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Here's a bunch of helpful links for u

>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

>a first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

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Hello everyone, I hope you're all doing well today. I mostly just slept and played a bit of Animal Crossing with my friend.

>>84264812
>i need to actually have a calendar where i can mark off the days
I've considered getting one of those big dementia clocks that my grandma had. It's pretty handy even if you don't have it...
>most people are way less functional then they seem or like to put on
Definitely. A few months back I could barely get out of bed but I still had to put on a happy face for everyone. I'm not sure how I managed. I'm sure I wasn't alone in that.
>modern life really pushes young people into the cities unfortunately
I looked into it and the apartments were quite a bit cheaper than I expected, but I think my work commute would be over an hour if I lived there and that's just way too much. Plus I'd have to spend $15 on the ferry every day... That's just not practical for most people.

>>84264989
>not worth paying for if not needed I suppose
I was getting this for free, thankfully. I'm not sure how regular Joes pay for therapy based off my one time paying for it.
>Except Pattaya in Thailand which I swear feel like old white dude is majority of the population
My knowledge of Thailand is limited to that one Louis Theroux documentary at a mail-order bride place. How is it? I imagine Pattaya is like those parts of Spain where it's all English retirees.
>I'm crazy for fish and chips too
Is it easy to get in Burgerland?
To be honest I think the best I've eaten has been here. The cod tastes way better for some reason.
>Think I've eaten at a Burger King in every country I've ever been in weirdly enough
Kind of based, desu.

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>>84270490
heyo I'm okay just working on a little map
>slept and played a bit of Animal Crossing with my friend.
aw that's nice
which one? is there multiplayer in animal crossing?

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>>84270268
>>How are you doing today?
Pretty tired. I started a new retail job and they've been having me throw mulch non stop. I think I'm slimming down though.
>>Any plans for today?
My car got totaled. I got it back today, but the insurance company is still taking their sweat time to pay me.
>>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Most of the above. Rejection emails from real career paths. The heat.
>good stuff
i watched baki, jojo's, and plurbus recently.
>>84270490
hi anon
> I mostly just slept and played a bit of Animal Crossing with my friend.
Sounds fun.

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Also my friend wants to watch the Chainsaw Man movie on Friday. Do I need to have read/watched it to understand what's going on?

>>84270752
>heyo I'm okay
Good to hear. Are you doing better than you were a few days ago?
>just working on a little map
Looks very comfy!
>which one? is there multiplayer in animal crossing?
I think they've had multiplayer since the one on the DS. We played the Switch version, which recently added a mode where you can build stuff together. It's good fun.
>tfw we can never go back to when anons were hosting sessions nonstop

>>84270762
>they've been having me throw mulch non stop
Are you a greenskeeper?
>the insurance company is still taking their sweat time to pay me
I asked my friend who works in insurance if there were any secret tips for this, and the best thing you can do is send all the evidence over in one go. But I assume you've done that already. Alternatively email them something along the lines of "send my fucking money or i'll blow your fucking brains out".
>My car got totaled
I'm sorry to hear that. Were you in it when that happened?

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I'm tormented by the urge to burn myself with cigarettes, lighters, candles, etc. But the problem is I'm a grown ass 30 year old man who somehow managed to fail upwards into a respectable job which involves, among other things, undressing in front of colleagues daily to put on uniforms/PPE. So I can't afford to be covered in injuries. Last year I relapsed and they made such a big deal out of it that I had to lie over and over to get them off my back.
Thanks for reading my blog.

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>>84270762
hello
>having me throw mulch non stop
does sound tiring
>My car got totaled
wha!? what happened?
>Rejection emails from real career paths
what would you consider a real career path?
>watched
nice :]
is jojo long?
I always hear people talking about it and it feels like it's gotta be some long running series

>>84271002
>Do I need to have read/watched it to understand what's going on?
idk
I've heard it's good to do that but the movie is fun even without it
>Are you doing better
hmm a little
>Looks very comfy!
it's based on one of the environments in the game I posted a while ago
>can build stuff together. It's good fun.
sounds like fun
what have you built?

