormal
You need to go back.

>>42490858
Are you taking any meds? Did the voices stop?

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>be me in the psych ward, sitting in the common room trying to draw with the dogshit useless suicide-proof "pencils" they have
>haggard twitchy woman who paced the halls incessantly and always looked like her head was about to explode comes up to me
>hands me a box of crayons and says "you should use these instead, there much better. Theres one REALLY special crayon in there too, its REALLY good." and shuffles away
>I open it and among the crayons theres a smashed up chocolate chip cookie and a wad of money totaling about 30 dollars in there
I still dont know what she meant by this, idk if she was trying to solicit me or what. She also had to have snuck the money in because we werent allowed to have any inside at all, and from all i heard she was there basically permanently so idk how she got it or why she gave it to me. Before you ask no she was not hot at all.

I didnt want to get her in trouble for sneaking in money or confront her and have some weird or insane encounter so I just kept the money and bought a pizza with it when I got out which I still feel kind of bad about

I volunteer there sometimes

>>42487803
it rocks if you believe you are crazy for fun

>>42490154
I first entered special education in 2nd grade. Where I went the special education system was separated in two: you had the 'life skills' section, which was for intellectual disabilities, and the 'social learning center' which was for non-intellectually disabled kids who couldn't fit in normal classrooms. Officially SLCs are still for disabilities, but I wasn't really told this and came to the conclusion that it was some sort of punishment or discipline. Which honestly might be more accurate to how they work in practice than their official reasoning. I remember in 6th grade, probably earlier and multiple times as well, hearing from one of the teachers about how special education is just for kids that need extra help and thinking that I didn't need help, I needed to not be sent to school.

I was sent to special education because in first grade I kept acting out. I did not like school and I hated being forced to go there. I knew that getting in trouble could get you sent home, and I discovered that randomly leaving the classroom and refusing to leave places with the teacher were reliable ways to get in the appropriate amount of trouble. It got to the point that I was allowed to leave earlier and I spent most of my time with a handler. They did tests on me to try to figure out why I was acting out, I distinctly remember performing well on a hearing test. The headphones were beige and brown, and the test took place in a separate temporary building on school grounds. I understand that experience is common among GATE/TAG kids, and I would enter TAG 2 years later in 3rd grade, though I am somewhat skeptical of the claims that these programs have secret paranormal agendas. The adults in my life kept trying to figure out why I was resisting school, I remember reading a book on divorce because they thought my parent's divorce a few years ago might've been causing my behavior, but to me it was plainly obvious: I just didn't want to go to school.

>>42487803
i went when I was a teenager and was in and out for some years.Enjoyed the routine. Food is good. You don’t wanna get out in isolation or injected. The injection is the worst, if not compliant restraint by up to 6 staff and injected in the ass with PRN then put in isolation. Room is nice. Lots of alarms and banging. More boring than you would expect sometimes. Made some friends I still speak to as an adult I try my best to help them i feel almost indebted. Most never get better and watching the decline is terrible. Staff and other patients can almost become some sort of sick temporary family if you stay long enough. Overall not bad entirely depends on country. Feel free to ask more questions if you need.
From England

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>>42492802
Where did you even hide the money?

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>>42493377
>for some years.
Nani, wtf? YEARS?? What the hell I thought it was only possible to be kept in these places for some months at max. Would you mind to share what drove you to spend years in? Sorry this happened to you man, world is fucked

>>42493377
Also, can you tell me what meals they served you for breakfast, lunch and dinner? I really like food (Im not fat and dont suffer from any food addiction I just REALLY apreciate good food) I couldnt be able to endure spending years in a place if the food was bad, that would actually drive me insane Im glad it was good. Also, if you dont mind:
>How was your routine?
>Did you get visited constantly by any friends or family?
>Did they give you rivotril or other medications 24/7?
>Did they force you to take meds that would make you hungry on purpose so you would gain weight and your family would be tricked in beliving you were being well treated? (happened to a friend of mine)
>Which pacient made you uneasy the most?
>Which one did you like the most?
>Which staff member did you like the most?
>Which staff member you disliked the most?
>Which activities and distractions were allowed in there?
>Was the outisde/green area nice?
>Did the staff knew how to properly treat and act on different patients based on the level of mental struggles they faced ? Like a chronic schizophrenic having a different treatment, routine or protocol from a more light one, etc
>Did you ever saw someone attempting to escape? What was the consequence?

>>42494144
They didnt search us or anything past being initially admitted so I just kept it ib my pockets. Thanks to her for paying for a delicious pizza that I greatly enjoyed alongside my freedom after being forced to eat their shitty food.

