>>77191457
i WILL smell a hot woman's ass this week

I do pull ups at work when I’m bored with a bar. This morning when I did warm up dead hang. My head felt funny after 10 seconds so I let go. I started having tunnel vision, problem breathing and my head started to spin. I lost my balance which made me fell to the ground on my hands and knees. My vision went full black, heart hurting,problem breathing. All this took me by surprise and I was like shit am I gonna die what the fuck is happening then my body started convulsing BADLY. I lost all control of my body shaking like the ass of a black hooker that’s twerking. I went full panick mode begging god to not let me die. Please god save me I’m so scared don’t let me die I don’t wanna die. This went on for a bit and then while my vision was still gone I saw bright white light. Deadass hallucinated being in a busy shopping street full with people laughing and walking while I was still on the ground shaking. People were walking past me, some stopped i saw friends,family,strangers pointing at me with a smile on their face. My mom saying to person next to her he is a filthy junkie haha. Not a single person showed any concern or interest to help. Then my vision started returning and I stopped shaking. I was all alone so I continued back to work, had lunch and now I’m typing this. Weird start of the week I don’t feel so good lol

>>77191468
Good luck!

>>77191492
fuck, I hope you're not as disconnected from loved ones and isolated existencially as this hallucination implies.

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I'm one month porn free now.
It doesn't mean I didn't fap or had sex, but I did so without pornography, without gooning for hours and much less.
One mistake I've made is that I caught myself looking at girls wearing almost nothing doing calisthenics on Instagram. However this made me realize something. It's not about wanting to see perfect bodies and imagining fucking them. It's about another fantasy. The fantasy of being... Whole... Of being accepted... Of being... Enough. When I see them smile at me I feel like in an unforeseeable future one might hug me and I'd finally feel enough. But I know it's a lie. Unfortunately women are humans, too, and human relationships are messy. I know it first hand. Yet I fool myself thinking heaven is right around the corner, and keep chasing something which isn't there.
It'd be easy to say: lol, just love yourself bruh, but I'm afraid I'm at the point where answers won't come that easily. I think that instead of fighting it I should make peace with the fact that I'll never feel whole and this longing for something is always going to be by my side. I "just" have to make sure it won't ruin what I've built.
Thank you for reading my blog. Take care. Happy Easter!

>>77191468
rookie mistake. go for cute girl ass

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down to three games in the backlog. I did mostly okay limiting the gaming but i was also off friday. thought of another game to put on there but ill wait until its on sale.
maintained drinking goals - think i had maybe three drinks last week. got all my bloodwork back and i'm pretty much the picture of health outside of LDL cholesterol which seems to have a genetic component so its more about trying to minimize that risk. also my vitamin D and coritsol, glucose, omega 3 and uric acid levels were a bit out of range so those are going to be my focus.
did not make the driving range. felt like crap most of the week because of allergies. justed booked my lesson though,
hit 201 on the scale yesterday - if i keep this up i'll be comfortably under 200 in a month but 195 is still the target.
Goals this week - driving range before golf lesson on saturday, get back into routine tomorrow, log everything i eat. come up with a plan for the health metrics that i can get back in range.

>>77191457
>Were you thinking of giving up today?
nope
>What are your goals for this week?
actually consistently work out, I never stick with it the longest I lifted for was 2 weeks and that was 4 years ago. I have a home gym to I got no excuses.
>What do you plan to achieve? List it all down.
- practice the piano every day.
- start learning to draw.
- get on a lifting/exercise routine.
- read consistently as well.
- get my oral hygiene up, I don't floss consistently and sometimes I skip brushing my teeth or wearing my retainer. I should also shower or bathe (with a bucket and rag) every day.
- stop eating fast food last week I got that shit for breakfast like 3-4 times
- clean my room and basement (where I hang out)
- maybe get back into vidya, I think piano and drawing is more productive however
- OH, and quit 4chan, reddit, reading manhwa online, porn, etc. I should live offline.

>>77191492
That vision was false, your family and friends love you. In any case, you should reduce the amount of time you spend on the bar

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>>77191457
Week 3 of 12 for this program I built and am running. Siblings were in town so I lived a little bit over the weekend, probably ate too much but definitely nothing like I have done on holiday weekends in the past. Let's get it boys

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>>77191556
I am
>>77191652
Euh I’m sure they do but we have complicated relationship. I’m also not close anymore with friends or new people really. I started with gym a month ago and I’m making great progress which is awesome

>>77191557
Congrats on quitting porn! I’m the same way, I’ve quit porn but I still fap. Oh well, we have to celebrate our victories. Try blocking instagram accounts with softcore porn. In the meantime, let’s keep building upon our foundations.
Happy Easter!

>>77191600
You’re doing great, so keep working hard! You’ve obviously developed a strategy, utilize it to reach your goal!

>didn’t have my hobbies to do this past weekend due to the holiday so literally didn’t leave the house at all except to bike aimlessly on Saturday for an hour or so
>now Monday comes and it’s back to the misery of the week

It’s so over for me man. Someone who’s my age mid 30s is supposed to be so busy with life that they barely have time to relax. They’re supposed to have a marriage, kids, a career, a house, and hobbies to need to balance where any spare time they get for themselves is a blessing. Then you have a complete loser like me who just sits in a room for an entire weekend making absolutely zero progress at all in my life for the ridiculous number of things I need to just scrounge together even the most basic life that most people already achieved a decade ago. My spirit is dead and gone. I’m just waiting for death at this point.

>>77191457
Happy Monday, dudebros. New week, same goals:
>wife's butthole: any%
>treadmill until abs
>big lifting, little eating

Just got back in town from Spring Break travel yesterday. Today's weigh in indicates I've probably lost a little weight, despite eating and drinking carelessly. All that tourist-walking added up, I guess.