>>84271274
hey anon
don't burn yourself, burns heal a lot and might get infected
>respectable job
lucky you
>relapsed and they made such a big deal out of it
what? why do they care?

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>>84271002
>greenskeeper
not really, I'm just managing the front end of a store.
>Were you in it when that happened?
oh, i got rear ended. it's just an old car so it was never gonna be worth fixing on a balance sheet.
>send my fucking money or i'll blow your fucking brains out"
yeah, maybe I'll do that tomorrow.
>>84271853
hi cat
>wha!? what happened?
see above
>what would you consider a real career path?
Anything that pays for a house or has a decent title.
>is jojo long?
not really, but I guess it depends on what you mean.
Each part has it's own set of protagonist and isolated story line in a shared universe. The anime is currently on part 7. I think the longest part was part 3 because of it's monster of the week formula.
I could see some people coming in to part one and being disappointed that this isn't what they expected because it is a completely different story then future parts. So that might drag for some people.
Personally, I think part 5 has been the best so far.

Down horrendous edish this one

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>How are you doing today?
Okay
>>Any plans for today?
Not really
>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
Last week
>>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Just some dumb anxiety stuff but I'm mostly fine
>>>84256714
how much younger is he? Do you think he would need that much support?
He will sadly he's 15 and still can't talk
>84255462
>That's a great idea and probably puts you ahead of 90% of the class. Best of luck with your educational journey, anon!
Thank you anon
>>84271002
>Also my friend wants to watch the Chainsaw Man movie on Friday. Do I need to have read/watched it to understand what's going on?
Yeah you do kinda. It's a direct sequel to the show.

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>>84271853
>I've heard it's good to do that but the movie is fun even without it
I see. Maybe I should read the cliff notes.
She said I could watch it because I'm like one of the characters in it but I forgot who.
>hmm a little
Glad to hear that!
>sounds like fun
It is. It reminded me a bit of Garry's Mod.
>what have you built?
She immediately went into the basement and made a cage for me to live in. We also put together a bedroom.

>>84272357
>I'm just managing the front end of a store.
Ah, I see.
>oh, i got rear ended
That sucks. I hope you didn't get whiplash from that but you can get a good payout if you did...
>yeah, maybe I'll do that tomorrow.
You'd be surprised how often that works.

>>84273329
>Just some dumb anxiety stuff but I'm mostly fine
Glad to hear you're doing better, Satanianon
>Yeah you do kinda. It's a direct sequel to the show.
I see. I could try to marathon it before Monday maybe...

i hit a big vein and filled a cup w my blood
so i can blleed out like this it might take hours but i basically decided on my suicide method

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>How are you doing today?
Tired. Sad.
>Any plans for today?
Psych appointment then playing DND. I don't know what else after. I should put clothes away. But I don't think I will. I may just bedrot.
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
Today. Well, yesterday.
>Why did you hurt yourself?
I'm a freak. And a fraud. I'm a fat pig.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
I'm unfixable. It hurts.

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So far so good with everything. Won't be around much till at least another day

>>84271002
>Chainsaw Man movie on Friday. Do I need to have read/watched it to understand what's going on?
It's both self contained, yet also a continuation. The story of the movie is easy to follow, but background info would be missing basically. Still easy to tell who is definitive best girl

>>84273329
>still can't talk
that's unfortunate. Is he getting any help to try to get him further along? Sounds like it would need to very involved so kinda get it's difficult

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hey everynyan
I'm gonna go out today and work on the map a little later
been making rain animation ls and it's a little bit of a pain D:

how are you?

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>>84274723
Sorry to hear that, anon. I hope your appointment goes okay and you have fun playing your tabletop game.

>>84274784
>The story of the movie is easy to follow, but background info would be missing basically
I see. I should be able to manage that.
>spoiler
I know what you're getting at but going purely off the designs I like the blonde girl.