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>>42487803
I was in the hospital for two weeks when I was 19. I was admitted voluntarily but due to the nature of episode (schizophrenia+homicidal ideation) if I left they would have called the police to bring me back. The staff were really nice, the food was pretty good and the facilities were decent. This was in a hospital that was just newly built a few years before. They gave me shots of clopixol. You're supposed to have a 200mg injection every two weeks but they gave me two 400mg injections within two weeks. I was knocked the fuck out. Basically all i did was eat, sleep and listen to music. I came close to another hospital stay twice this year already. I'm 23 now and my illness has gotten worse over the years but I've managed to avoid going back to the hospital. Around halloween though is a difficult time for me so I'm concerned about how that will go this year.

Also one of my friends was recently admitted to a public hospital in Chile. Any chilean anons know what the reputation of psych hospitals is like there? I've heard they're not great

>>42494333
>Around halloween though is a difficult time for me
Why? You also mention your condition got worse... Im sotty anon, is a very tough condition, are you taking any medication? Do they work?

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>>42494387
>Why?
I had my first psychotic episode when I was 16 around Halloween and a lot of the imagery (horror movies, cults, evil spirits) fed into my psychosis so when it's halloween time every year I get a lot of triggers that can cause me to fall into psychosis.
>are you taking any medication? Do they work?
I was recently put on zyprexa after my last psychotic episode a few months ago. I take 10mgs of it and it's actually a really good medication for me. I still get symptoms most days but the key is to keep taking the medication. My problem has always been I go through a stressful experience which causes breakthrough symptoms which can in turn cause me to stop taking the medication and then things go bad fast. I keep having these kind of breakdowns and I've been having them for years. It's just kind of a revolving door. Some days are symptom free but overtime I've definitely been getting worse

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>>42487803
the whole world is a psych ward. they lock you in special prisons when you commit invisible crimes.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=bPcgoaZjsu8&pp=0gcJCSgLAYcqIYzv&ra=m

>>42494423
sorry to hear that friend. Idk if might help but try to remember the good side of halloween. The candies and chocolates, the people coming togheter to peel pumpkings, the children going out to eat candies and have fun.
Also, you mentioned symptoms, does the medication helps with the positive ones? Voices, seeing things that arent there, paranoia, etc. I heard this med causes weight gain, I hope it didnt affecte you that much. A lot of people say that taking meds is easy, but they also bring a lot of bad side effects :(

Its good to read responses to threads like this.

You think you're weird or crazy but def still functional and then read some insane posts like these- alot of your parents, schools, and childhoods must have sucked on such an epic level.

Society fails the hardest on they understand the least

I've been admitted four or five times. Longest stay was a week, shortest was 24 hours. During one of them a nurse gave me a hand massage that felt nearly orgasmic. During my first stay there was a tweaker who drilled a hole in his own skull as a fashion statement. My stepbrother dubbed him Drillbit Taylor. Do all the groups and activities, it makes the time fly.

>>42494508
Also in one of my stays I met a kid who said his father was a millionaire who groomed him to take over the family business via rapes and beatings. This guy now had 31 personalities, some of them demonic.

>>42494454
I don't hear the voices so much on medication but I do sometimes have delusional thoughts or experience paranoia. Zyprexa has caused me a bit of weight gain but I was already sort of heavy (have been since I first started taking meds) so it's not caused to much of a drastic change. Zyprexa sometimes causes my hands to shake and it has lowered my libido but it's worth it to keep the psychosis at bay

>>42494522
Also the food is pretty decent, especially breakfast. If you're hungry after hours they'll bring you a pretty tasty (if somewhat dry) sandwich. And if you're having trouble sleeping they'll just give you a pill no questions asked.

kek @ drillbit taylor
Good thread. Enjoyed reading the stories so far.

>>42492903
In first grade I also had one of my few childhood supernatural experiences. I had a dream that they were serving mac and cheese for lunch at school. When I went to school that day, I found that they were indeed serving Mac and Cheese for lunch. But it was of a different recipe than I hoped for so it tasted foul to my sensitive, autistic tongue. I bragged about my ability to sense the future to my brother, who dismissed it and said I must have been told mac and cheese would be served the following day and forgotten about it consciously but not subconsciously.