Settling right back into the plan. Should be looking good for pool season.

>>77191557
Anons like you motivate me. I have been gooning everyday when my wife leaves for her run. Instead ofngoing with her I say I have homework (which I do). I graduate in 29 days. Last night I decided to hang out with some buddies instead of gooning. Im tired of porn, i dont even like it anymore, its just a weird habit to do. Im gonna keep going to the gym amd WAGMI baby.

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I WILL LEARN THAT I PASSED MY CFA LEVEL 3 EXAM TOMORROW
I WILL SUCCEED IN MY JOB
I WILL REGAIN MY STRENGTH BY THE END OF MAY

Tomorrow I’m receiving my exam results. I’ve been through this ordeal many times. I hope this is the final time I need to be in this position. I’m simultaneously extremely nervous and extremely calm. I tried my best until the very end. I pray it was enough to cross the mountain. I’ve worked unbelievably hard since I chose to embark on this journey. Now I’m ready to look out from the peak. This time I’m passing.

The new financial quarter was begun. This cycle will be significantly less challenging than the previous one. Now I’m on my fourth filing. This time I need to master the process. I’m ready to prove to everyone that I’m capable and can succeed.

Best of luck on your goals frens! Spring is beginning and so are new chapters of our lives! WAGMI!

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Yesterdays lifts
>bench 265x5 225x8 225x8
>arnold press 5x10
>cable pushdowns 5x20
>face pulls 5x20
Bench was a pr but the reps were grinders and I messed up my trap/neck, nothing major fortunately. 315 gets steadily nearer
Deadlifts tomorrow, usually tuesday is squats but I'm deadlifting 2x a week rn because I want extra practice now that I've had a form breakthrough and quite frankly I'm sick of squats for now

>>77191642
Those are all admirable goals, good luck! You’ve spent that money on a home gym, now you need to get your money’s worth

>>77191672
There’s nothing wrong with living a little as long as you don’t go overboard or fall off. Now get back into the rhythm, you’re only going to get better!

>>77191715
Then don’t lose your remaining friends. It gets significantly harder to make new friends once you enter society

>>77191801
It’s only over when your heart stops beating. You need a hobby. And before you try to defend yourself, you’ll grow older no matter what

>>77191838
Good luck with your abs! Remember to do some abs exercises as well to make them pop

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>>77191457
>down to 96 kg in 6 weeks from 99.5
>stopped porn and jerk off with a loose grip to try heal deathgrip that has ruined all my relationships for my entire life
Slow and steady

>>77191754
>Congrats on quitting porn!
Back in the day we used to say "you never quit wow you just take breaks". I feel similarly with porn. I don't think it's possible to completely forget about it. I had like 3-4 months long streaks before but I always slipped back. This time I try to acknowledge that I have this weakness in me instead of fall into the trap of hubris and fool myself into thinking I'm invincible. I haven't played wow in 7 years I think but I still feel the pull from time to time. The thing which helps is that I've built a life which is incompatible with gaming. I have no time to play, and even if I do I have this priority list of better past time activities. Not to mention that sometimes I legit just stare outside the window for long minutes to reset my mind. With porn it's harder because the phone is always in your hand and when you work from home and have a lot of downtime you can basically turn your whole day into a gooning session without realizing it. But it'd be great to look back 6-7 years later and say: I just simply don't have enough room in my life to let in even a minute of porn.

>Try blocking instagram accounts with softcore porn.
You are right. You've made me start blocking and unfollowing them. Thank you for the encouragement!

>>77191908
>Anons like you motivate me
Damn. I've never thought I'd motivate anyone. That alone is a huge fuel to keep going. Regarding being alone while your wife is not around: I know that feeling. I'd suggest doing some stretching or mobility while she's not home. It's a good complimentary thing to the gym and just keeps you busy enough not to fap while she's not there.
>Im tired of porn
That's a good starting point. It's easier to let go when you are sick of it. Try to remember this feeling when the urge comes. Good luck, anon! And remember: even if you fail, you are not a failure. It's the trap of the addiction, making you believe you can never leave so why bother. So even if you relapse keep going.

>>77191977
You’re definitely hitting 3pl8 by the end of the year! What benching program do you use? You’re crazy strong

>>77191457
Sadly i did think about giving up today, passover break is over and got back to school, hurts seeing how all My Friends are popular and talkative with the girls while i'm still an autist loner, it specially hurts me when i hear girls talk with disgust when they get assigned with me on a group project or they have to ask something from me, happened to me again today on first hour and kinda just Made me demotivated for the rest of the day, i'm not even like horribly ugly or smth so i know it's all my own fault for not having social skills, i'm almost finished with highschool and feel like Ive wasted it all, any tips on how to improve My Rep are welcome.
On the bright side ive gotten more consistent with hitting the gym, i'm still a begginer so my lifts are kind shit But i just hit 40 kg on bench, I want to get more into reading and i'm almost finished with the book im reading rn, Also trying to sleep earlier and stick to clean foods.
I feel like improving myself won't help with My social stuff rn, cuz a Lot of the culture in My country revolves around materialistic stuff, like drugs, violence and lust, so i avoid most of it.

>>77192300
You’ve come far already and will only improve as you continue to hit your stride. Good luck!