>>84275557
>I'm gonna go out today and work on the map a little later
Will you take some pictures for us?
>how are you?
I'm a little sleepy but I got some figures in the mail today so I'm pretty happy about that.
I got my also feedback and it seems quite reasonable. I think I just need to redo the proposal which is only a few thousand words long, so I'm pretty confident that I won't lose my job in three months.

>>84274282
>Glad to hear you're doing better, Satanianon
Thanks :)
>I see. I could try to marathon it before Monday maybe...
Yeah it's only 12 episodes. It's pretty short
>>84274784
>that's unfortunate. Is he getting any help to try to get him further along?
Some yeah but he's 15 so I don't think much can help him. He IS better than most others like him and can talk a tiny bit and even form a few basic sentences but mostly he can't
>>84275557
Good luck on your rain anomation!
>>84275820
>I like the blonde girl.
If you mean PUH-PUH-POWER! You are based

bump on da buss

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m back

>>84275820
>you take some pictures for us
oh noo I haven't taken any sorry :<
but there wasn't anything pretty ro make pictures of anyway
>figures in the mail today so I'm pretty happy about that.
yay \o/
>only a few thousand words long, so I'm
only!!?
>pretty confident that I won't lose my job in three months.
very glad to hear that

>>84275917
>Good luck on your rain anomation!
thanks !!

>>84274784
best of luck!

>>84274282
>a cage for me to live in.
wgat the heck
freaky

>>84273329
hello o/

>>84272887
it's just a easter bunny

>>84272357
glad the crash did send you to a hospital

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>>84274784
hi office anon
>till easy to tell who is definitive best girl
exactly. the russian one.
Speaking of which, how are you recovering from the part two ending?
>>84274282
>I hope you didn't get whiplash from that but you can get a good payout if you did
yeah, now that i think about it, it was nasty crash.
>Do I need to have read/watched it to understand what's going on?
nah. you can catch on pretty quick. the arch is fairly isolated.
You might be confused about the world's logic as a whole, but so am I desu.
>>84277075
welcome back cat
>glad the crash did send you to a hospital
yeah I'm fine

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>>84277268
heyo
how are you today?
>yeah I'm fine
great
now what will you do with the car situation?

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worked a bit more on the rain and map now also has music and overall I'd say I'm almost finished

>ex sent me long message saying my actions lead to her cutting herself
>just self harmed due to the guilt for the first time in a decade

yee haw

pussy shit compared to most, when i was younger i'd take a dull blade and slice at my arm or thighs. never got too deep, just deep enough to scratch it up a shitton and draw enough blood to look at and cause pain. hers are probably worse. maybe i should go cut deeper.

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>>84275820
> I should be able to manage that.
not a particularly long series either way. Anime leading up to is 12 episodes and they're normal length 20ish minutes episode. I like the series a lot, but know now everyone does
>I know what you're getting at but going
> I like the blonde girl.
I'm very alone in this thread
> purely off the designs
fair, but Makima is the most likable character from a plot and personality perspective trust me

>>84275917
>he's 15 so I don't think much can help him.
Right... Not sure what I was thinking. Thing is there's so much variation on severity, but now I understand your concern
>If you mean PUH-PUH-POWER! You are based
terribly alone

>>84277075
hey cat, how was your day?
>best of luck!
I now need the luck to recover. Very tired

>>84277268
>exactly. the russian one.
completely alone
> how are you recovering from the part two ending?
will answer in spoiler text because others in the thread. No one else who didn't finish the manga look at this.
Honestly, I thought it was bad, but so bad it's easy to just say throw out part 2 at this point and pretend doesn't exist. Part 2 had some good parts. I liked Asa/Yoru until they both started getting sidelined more for Denji, but when things started going bad as things dragged on in the wrong ways it felt like everyone was just collectively hoping Fujiomoto would salvage it. I feel like there was time I was dismissively saying I felt like he didn't want to do part 2 or stopped caring, but the ending really made me feel like that actually was the case.
And I'm still seething Makima wasn't back

>>84278739
Hopping in on CSM discussion.
Fujimoto had something special with Asa/Yoru and it really feels like either he gave up around the time the apartment got burned down or the editors told him people want Denji focus. It's frustrating how relatable and strong of a protagonist Asa was until the manga focused Denji.