Anyway, having proven my resistance to normal schooling, I was enrolled in 2nd grade the following year. I was transferred to a different school for this. Now that I was in special education the teacher-student ratio was greater and my usual tactics did not work. The teachers with their greater numbers had a far greater ability to block my escape, and the response to my escape was no longer being sent home. This classroom also made use of "time-out rooms", a euphemism for padded cells. They were about the size of a walk-in closet, a child could walk several paces in one; sometimes had toys, lacked windows, and had carpeted walls. Only one room had pads on a wall, just not all sides of the room just one wall, so I thought my experience did not count as being locked in a padded cell.

psych ward wasn't too bad when i was there 16 years ago. by a stroke of luck, because i was 18 going on 19, i was able to stay in the smaller adolescent ward while still attending some group therapy sessions in the adult ward.

old head in the adult ward told me to make sure i didn't end up back there... and i didn't.

the antipsychotics (xyprexa) are real brain fryers, tho. Turn ya into a zombie and make ya gain weight like a motherfucker

>>42494522

the heart breaks. thank God that for every 1 nurse Ratchet there are 20 other considerate people just doing their best to help others

>>42487803
Yes, I was detained by the police for a suicide attempt when I was 18. They took me to a hospital, locked me in a secured room for almost 2 days with no phone or food. They did give me water. It had a window with an intercom where you could call a nurse, a locked side room, a door leading to the nurse area and a clock on the wall behind the window. After the first day I was taken to see a psychiatrist in the locked room that came off of this small waiting room. I was understandably pissed being locked in a room for a day at this point and didn't feel like talking, I think the only thing I said was "how would you feel being locked in here for a day?". After that the psych just stood up and said "I'm not doing this" and left the room. I'd been in there for about 5 minutes with him. I wasn't even told to leave this room so I re-entered the waiting room and rang the intercom. A nurse came and said you've been admitted to a psychiatric hospital, I started panicking and asking why and If I could speak to the psych again but they said he was gone now. I started pacing and probably looked visibly distressed, 2 guys came in and held me down and forcibly put benzodiazepines (I think) in my mouth. The next thing I remember was waking up in the psych hospital in a shared room that had 4 beds and blinds you could pull across. I walked out of the room and they had an admin desk. As I walked to the desk I noticed an outside courtyard with 4-5 older men staring at my intently, there was also a teenage boy smacking his head repeatedly but softly against a wall. I broke down crying to the nurse and explained the whole situation. She was actually very kindhearted. She arranged an appointment for me with a psychiatrist the next day and after talking to him for a while I think he could tell I wasn't insane or suicidal and discharged me into my parents care. Luckily It was only 1 day in the actual hospital and I just spent most of the time crying on my bed.

>>42495974
Oh I was also prescribed anti psychotics and anti depressants to take after getting out. They made me feel like a complete fucking zombie, I gained 20 kgs and i felt like I couldn't even think anymore. Wouldn't recommend anyone take that shit. After awhile I realised and quit them. It made me sick for a week.

>>42487803
I was in one in my mid 20s. The worst part was that they'd wake me up at like 9am for breakfast and then group therapy at 10am. I'd worked third shift jobs for years and was used to sleeping in the day, but they didn't care. That's pretty much the only part I remember, it was pretty uneventful and boring. The food was pretty bland, basically just hospital food. When I wasn't in group therapy I mostly just read books. Michael Crichton is an overrated author.

Luckily, since I'd voluntarily committed myself, I was able to leave after 3 days. By law if you commit yourself, they can't keep you for more than a few days (at least in TN). I realized I wasn't anywhere near as bonkers as some of the people in there. But there were also a few people in my group therapy session who seemed pretty normal. One was this middle aged woman whose husband had died, and she was struggling with major depression...but that's kind of to be expected after you lose a spouse. She just needed grief counseling or a therapist, but some family member had chucked her in there.

>>42496005
Luvox and Seroquel if anyone wants to know.

>>42495967
Does it make you sleepy? At least you dont suffer when you sleep

>>42496034

all you do is sleep and eat

>>42495904
Whenever a kid there acted out too much they would usually end up in one of the padded cells. I remember when a kid was struggling to not be put in there the teachers would sometimes block our view, I know they also had these laminated pieces of paper with velcro strips which they could use to cover the windows which were on the doors to the padded cells. I can remember struggling to keep closing doors shut. The teachers used these little digital timers for a lot of things in the classroom, including the padded cells. They'd lock us in the cell when we having an emotional breakdown, and for example, tell us we could be let out if we had calmed down in two minutes.

The use of the padded cells was not reported to our parents, which is against the law in certain jurisdictions. I think this happened right around the time when the law changed in the United States. However, I think many of us preferred it this way. I remember telling my parents a little about the padded cells and immediately getting questioned and threatened with punishment, so I learned to keep quiet about them. Getting punished at school was bad enough, I didn't want to get punished at home too.

A lot of people in these sorts of situations talk about how crazy the other students/patients were, but I don't remember having too much trouble with them. As for crazy behavior the only thing I can think of off the top of my head is a couple of students getting mad at each other for staring at the other wrong and copying the other, which just doesn't seem that unreasonable to a 7 year old in a special education class. Maybe there's some kind of selection bias, like people who didn't encounter crazy behavior from their fellows don't have much to talk about.

