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Hello, this is rather embarrassing to admit. But lately I've been trying to confront my flaws and move forward in life, as I'm in my early 20s and don't want to be plagued with guilt and shame for the rest of my life.

Back in 2020, during the peak of the BLM movement, I became rather politically active in terms of turning into a racist little shit, and with that racist little shitness came a guilty pleasure in watching interracial porn. This has become a curse, as now my OCD has become truly terrible these days, and I am haunted by these memories. I have a hard time listening to rap music I used to enjoy without thinking of the porn, and being around black people in public, as all it does is make me anxious and sends groinial responses. It's really embarrassing to admit, and sometimes I contemplate maybe just ending my life because it's become such an issue these days.
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Lol wut? You should quit watching porn and try to date a black girl.
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>>34441608
I quit porn for long portions of time then relapse sometimes. I like black women but I’m very particular about the kinds I’m attracted to, idk if that would fix anything. I appreciate the suggestion, though.
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>>34441521
I think you need to distance yourself from it all as much as possible, and by 'it all' I mean both porn and sociopolitical stuff.
Exercise, study, get one or further dive into your hobbies, and all. You can also try to get together with a black girl, if that is something you want.

I don't know why you Americans (assuming you are American, anyway) are so obsessed with this racial thing, you seem to give an excessive importance to it, and I mean on both sides, both the whites and the blacks. Why not just learn to coexist and treat people according to how they behave, rather than their race?
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>>34441635
I feel like I need to clarify the porn was of black men fucking white women. Not white men fucking black women, even though I do enjoy that too.

Other than that, you are correct. I only recently relapsed on porn again and I haven’t worked out in a while. So that’s probably a sign to get to work on both of those things again.
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>>34441615
It's cool you're not an extremist racist anymore. I think to rewire your adoration of bbc down to simply just the middle b part, you need to not fight your mind. Accept that your thinking about porn and let it pass over you. If you agonize over it, you give the thoughts more power. I don't think completely avoiding black people is a solution.
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>>34441655
Thanks for the advice, anon. This actually lines up with the OCD idea of ERP, something I’ve practiced before with successful results. But whenever I do it with this particular issue, the shame becomes too much. I need to get over that and keep trying.
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things are gonna be ok
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>>34441521
I have the same problem. Whenever I relapse I just completely lockdown all my devices with impenetrable blockers for 3-4 days. So taht I don't relapse again and go into that goonpocalypse zone. When I feel normal again I remove the blockers and get back to my normal life.

the blocker is pluckeye for my desktop and digital detox by urbandroid for my phone.

Try to meditate for 5-10 minutes a day. This will calm you down in stressful stuffs
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>blurring the line between kink weirdo and western demoralisation
of all the arts a person could practice, you chose shitposting
lmao
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>>34441521
Two choices:

Stop doing it
Stop feeling bad about doing it
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>>34441797
you’d be surprised
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>>34441843
Can’t you do both
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>>34441521
>pleasure in watching interracial porn
correction
you take watching pleasure in watching BBC
YOU WANT BBC
why is the interracial porn hot?
because there's a BBC in it
if there was no BBC
it would be boring
am I right or am I right?
but BBC is not as common as you may think
most niggas aren't packing that much that's the thing
so what is this really about?
are you a cuck or are you a faggot?
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>>34443099
I legitimately don’t know. I don’t really think romantically of men ever. It could be a cuck thing, but I also have plenty of fantasies and sex where I’m in control/dominating. Maybe it’s due to my varying self esteem?
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>>34441521
>Embarrassingly haunted by interracial porn thoughts
Nothing quite like a black bitch calling you massuh as you slide your dick into her pussy.
You should try it some time.
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>>34441521
Why are rightoids like this? Why do they always become cuckolds??
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>>34443487
Maybe you self-insert as the black guy???
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>>34441521
It's ok to be embarassed. You're not the only one going through it.

Just consider it natural and part of the progressive social developments in the world. White women are more open rightfully to dating Black men and given its a lil taboo it makes it more fun :)

Its the boldest political statement you can make, embracing and enjoying happy dynamic interracial relationships! You're a step ahead your peers! Wear it on your sleeve :)
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realize that porn isn't real like pic rel >>34444134 and that these are typically thought up by white people
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>>34441521
>Hello, this is rather embarrassing to admit. But lately I've been trying to confront my flaws and move forward in life, as I'm in my early 20s and don't want to be plagued with guilt and shame for the rest of my life.
Good man, you'll soon be thanking yourself for quitting as early as you are.
>Back in 2020, during the peak of the BLM movement, I became rather politically active in terms of turning into a racist little shit, and with that racist little shitness came a guilty pleasure in watching interracial porn.
Nothing wrong with being proud of your ethnicity, but your addiction to porn needs to go.
>This has become a curse, as now my OCD has become truly terrible these days, and I am haunted by these memories.
These are flashbacks, and they're merely your brain's last desperate attempts at pulling you back into homeostasis, which is constantly being flooded with porn-induced dopamine spikes.
>I have a hard time listening to rap music I used to enjoy without thinking of the porn, and being around black people in public, as all it does is make me anxious and sends groinial responses.
I'm no psychologist, but if I were a gambling man, I'd say you have a form of pure-OCD, specifically fixated on your sexuality, which was brought on by years of porn abuse. It is not an uncommon occurrence among porn addicts. I would know, I was one of them! And now I'm not, and soon you'll be free of porn too.
>It's really embarrassing to admit, and sometimes I contemplate maybe just ending my life because it's become such an issue these days.
Don't be embarrassed. It takes balls to come forward and admit you have a problem. The vast majority of people either casually watch porn, or ignorantly accept it as a normal part of modern life, and we clearly understand that it is anything but normal. Without forcing you to feed from the firehose, you must understand that porn is not an innocent thing you watch. It's a weapon, expertly crafted to destroy you and your people.
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>>34443487
I get what you mean. You want to be that black guy with a bbc. you're not nto getting cucked but cucking others. That's your ultimate fantasy.

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