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>>84278783
I agree with you. I enjoyed the arc with yuko especially and thought the story could have progressed nicely even if Denji kept playing house with Nayuta in the background. think there is a strong consensus the church arc is the tipping point. There's discussion on the church arc being a meta discussion on what fans/the publisher wanted, which is for Denji not to have a peaceful life since they want to see him suffer as Chainsaw Man. The fact Asa loses her status as protagonist the same arc things clearly become worse is too significant to be a coincidence. Fujimoto can do some weird, questionable things, but I don't think he would get bored and sloppy with his own story unless he was put in that situation by the publisher. If there was pressure of any kind, combine that with the rushed schedule and no assistants, it's easy to see why things turned out how they did.

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>>84278714
hugs
not your fault fren
>maybe i should go cut deeper.
don't
your friend wouldn't want that

>>84278739
heyo
I'm good, I worked a bit on the map today and hung out with fren
work was tiring??

>>84278879
so much [REDACTED] :0

why do you guys do it? this seems incredibly retarded. I tried cutting a lil slit on my wrist once just to see what the deal was about this but it really was just a unpleasant experience.

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>>84279039
there's a lot of aspects to it and people have different reasons why they do it

but I'm sure you had an experience where you were so angry you had to punch something, it's sorta like that, you're frustrated and want to see blood or feel pain or do something drastic to let your emotions out

>>84279020
> bit on the map today
this one here: >>84278650 ?
I like it. Very creepy atmosphere. And I like trains a lot so just all around nice
> hung out with fren
hope you had a good time
>work was tiring??
a lot to take in. Starting a new job is a bit nerve wrecking because you want to make a good impression, but also you don't know everything yet so it takes time. That combined I've slept crappy because of weather changes have done a number on me
>so much [REDACTED]
looking like a certain set of justice department files

>>84279020
i guess?
she directly said my messages overwhelmed her emotionally and caused her to cut and then have a suicide attempt
it feels like it's my fault and honestly i feel like a monster. like i should die.

>>84279039
guilt

man it doesn't even fix the numbness

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>>84278739
> Thing is there's so much variation on severity, but now I understand your concern
Yeah it is a problem. I love him but I want to live my life too.....
>terribly alone
I'm sorry but Power is best girl
>>84278783
>>84278879
Adding my thoughts to this I did like the part 2 ending despite not liking Part 2 overall. I do think this is the ending Fujimoto wanted but I feel like he rushed or wanted to end it early. Part 2 was amazing at the start up until around the church arc. I agree with both of you that Asa should've stayed the protagonist and Denji as a side character. Don't get me started on Nayuta it's a shame, she had so much potential but existed just to get fridged which is shame
>>84277075
Hello Cat!

how do you actually go through with it?
sometimes I hit my head with stuff so hard so many times I get a days-long concussion
i bash it against walls
but even when frustrated or numb to my limits, i can never bring myself to push the blade in
i think im just too scared of the pain
all i can do is small cuts that arent even visible in a week
am i just a fucking pussy?
how do you guys get rid of the brakes?

Bedtime bump

my stomach is hurting but if i lay on my back i'll get sleep paralysis

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hey guys hello
just wok up

>>84279742
>many times I get a days-long concussion
don't do that anon
it could really really mess you up
>am i just a fucking pussy?
no
I couldn't never bash my head that hard, people are just different ig
How deep do you want to o cut?

>>84281620
I think laying on the left side can help with stomach aches
also you guys sleep paralysis so easily?

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Hello everyone. Hope you're all doing well.
Today my friend visited with a plan to work together but we just napped instead.