My family tried sending me to one but because I was tweaking out/sleep deprived. It was a private one so when the tough wagie guards came to get me I made myself clear that I was armed with at least a couple of knives, and a rock/blunt object. Told them if their wages were worth getting a happy smile or losing an eye. They got scared and the institution probably thought I was too much of a liability or not really crazy and just doing too many uppers(my family were too much of a pussies to just call the cops kek) . My family just begged me to take a sleeping pill which I still felt violated. I was reaching such vibrational and inhuman strength after 5 days of staying awake. They thought i was possessed. Even staring at someone I could feel their fear.

>>42492903
>”acting out”
You used that word like 7 times,
That’s their word, to control us, don’t use it. It means nothing and everything. You can be flagged for “acting out” becuase you didn’t wait to get a restroom pass to go to the restroom

>>42487803
During high school I was suffering from anxiety and sleep deprivation because I couldn't focus on doing homework (unpaid labor from prison called school) and my parents (the people who forced me to be here) behaved like retards and yelled at me for not "performing" well in an institution I didn't want to go to, it caused a downwards spiral because their behavior plus school caused stress.
I was sent to a nut house and can't even remember what the dumb shrinks diagnosed me with but I do remember that it made my life way worse and they didn't want to let me go so I had to escape. Thankfully I live in a backwater country and there's not mucu security so they didn't look for me.
It was a werid experience, I was having breakfasts with schizos and anger management dudes, the schizos were a mixed bunch, some were extremely intelligent and I enjoyed listening to their stories and what they know, while some were complete wrecks. Anger management dudes were turned into vegetables almost and it was really sad, probably most of them weren't aggressive but falsely reported by their whore wives or something.
All of this shit could have been avoided if they just let me have some fucking rest, I'm not insane and there was nothing wrong with me, fuck this ugly and rotten world man

involuntarily for psychosis (or more like not knowing how to deal with it), i was there only for a few days because i knew how to get out of the hold quickly. after that i was put on a family home where i was kept a few years, although it wasn't as bad as the psych ward i considered both of these experiences very humiliating. i was infantilized and treated as less than a human by people who were given power over me. i hated it and i am glad that i will never be put there again.

>>42488102
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>>42489157
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>>42496390
You know what fucking sucks? we never got a chance to willingly break through these shitty biological fallacies, your stuck with OCD, psychosis, schizophrenia, like this shit shouldn’t even exist in some capacity but it does cause of all this LAW of the universe bullshit.

I’ve gone 4 times and I think I realize that I’m stuck like this until I die and I’d rather not deal with anxiety or all this crap anymore, you know?

>>42487803
Twice, first time for about 1 month, second time 3 months, straight into the closed section of the psych ward too. Never left one completely sane, I just could pretend not to be God anymore infront of them so they'd release me.

Felt a bit like summer camp back in school.
Met very interesting people in there with interesting stories to tell.
Also I was a good boy so I could go out into the wider clinic areal for an hour or so every day, and bring back cigarettes from the kiosk for the less fortunate of my still completely locked up mates. So I was kind of the hero of the smokers room, and would pass my time in there just smoking and listening to music or talking with my new peers for hours while smoking even more cigarettes.
The food was good too.
The staff treated me nicely after I calmed down and came to some of my senses again (all the tranquilizer meds and shit that got injected into my butt during a small wrestling match with the stronger members of the staff helped).
Infrastructure was excellent, they even had a whole little museum about me in there.
(long story short, as I read nietzsches zarathustra I became insane and convinced of being Nietsches reincarnation with this book being a instruction field manual on for me with code in there only I could decipher on how to awaken as Ubermensch and get others on my levels too, only to later unlock complete God mode and kinda start armageddon by setting my flat on fire alarming police and getting me admitted in the first place.)
So the museum was about Nitzsche who condicdentally also died in the same asylum I was currently locked up in, which didn't really help my delusions back then.
Anyways, the meds helped, psychiatrists are dipshits though and have no idea what they are talking about when it comes to psychosis, which they have never experiecned, but the meds still help big time. Always took them gladly, and tried to stay aways from these cursed psych places as far as I can,

>>42495974
>>42496005
>guy is in pain from this fucked up society
>"I know, lets psychologically torture them!"
This society is so fucking evil istg

>>42496558
> Some motherfucker wants to kill himself
> Let's lock him in a solitary confinement so he wants to kill himself even more
Muh helpline

>>42487818
>most of them got admitted by their mom's as punishment for simple things (talking back, not doing chores, etc.)
Can you legally commit someone for such mild things? This isn't the early 1900's anymore...

>>42496254
>I was reaching such vibrational and inhuman strength after 5 days of staying awake.
Thats mania. Also careful cus not sleeping can unirinically trigger schizophrenia

>>42496350
>some were extremely intelligent and I enjoyed listening to their stories
Any particular one that sung with you til this day ?