I pray for good news tomorrow. If not, I will complete by goal by the end of the year

>>77192318
Thanks for sharing that story about wow. I also need to create a life that's so rewarding that I no longer have the power to relapse

>>77191457
> Were you thinking of giving up today?
No!
> What are your goals for this week?
Actually, I'm planning to put some order at home and at work, I have a bit of a mess on both fronts.
>What do you plan to achieve?
1. I had planned a date for today, but she hasn't confirmed that it's still on, so I think shit's FUBAR.
1a. I have a backup, she brought me some foreign cakes and wants to see me today but I first want to know if the first girl has canceled.
2. It's my Mother's birthday this week, so I am going to give her an envelope with money, she told me that's what she wanted, that's what she will get.
3. I want to walk again, I am planning to go on a trip in July and I know that I am in no condition to be trekking all day long. I am thinking on a Baby Steps approach.

I could be adding more stuff to this original post later.

>>77192292
Trying to remember do some hanging knee raises on cardio days, for now. It'll be a nice problem to have, having to worry about my abs actually popping, but it's hard to be motivated for it right now. Once I'm more in range it it'll be easier to convince myself.

>>77192379
If you have popular friends, ask them for tips. Just being in their orbit will improve your life. Honestly, you're still young. Go to university with the mentality of becoming the type of person you want to be. High school isn't forever and it's nearly finished for you. Try to join as many clubs/societies as you can as well as make memories

>>77192606
Good luck with getting back in shape! Remember to take small steps so you can reach your goal

I will be optimistic about the future. WAGMI

I love these threads. Hope everyone is doing ok and got a work out in. It's 8:30 pm here and I'm headed to gym now. I'll be thinking about the self awareness of cleaner fish and jamming Prince and death metal. Going for PRs tonight on my dumbell presses. Wish me luck bros. I'll check in when I get home and reply to mean comments. WAGMI

I think I've hit the natty limit after 14 years of lifting, I really can't get much bigger or stronger. Gonna switch to focusing on health, will still lift but focus on cardio and being lean.

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Today's lifts
>Deadlift 425x3 + 1 afterward with opposite grip
>Leg press 5x10
>1pl8 carries 3 sets of 3 round trips across the turf
>Back extensions 2x10
Deadlift finally moving again after a fucking eternity
>>77192377
I haven't followed a preset program in ages, the general structure I do is challenging top set - could be anywhere from a 1rm attempt or a set of 10, I decide on the drive over - aiming for some kind of PR, followed by 2-3 sets of volume work, sets of 5 if the top was less than 5, otherwise match the top set reps. Twice a week.
BUT I'm also a fatty who eats a shitload of eggs and breakfast sausage, that probably helps more than any actual programming

>>77192732
Good luck bro! I hope you smashed some PRs! What songs did you end up listening to? WAGMI

Update on the Pure app. It's not for dating, it's straight up for sex. Inviting a match to grab a coffee will result in unmatching.
Always mention that "your place is nearby". Then it works.

Went for run yesterday (5.8km) was really humid and warm - felt great for about the first 2km, then I died.

Looks like summer has arrived fellas.

>>77192914
There’s nothing wrong with changing goals. You’ve made a lot of improvement, now it’s time for you to pivot towards another goal

>>77191715
its time to seek God and reconciliation with your family.

>>77194708
Ignore this loser. Can't wait until dems are back in power just so the christ larpers crawl back under their rocks.

>>77193388
Checked and thanks for the advice. I’ve accepted that eating a fuck ton is one of the only ways I can get significantly stronger

>>77192157
Oh yeah I’m 24 now and I experienced that it’s way harder than school. I’m still able to make friends when I do social activities but I prefer to keep relationships surface level.
>>77194708
I got ok relationship with my family. I was raped multiple times when I was younger and I never told anyone. I tried to move on with life but stuff changed desu. My mom told me she wished I was dead when my grades dropped and rest of my family ridiculed me constantly for not performing well. I do not wish any harm upon them but honestly I rather not spend with any time with them. Besides my nieces and nephews I don’t like to be around anyone.
I do believe in god, times where I almost died I got saved when I genuinely should have not made it. But anytime I pray for an answer or any meaning to life I get only silence in return. We still ball regardless

>>77194601
What matters is that you ran. Keep running, it’ll get easier after a while.

Summer is here :)

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I just put a splash of coffee creamer in my oatmeal and it's unfortunately delicious. How over is it for me

>>77194783
You’ve lived a rough life, but you’re mentally strong. Don’t cut them out, but do find ways to minimize their presence in their life.
Fuck it, we ball

>>77191838
Hope you eat that hole soon, anon. Rooting for you

>>77195754
Thanks, bro. I anticipate a lot of good sex this summer thanks to the kids being out of the fucking house, and by that point my cut should be paying off visibly. Wife also got some good news today which should result in a major de-stress at her job soon. All in all, I think I'll be well poised for pushing the anal front.

Intending to concentrate more on the primary goal of getting my dick in her ass, which amounts to working her butt up to the plug I bought and then when the moment is likely, maybe she's lubed from a finger and warm from an orgasm, I'll rub my dick on her butthole and see what happens.

Still going for the buttlicking, though. After I feel like the statute of limitations on the no she gave me a couple weeks ago is up, sometime when she's clean and I'm eating her pussy anyway, I'll give her booty the tongue. May take a bit for that right opportunity to come around - need to also have her in the right mood.

Resolved myself to stop talking with her about sex stuff outside of the moment in general. I get a lot more yes when she's already got her pants off. The buttlicking I felt like I needed to ask first because I want her to be clean for it, but I really should have picked a better moment.

Anyway. Still trying! WAGMI(UHB)

>>77195077
Not at all. You had a temporary lapse of decision. Don’t let a bad moment ruin your day

>>77195077
That's nothing, man, look what I did today. Fucking huge mistake, but I'll work it into the macros somehow.

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>>77197088
Shit, lol, doxxed myself with the brand on the cutting board. Let's try again.

>>77196877
WAGMI and checked

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I've been cycling almost every day for the last 10 days. Now I'm going out for day 11.