>>84275917
>Yeah it's only 12 episodes. It's pretty short
I could probably get that done in a day if I put my mind to it.
>If you mean PUH-PUH-POWER! You are based
Yeah, I think that's her name.

>>84277075
>but there wasn't anything pretty ro make pictures of anyway
That's fair enough. Do take some if you go somewhere cool!
>only!!?
A few thousand over three months isn't too bad.
>freaky
Par for the course, honestly. The less said, the better...

>>84277268
>yeah, now that i think about it, it was nasty crash.
Might be worth finding a personal injury lawyer who works on contingency...
>you can catch on pretty quick. the arch is fairly isolated
Good to know. I was getting stressed about being confused if I watched it.

>>84278739
>Makima is the most likable character from a plot and personality perspective
I will report back once I've watched it.

>>84281620
What do you think is causing it? Food poisoning?

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>>84279714
> I love him but I want to live my life too
And I think it's fair for you to think that way. I'm sure your presence helps him a lot and it's commendable for you to think this way, but you only have one life as well
>I'm sorry but Power is best girl
it's fair
>spoiler
My biggest problem I guess is assessing how much Fujimoto changed after shifting focus. Was the ending the original plan? He does like movies and the Big Lebowski thing was something he said, but does this ending make sense if we would have kept Asa as protagonist? I don't know if it would and this was him just salvaging after changing story. The worst part imo is there is no character development this route. None of the things Denji learns happens would mean this isn't even true to his idea of making it a big Lebowski type ending, since there really isn't character development that took place (we don't know I guess it happens to fast to tell) which I think is the biggest problem is the thought all character development from the good and bad part of the series effectively would be undone, which almost runs contrary to the "bad movies being important to appreciate the good" theme at part 1.

>>84282195
heya cat, have a good day.

>>84283078
>I could probably get that done in a day if I put my mind to it.
I'd say at least try the first episode or two if you can get to it. Don't force yourself if you don't like it. Thing with CSM is plot is easy to follow, but it is built around character interactions and the developments of those relationships more than the fights. It's not a battle anime by any means which can seem misleading at first glance
>I will report back once I've watched it.
great someone needs to agree with me at some point Regardless, I think her characterization as the series progresses was one of my favorite things about CSM

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>>84278195
hi cat
>now what will you do with the car situation?
don't know. won't contact me.
> overall I'd say I'm almost finished
congrats
>>84278739
>completely alone
I can fix her
>Chainsaw man spoiler
I unironically dreamed a different ending after reading it. I dreamed a version where the ending we got was the result of another devil's power like the aging devil.
Personally, I think so many ideas where individually great that they should have been separated into there own archs. Like if asa had the entire first part of part two to her self and we just saw Denji through her eyes, then we'd still switch prospectives but Asa would get her arch completed. From there we could go down the line of hourseman while learning about the endtimes.
>seething
she gone bro. and we're better for it. she's better for it.

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Haven't cut in over two months, got lots of healthy foods at the store today as well. Today is gonna be a good day bros I can feel it!

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>>84283855
>spoiler image
Unironically my favorite thing about the ending is this meme taking off
>I can fix her
who said anything about "fixing"
>spoilers
I think if the ending was a hallucination of Denji being inside some Devil would be the more true ending based on how Fujimoto has been in the past. I think the fact there was no resolution to so much was the worst of it all. After how long and actually kinda cool the Yoru fight was(even if I felt she was too derivative of Makima at this point), I expected much more when they got to hell and just suddenly ended the whole conflict how they did with literally nothing after that. No mention of other horseman other Control(not even sure this counts as Nayuta or a new version entirely?). As much as I want to give the benefit of the doubt, it seemed like a worse fan fiction ending than what most fans were suggesting the week before it released.
>>she gone bro
Not in my head or on my shelf of figures she's not.

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hi! haven't been here for some time. (^-^;) how's everyone doing?