>>42496390
>few years
Thats fucked. Like some other anon mentioned up the thread >>42493377 staying there for years.
. Would you mind answering some of this questions? See >>42494236

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>>42496477
>they even had a whole little museum about me in there.
Lol wut ?

>>42494172
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>>42494172
>>42494236
I had a pretty much a very shitty childhood. I would be sectioned for some months then put on voluntary or forced to admit myself under the threat of section (being put under the section comes with lots more restrictions so it’s best to go voluntarily) and then released but into my care home and then end up back, this repeated for a few years. I was never schizo. I was more a threat to others and myself and basically couldn’t be managed in the community.
>>42494236
To answer some of your specific questions; The routine is wake-up and then breakfast, maybe an activity (sometimes a walk around the grounds or outdoor time if you are lucky but mostly crafts), dinner. Lots of sitting around in the ‘living room’ basically a communal space with a tv sometimes a shared console with maybe Minecraft if you are lucky as you can imagine lots of arguing for the remote.
Friends and family are allowed to visit. Family and friends can even come daily within the visiting hours (again depending on your section and circumstances)
Yes most of the antipsychotic medication does make you want to eat, most people pass out after taking their meds surrounded by candy and chocolate wrappers they’ve eaten in a medded up haze
Some staff are lovely and genuinely interact with patients and sometimes even get too involved for both of their sake, some other staff you can see take pleasure in ignoring cries for help, restraining or seeing patients in pain but patients do take notice of this behaviour and these staff sometimes get attacked (I did this a few times and ended up in isolation plenty)
You are actually allowed your phone and many unwell patients end up posting or on TikTok live (mostly the histrionic patients they love this and will get admitted on purpose because they have no life outside of the routine and attention being unwell and looked after gives them)
I did manage to escape and it does happen more than you would think

>>42497820
>continue
Gaining trust and being allowed a walk around the grounds with just one meaner of staff was how I escaped at least twice once was on section so brought back by the police the second time was a voluntary patient so once I escaped I was free I just hid out for a bit

It’s a weird place, the things and stories I heard and saw from patients will stay me forever but I somehow miss it sometimes.

The remote situation can get real heated I once planned to kill another patient over Xbox time, the other patient was abusive to smaller more valuable people and would hog Minecraft and make the whole ward watch him destroy shit on Minecraft with tnt lol so everyday I would ask everyone who was allowed outside to bring me a rock with the plan to put all the rocks in a sock and bash his head in.

>>42497854
>cont
I have so many crazy stories from being in there trying to tell anyone who knows me now I wouldn’t even know where to begin. Definitely being surrounded by a bunch of crazy people does make you act more crazy.
>One girl with schizophrenia was kept locked in a separate bit for months in isolation just her and two staff because she refused to wear clothes. She would scream all day and that was all you could hear until they forced her to take her meds then she would start screaming as soon as she woke
>one boy voluntarily admitted himself because he was going to rape someone and couldn’t get over the constant urge to rape so handed himself in before he did it was always on guard around him and wonder where he is now

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>>42487803
What psychosis feels like? This thread has been interesting to read. I noticed a lot of anons here went through psychosis. If not a condition that will ruin your life for a good time (if not forever) it sure is a experience that stays with you throught out your whole life
>When/how does it it start?
>What are the early symptoms symptoms?
>How it kept getting worse until you have what can be called "an episode" ? For some eople is a thing that build up for months while for others it can happen from a day to another
>For how long lasted?
>How/when did you came out of it?
>How long it took you to recovered?
>Does it get any easier as you have more experience with it?
>Possible triggers?
I want to understand it better, so I can get rid of certain prejudices and understand in an empathetic way what you guys go through

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>>42497854
You wanted to murder a guy over minecraft?

I have been to a psych ward twice in my life, both times at the same place. for the most part it was boring, my roomates either didnt talk, talked to themselves, or one time was a charismatic meth head.

all i remember is being dehydrated due to small amounts of water and shitty food

the reason i went is complicated, basically i started seeing patterns in things that werent connected and also felt as if the front page of youtube thumbnails was talking to me, i swear to god i can logically explain away like 95% of what happened to me, but cant explain shit about the youtube thing, all i remember is asking "who are you", and every video turning into a video about satan. this of course made me snap

anyways, i have to go to a clinic once a month and get an injection now, also i get ssi, or free retard money as a diagnosed schizo

Oh yea, pro tip, never call a suicide hotline, they dont help you, they just call the police to your house so they can take you to the nut hut

>>42495973
Yes, maybe I'm just lucky but I've never seen hospital staff abuse or other misconduct. They were always professionals who seemed to have a genuine interest in the patients' wellbeing.

>>42488685
do it

>>42487803
i should be in one with as often as i drink, get high and generally am not in good shape yes i'm drunk rigt now i get whatever i want and am never happy

my ass hurts

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Almost a year ago to the day I was in the midst of a serious drug binge (meth, nitrous oxide, methadone) and my neighbor found me hallucinating really bad.

