>Be me, 18, first time, total virgin, pretty much no experience besides kissing and touching. >Meet best friend's friend, very cute. >Friends told me all throughout high-school that getting laid would "fix" all my problems and offered multiple times, but I had a promise to myself >Not having sex unless its with someone I've known for a long ass time, or someone i just met >Meet up with friend's friend, hit it off like crazy. >We end up in a park together with my bff and them and we're getting shitfaced cuz its after dark. >realize I can fulfill my promise to myself >We end up in some grass and I basically just ask if they wanted to kiss >End up making out in the grass, rolling around, dogwalkers walking by just gazing at us >Go to a darker part of the park >Touching, feeling, and we both basically just ask each other to be each other's first time. >I say hell yeah >Go to their place a week later >Bang for the first time >Mfw head for 3 hours >cut to like three days later cuz the intensity from the first time is still there and we both want to learn >End up having penetrative sex, took each other's virginities and then I started to get like flashbacks into the future of being a dad and I get freaked out. >End up talking about Freud, our weird interests, what we're into, other shit. >They're hella chill >Cut them off after like a third time of banging because I didn't want to commit to anything. >Why am I like this?
>>43821813 eh, not really. We still hook up every now and then and we're chill. They just hated me for a while which sucked (led to some funny hijinx tho) Didn't feel much romantic feelings then and don't really now, I think they feel about the same.
>>43826446 Sure and Sure, why not. As long as they have personalities and are good at sex! The one "enby" I ever swived was a bland sub with a teeny tiny trouser trout who gave the worst neck on Earth. That put me off to the whole androgynous crowd (at least romantically) for a long time but I'd be crazy to assume they're all like that based on my n=1. I'll take this chance to share Mary Lee Settle; she was a model and also a writer, and the two novels of hers I've read are excellent- sharp and stylish literary fiction that never seemed to find an audience. A smart, attractive, and unusual woman. Check out her book Blood Tie!
>>43821564 >What was your best ever GET? As a turbo-slut, that is a hard one...I've had so many encounters over the yrs. Its hard to narrow it down to just one. The beautiful married lady I met traveling? the married daddy who had me dress in his wife's lingerie? The nieghbor with the giant penis who used to come over and make me worship it for hrs. The co-worker who was hot AF and the best dresser in the office who would meet me at lunch hour at my place and we'd fuck like rabbits then go back to work lol ...who then told her office mate what a good lay I was and then she wanted to have sex too...or maybe it was getting spitroasted by those 2 older men in their hotel room. I'll have to give it some more thought
>be me, MtFtM >bf & I are both bi >talking about female wrestlers >he says they look too manly for him >even rhea ripley >mfw what the fuck is he even talking about how can you be with a literal man but find buff cis women "too manly"
>tfw bi male bottom >nobody ever believes me >never met another one I'm not saying bioessentialism is real, but like...not a lot of ladies out here topping guys
>>43834491 because of social norms if you are told from a young age that men are the dominant ones and women are the submissive and breedable ones most people will adhere to that subby men and dommy women are the rare cases where for some reason or another the stereotypical hetero brainwashing didn't work
>>43821564 >seeing women's nipples through their shirts :) >seeing men's nipples through their shirts :/ (not counting mesh shirts that are on purpose)
>>43834491 >tfw bi male bottom, masochist >introvert, kind of autistic, adhd, cptsd >want to be cute but too much anxiety to even show any weakness or let anyone close for the first 30 years of my life Hell. HELL! Now that I at least accept myself as who I really am - and not the mask I used to protect myself - to a point where I can show some weakness, there are so many things I'd do differently if I could do it all over again so I wouldn't have to live this life of misery. I wish I'd have started hrt much much sooner and not this year in my mid 30s, realizing it makes me feel better; guess I'm a late bloomer whose petals come out of the bud already wilted. But with all this in mind, I'm at least proud to be alive.
>met gf's long distance friend in person >she's really cute and we get along very well I feel like I'm cheating on my gf's friend who I previously found most attractive
>>43834699 >hrt not to disregard the rest of your post, but I wouldn't exactly call you a "male" bottom glad you're still around though, anon; I hope your next 30 years are happier than the first
>>43834748 t. hanks Although I enjoy feeling girly, I don't really feel like I'm a female born as male or anything else, so I go with male. I don't even think I'm nonbinary. At most there's a tiny bit of fluidity in very rare, likely horny, moments, but my brain doesn't keep track of feelings like a normal person - if I can even realize what it is I'm feeling. Femboy or (hrt)twink might be a better description. But what are labels... I usually don't even name things in my head and instead memorize it as "what it is."
>>43834699 >>43834491 >>43834576 You have to look for women already into the bdsm scene. They're far more open to being a top for men. Femdom is one of the most popular kinks out there even for straight people
>>43835585 >This sounds like projection lol. >Why are you zoomers so afraid of living? I'm not a zoomer, nor afraid of living for that matter, but the way you type just screams LARP to me.
>>43835924 Haven't been actively searching for someone my entire life and almost gave up on any intimate relationship already. It's not easy to get into kinky stuff irl or with a name attached if I'm not interesting to anyone and still have trouble letting others get too close (maybe even pushing them away subconsciously). Guess I'm just cursed and have been broken for too long, only now slowly starting to be able to fix myself.
>>43836038 Well yeah of course you're fighting an uphill battle against thousands of years of culture and social conditioning. I'm just pointing you towards where the odds are slightly better.
>>43837938 Okay.... but don't the people you're sleeping with "see" you? Your friends? I dunno I dont have kids so maybe I don't know what I'm talking about but having my parent come out to me would be odd
>>43821564 On this board I got a get ending with 666666, don’t remember which so I’ll quote a few to see if I can see it. IIRC I was being very mean about fake twinks. >>43666666 >>42666666 >>41666666 My favourite OOT was on /lit/ where I quoted myself preemptively with 5 or 6 repeating digits and posted a picture of my large erect penis to derail a thread I didn’t like
>>43838124 Nah you’re right. Then again, as you age you realize parents are just people too. Same flaws, same needs, same worries as everyone else. >>43838326 Old enough for you to call me Daddy.
>>43845475 If the 19 year old was early 20's instead it wouldn't be a big deal. The issue is that a 19 year old is still in high school (depending on where you live), which makes it weird as fuck for a middle-aged person to seek them out.