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>>84284355
hi anon
>Haven't cut in over two months
Hooray! You got this!
>>84284513
> think if the ending was a hallucination of Denji being inside some Devil would be the more true ending
I want this to be the start of part 3 so bad. My brain is coping so hard.
I miss little d and her love of pizza.
>>84284871
hi yu, how you been?

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>>84279086
>I like it.
thanks!
>you had a good time
yep it was pretty good though it tired me out for some reason
>Starting a new job
best of luckk!! and hopefully the work isn't that tiring
>justice department files
and you can uncensor them just as well ^^

>>84279112
>directly said
but you weren't like deliberately looking for her to send her those messages
You weren't trying to make her feel bad

>>84283078
heya
>friend visited with a plan to work together but we just napped instead.
aw that's nice
wish to have a fren like that one day
>The less said, the better...
@^@

>>84283855
heyo
wazzup?

>>84284355
hey anon
good work!
you got any fun stuff planned for today?

>>84284871
ello :D
how are you?
idk if you know but officeanon has a new job

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>>84284355
>Haven't cut in over two months, got lots of healthy foods at the store today as well.
let's gooo! :D what did you get?

>Today is gonna be a good day bros I can feel it!
that's the spirit. do tell how it went.

>>84284963
hey cynic! o/

>how you been?
not that well, i think. it's not that i feel particularly bad about anything, i'm just so drained and have a hard time engaging with anything and anyone. guess i'm slowly drifting back into depression. what about you?

>>84285016
hi catbro! :]

>how are you?
wrote about it in my reply to cynic. cleaned up a bit, but apart from that i'm feeling quite lethargic. let's see how it develops. how are you?

>idk if you know but officeanon has a new job
he told me already. glad that it worked out. i think it's good he's finally out of that company.

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>>84285076
>feeling quite lethargic. let's see how it develops.
sorry to hear that
maybe you could play that little game I reccomeneded
>how are you?
pretty okay just spent today sitting and working on the map a bit
also I thought about watching dark knight movie but I forgot
maybe I'll watch it tomorrow
>think it's good he's finally out of that company.
same

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>>84285352
>sorry to hear that
it's ok. i've dealt with it before, but it is tiresome that it always shows up again.

>maybe you could play that little game I reccomeneded
i just did. :> it's cute and i like the atmosphere it creates. it remonded me a bit of signalis. i should play that game again.

>just spent today sitting and working on the map a bit
chill day. how did it go? added any cool features? i actually planned on painting a bit, but it didn't happen. :/

>I thought about watching dark knight movie but I forgot maybe I'll watch it tomorrow
good movie. i've have seen it quite a lot, but not recently. i wonder if it was the first movie i got on blu ray.

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>>84285016
>wazzup?
>>84285076
>guess i'm slowly drifting back into depression.
sorry to hear that
>what about you?
kind of the same, but I'm feeling ok today.

>>84285016
>wazzup?
not much just watching dexter i guess

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>>84284871
hey yuanon! been busy with work, but not in a bad way. Much rather be busy then stressed like I was before at least. How are you?

>>84284963
>I miss little d
underrated. I was quite fond of her as well and feel like that was another character who didn't get to live up to potential unfortunately.

>>84285016
>tired me out for some reason
what did you have going on anyway? anything out of the ordinary?
>and hopefully the work isn't that tiring
so far not too bad. Again, I'd rather be tired than worrying about what I did at my old job

>>84285076
>>84285352
>i think it's good he's finally out of that company.
>same
It's crazy to think I came to this thread first time around when I just started there, now I'm starting a new job and am still here

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>>84285482
>sorry to hear that
at least i know what's up, so maybe i can do something against it. i'll try to think of something.

>kind of the same, but I'm feeling ok today
gonna enjoy the good ones when they decide to show up. what are you up to? any plans for the weekend?

>>84285575
>been busy with work, but not in a bad way.
glad to hear it. what is your new job anyway? i don't think i asked... ^^'

>How are you?
not great, but not bad either. at least i've got a long holiday weekend ahead of me. maybe that'll make up for... not really sure what for, but it'll count for something. what about you? any plans?