Fire department/EMS came and took me to the closest hospital where they placed me on an involuntary 72hr hold where they took my cell phone and I couldn't call or contact anyone within those first 3 days. They also strapped me to the bed so I couldn't get up for the whole 72 hours.

They kept me for a week but after the first 3 days after I finished my withdrawals they gave me my phone back and allowed me to get up out of bed bed.

0/10, would not recommend.

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>>42495974
Goddamn. Sorry anon

>>42496254
What ended up happening?

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>>42498207
I will answer your wall of questions, but in return you listen to my shitty ai music about psychosis and schizophrenia (I go indepht about the experience in the lyrics):
https://suno.com/playlist/66e2f4a1-7384-4a12-a7c8-aefb6266d1c6

>>When/how does it it start?
First time it was too much stress, too much smoking weed, too little sleep, too much meditation. Started like the feeling of hitting enlightenment in a meditation session.
>>What are the early symptoms symptoms?
Feeling connected to a higher power, having a purpose in life, be on a holy mission even, everything starts to make sense, I can think clearer and better than ever before, possibly than ever anyone could think before me-
>>How it kept getting worse until you have what can be called "an episode" ?
After few weeks the voices start and so do the symbols. Everything is related to me, everything starts to talk to me, through reality itself, first only in cipher, then just blatantly obvious like people on tv talking about me in name and discussing how my day went so far and what I'm going to do next, or songs on the radio singing about my inner thoughts and feelings etc. Graffity on the walls dictate to me where to walk next on this mystic quest, so do clouds, stones, billboards, everything.
>>For how long lasted?
Last time it lasted about 6 months in total, three roaming free in the world in this batshit state, 3 months locked up in the mental ward.
>>How/when did you came out of it?
By injecting heavy antipsychotics against my will directly into my butt and waiting a few weeks until they start to work.
>>How long it took you to recovered?
Last psychosis was 10 years ago. I still can't work and live of disability.
>>Does it get any easier as you have more experience with it?
No, second psychosis was even heavier, more intense, more confusing, lasted longer too.
>>Possible triggers?
Going off meds

>>42498226
How does it feel to know that you're not crazy and what was happening was actually happening but current science hasn't caught up with reality yet so you get pigeonholed into being a crazy person.

>>42501560 fair trade I will listen to it

>>42501560
Holy shit anon that actually rocks

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>>42487803
Yes, but I was a juvie and it was for rehab. The rehab was half rehab, half mental inst but for juvies it was both a rehab and mental inst.

Craziest thing I saw was a kid with MPD. Yes, DSM removed it now but it's a real condition. Us other druggies would fuck with the crazies, especially the MPD guy cause he'd literally change entire personality's, to the point of voice and facial expressions with each one. One of the gay personalities loved me, the other gay personality loved the other druggie. Boy did we test his sanity for a week and came to conclusion MPD is real and he is insane. We could only have mini pencils without erasers, cause he tried to stab his heart with full pencil (idiot missed his heart) and chew metal eraser caps to cut himself.

>>42501812
Thank you anon!

>>42494144
Its 78 89 12

>enter psyciatric ward in germany
>bad air quality
>tap water looks like it has dust in it
>get encouraged by the nurses to drink the water from the machines
>it's a Tafelwasser machine which literally is a type of water in germany that is not regulated and defined as "artificially and chemically enriched ground water"
>food tastes stale and doesn't rot when i hide it in my room
>want to leave
>"you can't leave before you have talked to the judge" (wtf?)
>hey (((judge))) I want to leave because I have things to do
>6 week sentence
>forced pharmaceuticals
>mfw

another time

>go to ward because I'm stressed out
>hey (((psychiatrist))) I can't relax at my place anymore I can't sleep I'm seriously going insane
>"you know, this is not a place where you can just go to if you don't like your home"
>lolwut
>get up and walk towards the door, disappointed
>"actually if you leave this room right now we will contact a judge and you will have to stay for 6 weeks again
>realise that the stay will not make my life better because apparently the (((doctors))) are schizophrenic themselves
>just wait until the psychiatrist has left that part of the hospital
>tell the nurses I am buying some fruit juice from the store
>flee the state because I don't want to deal with the corrupt police searching for me

every single time

>>42501560
>https://suno.com/playlist/66e2f4a1-7384-4a12-a7c8-aefb6266d1c6
that stuff is pretty good

>>42497527
the place i spent a few years in wasn't a psych ward, but i was put there immediately after being let out of the psych ward. the group home didn't force medications on me and offered cooked food, the doors were also open and i could leave when i wanted (but the catch was that it was a really remote location so you couldn't get anywhere without a car). still it was not ideal as i was not fully free when living there and the presence of other people and having to live with them felt humiliating to me.