WAGBI (we're all gonna bike it) bros

>>77198295
Based bike bro. Hopefully I'll have my first ride this weekend.

>>77198299
*in this season, I mean.

>>77191838
>>77196877

hell yeah analbro. just got through another ten day marathon of baby making sex and my dick was literally coughing up fumes at the end. im excited for recreational sex again

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>>77198339
my cut is also going well, should be about ten pounds away but the weather has been shit for cardio + easter candy

>>77191457
Do any of you have experience with adhd meds? I think maybe they didn’t work in the past and gave such awful side effects (anxiety paranoid crashes sleep issues etc) was because I was taking a fuck load of caffeine with it. I’m trying to quit caffeine and nicotine and I’m willing to try again but I kind of want to stay away from stimulant based meds.

>>77197120
Looks yummy. Try giving some to your friends

>>77198295
>almost every day
well I missed 3 actually
one cuz my ass hurt
one cuz I wasn't going to take a second fucking shower before going to work the next day
and yesterday cuz I got really sleepy and felt like going to bed earlier

other than that it's every day, I'm sticking to it as much as I can

>>77198299
thanks, weather's been really good lately for me (not too cold not too warm with some wind) so I've been taking full advantage
hope you can have that ride this weekend, anon

>>77198344
Congrats! Keep pushing towards your goal. What have the been the most effective methods in cutting?

>>77191457
Made some progress at work this week. I am gonna finish the internship contract in 6 months(maybe extra 3). The lack of guidance at this place is fucking horrifying. I will continue with my masters full time. Sell my car then buy a bike to cut costs and work part time. Will reattempt for international scholarship. At this point idk how my life is gonna pan out. The energy I am spending at the job I will use it on what I want the masters is one thing for academia, but game dev is the other. i will execute my plan.

>>77198362
I’d recommend staying away from drugs. I took a bunch of adhd meds as a teen and they nuked my libido

>>77198798
I was on concerta during my teen years. Slowed me down way too much, basically retarded me to the point of being counterintuitive. The irony is when I quit it I got it all together, got fit started focusing and doing my classwork and getting As. Went into college, at some point started abusing caffeine like up to 1000mg a day at points. Tried adderall a few times. Worked for the first month then turned into masturbation marathons. Bad paranoia and anxiety, sleep issues, crashes.
I think the caffeine (piss poor attempt to self medicate) needs to go before I do anything. It fucks with how the drugs affect me. But I don’t care if I lose libido if I can fucking focus for once again. Attention span ain’t what it was 10 years ago. Maybe the caffeine is the problem, still using 300-450mg a day atm

>>77198731
Nobody knows how life will work out. It’s important to have a plan, but also accept all of the turbulence that will occur. It sounds like you have a solid plan. I’d recommend trying to connect with people in the video game field to learn more about the industry. Good luck!

>>77198428
Wife and kids destroyed it, lol. Made big sandwiches for dinner so I could have some and still call it on plan.

>>77198339
Goddam, I remember those days. I'll never forget my wife surprising me with the most amazing red lingerie to try and coax one more out of me and my dick just refusing.

>>77198344
Weather and holidays just happen. We can do all the math in the world, but that stuff is what it is. Can't get too down about it. I spent all week kind of failing on my cut due to jet lag, but next week will be better, so I'll just keep on going.

WAGMI, bros. Sooner or later.

>>77198892
Thanks for making these threads anon. Really appreciate it. Gives me a sense of determination reading other people's stories. I hope you are doing well! Enjoy the weekend and good luck with the rest.

>>77191457
Something wonderful will happen to (you) soon

>>77198999
CHECKED AND WAGMI

>>77199051
I really love creating these threads. I make them for that very reason - I want to know how other people are striving to succeed

>>77199137
Oh man, I didn't even notice those diggies. It's gonna be a good weekend, I reckon.

>>77199054
Something great already happened to me this week. Now I have smaller wishes that I hope come true soon

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I have passed my level 3 CFA exam! Although the paperwork to become a full charterholder remains, I am officially finished with my CFA exams. I no longer need to study. No more Friday nights spent next to textbooks. I haven’t really accepted that it’s over. My entire journey keeps on flashing before my eyes, like recalling a movie that I just saw. I don’t want to feel too much regret over the process. What’s important is that I’ve passed now. There were many painful chapters that I had to endure. I hope after overcoming these chapters, I’ve gained strength. I need to remember that I’ve proved myself. From this day, I need to live with the knowledge that I’ve proven myself as capable. I will succeed

I originally came to /MIS/ because I wanted to share my professional and fitness dreams (I was in the thread that had this post). When MIS Autism Anon stopped making the threads, I realized how much I loved this place. I revived this general like a phoenix and developed a cadence. Since then, you’ve all gotten to hear me talk about my drama, in terms of studies, work, and fitness. I’ve also learned about your dreams. I appreciate getting to know how much you’ve all worked to achieve your goals. Even if you posted as a blackpiller, I want to believe that there’s something driving you to improve. We’ve all changed for the better and will reach even greater heights.

Good luck frens! WAGMI

89 days of sobriety.
Got a job.

>>77199568
massive bro proud of you. the struggle of stopping something isnt easy

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>>77199510
Nice going senpai. I remember feeling like that in the past - grinding shit out, struggling and feeling like you're too retarded but then you do pass whatever and it feels so strange that you no longer have to study lol.

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>started lifting because I just want to get girls
>fast forward
>stopped caring about girls and just want to lift for the sake of lifting
>mfw I suffer withdrawals from not lifting (due to sickness and etc)

>>77199568
Congrats! You've worked insanely hard and should be proud. Have you joined AA?