>>42503334

>How was your routine?
psych ward: i only remember i had to take mandatory bloodtests every morning. the group home had more mundane but strict routines, if you missed a meal you couldn't get any more food before the next one.
>Did you get visited constantly by any friends or family?
no, family was too far away and i have no friends.
>Did they give you rivotril or other medications 24/7?
psych ward prescribed me some kind of antipsychotic, can't remember which and it caused strange feelings of electric waves in my head. the group home allowed me to quit the medication so i had only taken it for a few days.
>Did they force you to take meds that would make you hungry on purpose so you would gain weight and your family would be tricked in beliving you were being well treated? (happened to a friend of mine)
no.
>Which pacient made you uneasy the most?
there was some schizo who would constantly get up on my personal space, sometimes he was friendly and sometimes threatening towards me. he also seemed to have some sexual feelings towards me as well.
>Which one did you like the most?
a friendly dude who insisted on speaking english to me.
>Which staff member did you like the most?
there was some student who was very nice to me.
>Which staff member you disliked the most?
an athletic manlet, i disliked all of them and they kind of mixed together for me since i avoided interacting with me. but the athletic manlet seemed much more unpleasant than the others.
>Which activities and distractions were allowed in there?
there was a tv that was way too small for the room it was in.
>Was the outisde/green area nice?
there were parks and a grocery store nearby, i avoided going out tho.

>>42503348
>Did the staff knew how to properly treat and act on different patients based on the level of mental struggles they faced ? Like a chronic schizophrenic having a different treatment, routine or protocol from a more light one, etc
i don't know, i avoided interacting with the staff.
>Did you ever saw someone attempting to escape? What was the consequence?
no, i was there only for a short time.

that is my piece for data profiling, do with it what you will.

>>42501560
>I still can't work
Why ?

>>42487803
i went straight to crazy jail for having an axe at new year.
fucking retards.
then there was 1week vaccation for doctors. so they forced me to take meds.
later they did not even know what they had given me.
all i can recommend is to deliberately withdraw any attention from such institutions and go for non-petrochemical, but earth based traditional medicines.
such as ayurveda, tcm or similar.
stuff that works because it has been showing good results for milennia. and hand the petrochemisty right back to the elites who can pay to be guinea pigs, themselfes.

>>42487803
Worked in an Army hospital psych ward when I was in the Army. It was chill AF. 95% of them were people just trying to get kicked out.

Good place to pick up chicks. Found both my wives at one.

>>42496967
A cruel parent can push a child that age way past their emotional and psychological limit and then tell whatever story they want about what caused it, if they can afford to pay the bills. Then that child has a record of psych issues to point to as the reason for any struggles, while the parent continues to use them for an outlet over the years behind closed doors.
A little kid in a psych ward for small problems like chores is being conditioned to think their normal emotions at the appropriate developmental stage are a sign something is wrong with them, so the parent doesn’t have to take responsibility for their own emotions as an adult and parent the child through those phases. They will as a result develop actual psychological issues, and the parent will point to having them committed at 6 over a tantrum against doing the dishes as proof they were born that way.
It’s twisted but it’s rare that people will one, care, two, do anything. The parent tells whatever story will get the kid in and that goes on the record. That’s how that form of parental control and child abuse works.

>>42505065
Share tale

>>42501560
I couldn't be arsed to answer these questions but this is an excellent account that lines up with my own experiences.

>>42497854
>The remote situation can get real heated I once planned to kill another patient over Xbox time, the other patient was abusive to smaller more valuable people and would hog Minecraft and make the whole ward watch him destroy shit on Minecraft with tnt lol so everyday I would ask everyone who was allowed outside to bring me a rock with the plan to put all the rocks in a sock and bash his head in.
Fucking kek, the thought of holding a grudge and planning to kill someone because they won't share the remote is for some reason extremely funny to me. God bless you anon, hopefully you never felt that way about anyone ever again.

It was the most boring experience of my life. I just paced around the ward, making the staff think that I am more insane. The food is sort-of great, it was cooked by the cooking staff. There was a snack between lunch and dinner.

I got sent there due to me experiencing spiritual psychosis. I tapered of clozapine but the bliss was amazing.

Before that, I thought the fastest way to enlightenment was burning offerings to a deity. I burned offerings to Lilith at midnight (I didn't have sex with her, she was weirded out that I wanted to have sex with her). But, the bliss she gaved me was amazing. I thought everything connected, that we all could be friends, etc. I was then sent after a few days by my parents.

Honestly, it was pretty sad. There was a chef who was confined there and just worked there. There was a teacher that was also confined and worked there. I am not sure with their diagnosis, but it was sad of them to not be free.