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>>77200156
Yes, I have a sponsor and I'm working on step 2 right now. I can feel the difference from where I started to where I am now. Cravings for drugs and alcohol aren't as bad.
I have some ammunition against my addiction now. I see there is an alternate path my life can go (sobriety) and that's more appealing than the degeneracy I was living in before.
Feels good man.

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>>77199671
Thanks for the praise. I just tired right now. I have time but I need to figure out what’s next

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>be me
>working at a shit job
>manager sucks, half the staff fucks off while the working half picks up slack
>had an interview at another place
>went well, got hired
>had to process a bunch of shit so it would take a month before I could work
>stay at shit job in meantime
>new job starts monday
>went into shit job today
>had a horrible shift that reminded me why I hate my manager
>fast forward to 8pm
>just texted in my "I quit" message
>smoking a joint
>gonna wake up and hit the gym at the time my shift was supposed to start
the dopamine I felt hitting block number was like a heroin hit bros

>>77200068
So fitness has become a major goal for you and part of your routine. welcome back to the club, you've gained motivation and discipline

My life might be about to change gears pretty drastically. I have the second round of a big job interview coming this week. If I get the job, I will suddenly become a full-time worker in a corporate office. I have to admit that I feel scared to be facing such an extraordinary life change.

I graduated university during covid and I’ve been pretty much trapped inside ever since. My life totally flatlined, which is my fault more than any other factor. I got into fitness during that time and made more progress than I ever thought possible. I absolutely need to keep that up. It has become very important to me.

I don’t know, bros. Life is hard and stressful. There’s so much that I want. I want to make good money and be a self-sustaining person. I want to have friends and a social life and pursue romance. I want to stay fit and make gains. I want to enjoy my free time and consoom all my favourite media. I want to find inner-peace from all my mental bullshit and stay ahead of my desire to keep being a stoner drunky coomer degenerate. But it all feels very overwhelming. I know I need to take it one day at a time. But the bird’s eye view is frightening.

>>77201259
money enables the rest of that stuff and a steady corporate paycheck mogs any sort of shift work
go to work, do a passable job, save your energy to indulge in the things you love

>>77201240
It's just funny.
Imagine going back and tell your younger self that you end up caring about lifting more than girls.

>>77201190
Hell yeah, man. Moving on and up!

>>77201268
Oh yeah I want that money. I’m gonna pursue this career. I’m just very nervous about it.

>>77200932
Congrats! Support and community mean a lot when you're trying to amend yourself. Stick with the program
You're gonna make it :)

>>77199568
Holy fucking shit, gg. Posts like this make it worth it to visit this board.

>>77198445
I had my ride. I underestimated the cold and the wind. It's hard to articulate this, but I found myself not enjoying it as much as I used to. Maybe I went too hard too fast and should have done a few lighter sessions to start the season. One thing is that the bike itself annoys me. I mean bike maintenance in general. I think I started to prefer the simplistic pleasure of running which basically only requires a pair of shoes. Dunno, we'll see. At least I was out there when most people were still sleeping, so that's a nice confidence boost at least.

>>77200068
It happens to most of us. Welcome to the club. This is the point when it starts to become fun.

>>77201800
its sunday morning, asshole

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may your monday be sick brahs

>>77201259
Congrats! I'm also the covid class, so I understand how hard it's been for a lot of us. We've really struggled to start our lives. Prepare hard for this interview, research questions and figure it why this company is unique. Unfortunately, you're not going to get everything in this world. But you will inch closer to achieving some level of happiness after you get his job. You'll still have time for friends, fitness, and hobbies, but less time.

YGMI

>>77200068
>I want girls
>should I try talking to girls?
>nah, I'll try lifting, then they magically will appear
Nigga

>>77203312
I started lifting because I was too fat for girls at the time. (I used to get along fine when I was skinner).
Then, I just lost interest in finding a gf along the way.

Week 5 of no porn.
I originally thought I won't report that often, but posting here gives me the feeling of accountability, plus it wasn't an easy week.
Work after spring break really triggered me hard, but luckily I managed to just sit with the urge and the fantasies. But it wasn't a clean week. I managed to convince myself that that ecchi manga which was borderline porn and I didn't finished should be finished. But I realized after a few pages that I'm getting way too excited and that this was an elaborate self sabotage so I rather closed, trying to make peace with the fact I'll never know the ending.
I've done some soul searching. I've realized what a shitty person I was. I won't say porn made me do this, but I guess it amplified things. There are the obvious "physical" sympthoms like always being tired and irritated. Then I know I've hurt people because I felt like I deserve more and better. While, in fact, I now understand that no amount of pussy is ever going to make me feel whole, real or pixels on a screen.
I don't want to blame everything on this one thing, especially that I know others have it, too, but I have pectus excavatum. This made me hate myself from a very young age. So now even when someone says they love me, I instantly doubt them: they are just being nice or they pity me. And in a twisted way porn sells me the idea that one day this feeling of not being enough is going to magically disappear, real, unquestionable love will find me, I just have to search and indulge more. But when I do and find something, well, it won't be enough.
I know these two topics might not sound connected, but I feel like they are very much connected to me.
As a practice to overcome this, I've started to write these weird sounding statements. "I'm grateful for my legs because I can run with them." So while I try to mourn that I'll never look like the way I wish I could, at least my body gets me to places and still helps me experience life itself.
Take care!

>>77191457
>What do you plan to achieve?
Killing myself

>>77191557
I haven't masturbated in maybe 5 years, it had nothing to offer. All I want now is a hug

>>77191754
>>77192318
>Try blocking instagram accounts with softcore porn

I've been unfollowing all of my followed accounts whenever I see something pornographic, it knocked out a few women that I once had good friendships with. Oh well, get your tits off my screen pls

>>77194783
Christian here, sometimes the meaning of life is just to live. The entire world is the answer to some prayers

>>77197120
Friday: Making bread for the next week
Saturday: Fuck

>>77203365
>I've started to write these weird sounding statements.
Gratitude is one of the most important things you can do every day, especially for the little things. I, for one, am grateful that I live in a part of the world that has electricity and is not getting bombed to shit at the moment.

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I am .5kg away from hitting 20kg lost since January. I may actually make it this summer. Which will leave me with 15kg to go.

Feels good man.

>>77203458
fuck off with your incel bullshit

>>77203044
Checked. We’re in for an exciting week :)

>>77203513
Congrats! You’ve set your mind on achieving a goal and will succeed
WAGMI

>>77203318
>while fat funny guys were talking to women I mastered the barbell
So you either turned yourself gay or schitzo. You know it's easy to talk to women, they're also humans.

>>77203661
Is it so hard to imagine that some people manages to find meaning and purpose outside of chasing pussy? I'm personally glad for that anon that he found peace.

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>>77201806
I don't think the man in the cave cares.

>>77203661
>I mastered the barbell
unironically yes.
The dopamine hit is too addicting.

>>77191457
Could use some direction or insight, have two paths to choose
>stay in current dead end job working 4 days a week for min wage take mostly online classes probably largely part time get bachelors and be an engineer
I know nothing about engineering. I would hope to do something with cars but again even that I know nothing about.
>get into a trade probably HVAC
Once again, no experience and know nothing about it.


I feel so stuck and lost right now I have to choose something

335x4 on deadlift this morning, I'm so proud, I had never lifted before 5 months ago. Gonna keep going.
Does anyone else find the psychological component challenging when first starting to lift heavy? Sometimes the weight doesn't go up because I second guess, or feel a twinge of fear, but if I grind through one rep I can often do a few more.

>>77203513
Nice! Keep going anon, you got this.

>>77203778
I had never *deadlifted before 5 months ago. I'd been fucking around at the gym before then,eg had never put up a plate on squat or bench

>>77203730
I was stuck working minimum wage jobs after giving up on college the first time. Finally made myself suffer through online classes first at community college for an associate's then took the guaranteed transfer to a real college for the bachelor's in IT. I'm now WFH for 6 figures and maybe actually work 8 hours a week.

I fucking hated college both times. That stupid piece of paper sucked so much as to get, and now I don't even know where it is in the house. But having it instantly transformed my life.

I was also part timing as a handyman towards the end of the degree, and that was rapidly becoming lucrative too. That was real work, though. I had to choose, and while the handyman stuff would have led me into a career owning my own company and paid more faster, it was also going to be a lot more of my life invested.

If you need to fix your income now, learn to paint and drywall properly and go nuts with that. That was my bread and butter. The tools are cheap, materials are cheap, you can punch a hole in your own wall and practice at home, YouTube has a million videos on it.

Find business by posting on Nextdoor, not Craig's List. Have ChatGPT or whatever tune you up a "handyman looking for work" with a little info about yourself. If you're white and 30+, that works heavily in your favor, but honestly it only takes a few successful jobs to get going.

>>77191457
Happy Monday, dudes. New week, same goals.
>any% wife's buttthole
>treadmill until abs
>big lifting, little eating

Last week sucked. Exhausted from jet lag, couldn't keep my diet together, lifts are all thoroughly in the dumpster, finished the week having utterly failed. I did, however, see my lowest number on the scale in years on Wednesday, so we'll see. New week, here we go.

Weekend was good family time, but I got zero action. This is the point where I usually start whining and begging, but I'm not doing that anymore. I'll take the opportunity when it comes, and it will at some point.

WAGMI(UHB)

>>77203801
I honestly don’t think freelancing would work out for me how it did for you. My options are either stay in current job and juggle classes while I work it until I get the degree or try for a trade. Except from what I’m learning even a trade requires school and the typical “oh just apply for a helper or apprenticeship position they WANT to teach you” is outdated boomer tier “firm handshake and eye contact before you apply” type advice. So idk what to do. I feel fucked man I feel so fucked. I feel like I would be miserable in a trade unless I were to land a solo gig of some sort, or at least only have 1 partner to work with. I would hate being on a crew. I hate school that’s why I dropped out. I don’t even know what I would do as an engineer. The idea of “we need this product and it needs to meet these requirements make a model make some prototypes” sounds fucking sick to me it gets me harder than any other idea I’ve had but realistically how common are jobs like that?

>>77203470
I’m the same way. I try to write down one what I’m grateful every day. Gratitude is a hard to master emotion, but I need to try

>>77203825
I wouldn't go into trades in this day and age. The old guys are all assholes, the new guys are all immigrants that will underbid you, and none of them are competent.

>>77203825
You have to work to live. That's just life. All jobs suck in some way. Even my glorious WFH 8 hours a week has its problems.

The handyman thing you can start immediately on your days off, and you can abandon it if it doesn't work out. I got paid good money for easy work, and 5 years after stopping people still call me back. Just pick and choose your jobs, only take the easy stuff, and don't quit your day job immediately. And always buy the right tool for what you're doing, butnit doesn't have to be the most expensive one.