I really wanted to get out of there as fast as possible so I prayed to my higher self. I prayed using the name Ranko to enter the dreams of the pscyhiatrist. Then, the staff ended up being selling their soul to Satan. They ended up blaming me because I ended up a christo-pagan while being there, maybe I was being punished by Satan. I was a Joy of Satan member. I also thought that the demon Berith is actually Jesus in disguise who rebelled against Satan, I later figured that I was wrong.

So, yeah, having no abilty to see and hear astral being sucks ass. You'll just end up experiencing spiritual psychosis.

>>42506794
you motherfucker need to go back into the Asylum

>>42505183
especially single parents.
mostly these single parents have cluster b.
like mine. who got aid by some loser with diagnosed bipolar disorder.

>>42506794
hm...
yes... it is good you sold the souls of the assholes that held you captive.
next time also check for the people that forced you in there. fuck them up completely. but make sure to not fuck yourself up. but i guess... your constitution is... well... you need a good teacher who you can respect and learn from the real original druidic codes.

been there several times due to schizophrenia
knocked a doctor in the face 2024 due to him force-injecting me with strong potent haloperidol
i've realized though i have to take the fucking meds so i can work and that everything looks good on paper"hes taking hes meds hes a good citizen now"

im an artist. musician, composer.
im not a trainwreck like most schizos who just sit on the chans all day cumming their cocks, ive got business shit to do so i cant take no risks, i have to take the fucking meds, somewhat reluctantly tho

>>42507607
don't be weak bro just go through withdrawal and overcome the psychosis. Pharmas inhibit creativity by preventing REM sleep.

Reading this thread makes me thankful I managed to go through 38 years without getting into the mental "healthcare" rabbit hole at all. Though it came close several times.

I’m bipolar and had some manic episodes, I’ve been sent twice against my will by my mom. they just showed up to our house in a van, cuffed me, and brought me to the ward. Sucks because now I’m not allowed to own a gun, I’ll honestly never forgive my mom for that since people like me are hated and need protection.
Psyche wards are the most depressing, boring places on planet earth. You just eat, sleep, and draw. They have activities that are all boring and you have to do them if you want to get released. I didn’t have video games or iPads or any of the stuff these other anons talk about in their fancy psyche wards, I had government healthcare so I got sent to the shitty ones. I spent most of my time writing a journal with those shitty suicide-proof pencils that barely work. I ended up using crayons instead because the pencils were so useless. The food in the first psyche ward was really bad, I have a lot of allergies so I basically had dry overcooked chicken for every meal. The second place was much better, and I actually remember the food fondly.
First time I had a lot of “fun” with the other patients, one of the staff actually threatened me and said I was going to get beaten up if I didn’t stop “acting like a faggot.”
I had some friends while I was there but mostly people hated me and mocked me. The staff ranged from apathetic to cruel and also mocked me quite a bit.
First time I was there for like 5 days, second time it was like 12 days. Easily the worst experiences of my life. .

>>42510714
cont
My manic episodes were actually probably the happiest times in my entire life before I got put in the wards. I thought I was chosen by god for a higher purpose, I was convinced the staff were all part of the Illuminati and were conspiring against me. I had some actually legit paranormal experiences during my manic episodes, did a lot of meditation and stopped sleeping for days, started doing a lot of religious rituals where I would just gather all the materials that were nearby, make an altar and some art, and then meditate. Exotic insects would land on me, birds were in synch with me when I danced, would hear snakes hissing at me from the bushes and stuff, even heard a lion once.
I’m convinced that being in a manic state brings you closer to paranormal entities and either attracts them or allows you to perceive their presence more. I’m not religious anymore, now I just call them “entities” because I don’t believe they’re mythological figures from any religion. About 3 times they strangled me, about a dozen times I could feel them clawing at my heart and heard a bunch of monstrous noises coming from inside me, like demons were clawing at me from inside. They’re something we don’t understand, but they’re definitely real, and I think maybe they interact with crazy people because they know nobody will believe them. The synchronicities are undeniably meaningful though, they can’t be explained away with “it’s all in your head.” I would move the energy around in my body and then extend my hands, and birds would fly over me in the direction I motioned. One time I was dancing and as soon as I finished I motioned toward the sky and a whole flock of birds flew over me in the direction I was pointing. A manic state definitely synchronizes you with other lifeforms and draws the attention of entities.
Other patients thought I was magical in the psyche wards. They saw mimics of me, was interesting

No one will speak how meds actually stops your seretonin and receptors so you can’t feel emotions anymore?

>>42510743
I can definitely relate, I’m on olazapine and I don’t get sad or happy anymore, just kind of in this zombie state in between. I remember crying a lot and having profound happiness when I’m off the meds, now I don’t get any extremes of emotion at all except for anger

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