>>77203885
The handy man thing isn’t guaranteed though and I can’t abandon it because then I have no job. I have a job right now that lets me just scrape by but it does let me get by. I appreciate the idea but I don’t think that’s a good course of action for me

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>>77191457
i'm not doing too well, bros. i've been putting in super long hours at work for the past year or so and been under a lot of stress to get stuff done. they pay well, but with ai getting better and better by the day i don't know how long i have until i get laid off. i'm just burnt out at this point, i've been super stressed for too long and my brain just cooperating with me anymore. i can't focus for shit, always in constant anxiety because i burned out.

i always defined my worth based on my job, and now that i can't perform too well i feel like i'm spiralling and getting depressed. don't get me wrong, i'm glad that i was lucky and got a good opportunity, but it seems like i can't really do this anymore.

i have nothing going on for me aside from work, i'm fat and awkward, got no friends. no romantic prospects either and i turned 30 recently. i have my own place, but if i lose this job then i'll have to move back in with my parents and then dating will basically become impossible. and it seems i'll lose this job sooner rather than later, either i will burn out for good and get fired or ai will take it and i'll be laid off.

i don't really know what to do here, bros. i feel like i've really fucked up, that i didn't make a bigger attempt to improve myself socially or physically while i was on the gravy train. i really feel like i wasted my 20's, and now i'm 30 and i'm literally over one third of the way through my lifespan and things are likely to only get worse going forward. it all feels like it's basically over at this point

>>77203365
You’ve made a lot of progress already. It takes a lot of courage to address your own flaws. There’s nothing weird about writing about gratitude or how you feel. You’re gonna go far as long as you stay persistent!

Good luck!

>>77203968
I said don't quit your day job, lol. Handyman on weekends.

Look man, you've tried nothing and it's not working. It doesn't have to be handyman, but you don't have a better idea it sounds like.

WAGMI status?

>>77203981
I think it's you and about 47million others in the same boat right now. Start giving less of yourself at work. Your job is not your life, or it shouldn't be. I'm not saying do a crappy job, but scale back yo.

>>77204106
Green lights all across the board, sir. WAGMI is a go.

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>>77203981
just take a break man. should be obvious even for you that you need one

>>77203455
I’m not religious but I agree with that mentality. To learn to be happy in the moment and appreciate tiny gifts is what we need to live

>>77203981
you said you are getting paid well. have you put money aside or even better invested? you are pretty much waste your life if you dont leverage your position/salary into more wealth since you are paying for it with your life. nothing wrong with grinding as long as it serves a purpose.

>>77204108
>>77204118
>>77204237
i appreciate it guys. i have been putting money aside, but it's nowhere near enough to retire yet. even if my salary doubled today i'd probably still need to keep this up for another 10 years before i could even consider retiring

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If you have been going to the gym consistently for a while then there is a 99% chance someone there has a crush on you bro

>>77204296
could you just move to another area/country with a cheaper cost of living?

>>77203778
>>77203787
Congrats on your deadlifts! It took me way longer than 5 months to lift that much. You’re truly elite.

Honestly, I can agree. Sometimes I feel like I arbitrarily limit how much I can lift due to fear or schedules. I need to start approaching benching with the mentality that I can always do more and not to limit myself by previous lifts

>>77191457
wagmi

>>77204303
>there is a 99% chance someone has a crush on you
FTFY

Seriously, you don't realize it, but there are plenty of women out there just as desperate for love as all of us. Looking back, I had so many girls crushing on me throughout life, but I had no idea at the time.

>>77204371
Thanks anon, I'll keep trying.
It's true tho, we can usually do more than we think. You got this!

>>77203823
So you did find a little success. Keep trying this week, you know your worth and your capable.

WAGMI

>>77204303
i pray so

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finally got to cross that game off. so dumb but now i can just concentrate on other shit.
wife is already starting to poke at the booze again by sending me some retarded IG fake doctor. i had 6 drinks last week, spaced over three days. was already praying she's knocked up this time but not looking forward to conversations if she isnt.
cut is going well but should go better now that i got most of the easter candy out of the way. need to get better about logging. less than three weeks until my run. Golf lesson went well
Goals this week:
Back in the saddle, one hour max game time a day. Work on this employment project for knights of columbus. Get back to reading. Record all the scott adams microlessons because subscription is running out next month. Get to all my golf practices. Look into making apps with Claude.

wagmi

>>77204106
Still on schedule

>>77203981
Try to find worth beyond your job. If you’re feeling burnt out, I need something else. Even if it’s something little to do every 2 weeks, it’ll keep you sane. Also don’t think in terms of life wasted. You still have time to enjoy life if you want to change

I probably just took a couple years off my life this past year of work.
I don't remember a time when I consistently got more than 5 hours of sleep a night. I wasn't doing it to support a family, to achieve some grand financial goal, to attain prestige in this mediocre field, or any of that. It was just pure ego thinking that I was so important to keep wheels going that were I to falter, life would be worse for so many people.
It hit today after the 7th back to back call with frustrating clients or people asking for yet more things from me that I realized this is not my life's purpose, and that this is simply a stepping stone to something larger. I have a good title, a good pay check, and the work is providing fun opportunities. But that's all bullshit at the end of the day, and i am at the stage to just take my life back.
I won't quit my job just yet. But today was my first day back in the gym in awhile, and it felt good. That is the start of the rest of my plans to get back to the ownership of my own self.
Fuck the jew York corpohomo economy.

>>77204427
Thanks. Maybe I am holding myself back and can bench more than I can even imagine

>>77204544
Good luck! You’re gonna get your wife pregnant soon. Knights of Columbus is a great resource in switching jobs. Ask around and see if anybody can help you.

WAGMI

I will bench 2pl8 for at least 8 reps by Memorial Day

>>77204658
Welcome back fren! We're always happy to train with you. Don't quit your job, but start looking around. If you're smart and capable, you'll find something. However, it does take time to land a job. You're making the right move in the end

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185lb ohp today at 200lb, /fit/!
fuck yeah wagmi

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>>77204303
but i only work out at home

>>77204495
Ayup. I am learning to live with the 2 steps forward, 1.75 steps back. Gonna make it if it kills me.

>>77205012
That’s a crazy strong OHP, you should feel proud! WAGMI

>>77205012
That’s a crazy strong OHP, you should feel proud! WAGMI

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>>77201800
hope you can have a better ride next time, as for me my tube has stopped holding air on sunday and today when I went to repair it I couldn't find the fucking tire spoons so I didn't fucking repair it for fucks sake
and tomorrow I have to go to the office so I probably won't have the time or energy to go and buy a new set of the spoons

fuck my fucking chud life, that said I am going to get the bike working this week

>>77203044
thanks brah, I had a nice gym session on monday

>>77205358
What matters is that you'll make it eventually

>>77205533
Bike maintenance is a bitch. I remember the first time I had to fix my tire I didn't know about dedicated tire spoons so I used actual spoons.
Good luck! I hope you can keep your spirits high!

Don't know if I should go back to uni to get my masters/PhD or focus on just getting a government job.

>>77205820
I got a masters degree.
I feel like nobody cares a lot about it and I still get rejected because I'm a male.
Transitioning to a women would get me a better job moreso than qualifications at this point lmao.

Just had perhaps the worst two months of my adult life. Was stuck in a relationship straight out of that new demented version of Wuthering Heights. Health bottomed out eventually, and I had to basically do nothing but rest and watch life pass me by for a bit. Finally getting back out into the world again. Just went to the casino for fun and made a couple hundred. Have started writing again. Got laid a few times with new girls. Happy about all that. The one nagging feeling I have, though, is that now that I've reached my 30s, I just can't do the hookup routine as much anymore. These girls sometimes turn out to be monsters, and it's now costing me my vitality -- and vitality isn't as easy to recover, the older you get. Most of the chicks I try to get serious with surprise me a few months in by saying the hate kids, or that they just wanna work and do nothing else with their lives. Starting to think that marriage just ain't in the cards for me. I've got a sinking feeling that no amount of working out or doing my own thing is going to alleviate this discomfort. Guess it'll just take time, as they say.

>>77205792
>so I used actual spoons
jej, I used old screwdrivers the first time and after i snapped one I decided to buy the spoons
>Good luck! I hope you can keep your spirits high!
Thank you, I try in spite of the bullshit that occurs

>>77204544
Oh and jerking off into a cup today after eight months of getting leaner, upping cardio, and taking supplements. My only bad number last time was dna frag. Hoping that number is down

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Bought some new weights for le at home lifting, hit some new stuff today which feels like good progress.

Went out with the gf last week and what was a good night turned into a very dumb blacked out argument, we ended up leaving early and missed the DJ we paid to see. While not entirely my fault I feel very guilty and worried that it might happen again. Needless to say that's me off drinking for the foreseeable future.

I hate nihilists and pessimists but have started feeling those type of thoughts creeping in when I'm not distracted. I think about how nothing matters and we'll all be dead soon etc. at least once a day. I don't necessarily believe these things or want to live by them but seems impossible to stop thinking about.

>>77205533
Don’t despair, you'll fix your bike eventually. Better days will come

>>77205820
Focus on getting a government job. Education these days is a means to an end and the job market is terrible

>>77205956
Don’t give up. I know it’s cliche, but there are women out there who want to settle down and have kids. But you do have to look carefully for a good one

>>77206199
oh no, not despair, not at all
at this point it's fucking comical how almost every single thing that could go even slightly wrong does for me

like for some reason the foil on an egg carton was super tight and hard to pull off, so I pulled harder and an egg fell out
now it would be bad enough if it had fallen on the floor but it just had to fucking hit the toolbox that was standing a little to the side
I even cracked the shells of two eggs with the strength of my huge muscles

after something like that I could only laugh
>Better days will come
I'll make them if I have to
WAGMI

>>77201190
This is like me but when I quit I stayed depressed and jobless for a year

>>77206541
>Drops egg on the floor
>Turns into the joker

It can be really annoying when minor inconveniences pile up, but just try put things into perspective with the outlook that your life is relatively pretty good.

>>77206560
Kek. Yeah, being jobless -- even if you have lots of hobbies and all that -- is actually hell. A fella needs something to do during the day.

>>77206565
Yeah man. I'm studying so not neet but may as well have been. I quit so I could focus more on my course but ended up more distracted than before with less money and more depressed. Only just crawling back out of the hole I ended up in hence being on /fit/. Got a job lined up soon hopefully brah

>>77206176
Don’t fall into the pessimistic bucket. We only live once, so it’s important that we live productively and happily. On our deathbeds, everything matters

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>>77206560
I was actually basically neeting (in college online with very little actual studying) for 2 years prior to the shitty job
became a huge pothead and wasted an obscene (to me) amount of money, still kicking myself for it but dwelling is for no one
we live and we learn init

>>77206541
Better days will come. You have the right attitude. Dont get discouraged and take life one day at a time.
WAGMI

I feel reinvigorated. After spending the last month completely distraught, lost and listless, I've re-found some amount of energy and I think I can turn things around next week.

>>77209154
I’m glad you’re turning your life around. Remember to take everything one step at a time. You don’t have to be perfect, but you do need to amend yourself

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>>77206561
>It can be really annoying when minor inconveniences pile up
oh trust me, I know
>but just try put things into perspective with the outlook that your life is relatively pretty good.
that clarity of mind comes afterwards but in the moment I often go insane, when it's thing after thing after fucking thing

>>77206804
>Dont get discouraged and take life one day at a time.
I've been working and making progress on this for a while now and I've gotten much better at putting things into perspective
and even though I got a nasty cold on wednesday I'm pretty sure my healing protocol will have me healthy tomorrow and many things will be acomplished then

>>77209154
great to hear anon, get after it!

>>77209546
You’ll feel better eventually. For the time being, just focus on recovering. You’ll only make the situation worse by rushing your recovery. You’ll be back soon