>now I'm starting a new job and am still here
while i like what you've done to the place, it seems i have to remind you what the sign you posted here >>84284513 actually says... jokes aside, it really has been a long time and i'm glad you're still here. you've become a dear friend to a lot of people.

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>>84284963
Hello and thank you!!!

>>84285016
Didn't go to classes today so I mostly cleaned my room, might take a walk with my dogs

>>84285076
Lots of fruits (strawberries, blueberries, etc) protein bars, more kimchi for dinners, and stuff for different kinds of smoothies! I decided to treat myself and got a pack of cookies and am going to try to get better at binging by restricting myself to one a week.. let's hope it works everyone!!

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>>84285433
>tiresome that it always shows up again.
maybe it'll leave again too :<
>it's cute and i like the atmosphere
I think it's supposed to release a full version in april?
>added any cool features?
not really, just tried to doa thing and ot turned out to be more difficult than expected so I was just trying to make it work because I wanna add a credits room
>planned on painting a bit, but it didn't happen. :/
there's always another day :3
>but not recently.
gonna rewatch it?
> first movie i got on blu ray.
woa
timeless technology that'll never go away

>>84285493
>dexter
do you like that show?
I've never seen it so don't really have much to say about it

>>84285575
>anything out of the ordinary?
nope I just tired out quickly and today I also felt a bit tired all day
maybe I'm finally getting old
.. or I should go to sleep on normal times
>crazy to think
yep it's been like years
what the hecck

>>84285937
is the weather nice today? how are you dogs doing btw?
I don't have any pets though I might get some in the future

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>>84285937
>Lots of fruits (strawberries, blueberries, etc) protein bars, more kimchi for dinners, and stuff for different kinds of smoothies!
sounds like a great haul you got there. kinda jealous. :> i got myself some kimchi style sauerkraut and it's pretty good as well. might try to make that instead of traditional kimchi. made that before and it's just so much work. tastes great, though.

>got a pack of cookies and am going to try to get better at binging by restricting myself to one a week
good luck, fren. o7 it's easier for me to just cut stuff like that out than to restrict myself. when i eat it i can't hold back. :/

>>84285975
>maybe it'll leave again too :<
i'm sure it will. i've got high hopes for the warmer seasons.

>I think it's supposed to release a full version in april?
i've wishlisted it. let's see what they make of it.

>just tried to doa thing and ot turned out to be more difficult than expected
what's giving you trouble?

>there's always another day :3
yup. i'll try to get in a small session in tomorrow. wish me luck. (*^*)9

>gonna rewatch it?
probably not. just not very interested in super hero movies atm.

>woa timeless technology that'll never go away
technically correct. wish i knew where my player went, though... and that some of my dvds weren't unwatchable for some reason. lucky we can just watch stuff online these days. buying is a scam. >:[

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>>84285894
>what is your new job anyway?
more software development. Just so far it's much less toxic so far.
> long holiday weekend ahead of me
nice. I don't have time off for this one, but still glad to get some downtime to recover
> what about you? any plans
other than visiting family for easter, not so much but that's fine
>it seems i have to remind you what the sign you posted here
I completely forgot this is what the origin of this was.... haha
>spoiler
and I'm glad to still be here with you, cat, and everyone else I've met in this thread, whether they're frequent or infrequently here.

>>84285975
> I also felt a bit tired all day
better listen to your body if it feels like that. Sometimes just get zapped for some reason. Could always be fighting something off. but hope you feel fine tomorrow
>yep it's been like years
would say time flies, but does feel like I've been here a long time and can barely think back to before I did at this point

>>84270268
I want to fuck that hooni boy until he leaks milk from his nipples and his tummy is full of my cum and his balls are emptied from being cummed into so often. He'd make a cute little slave bitch cum dumpster. I'd just never tire of using and indulging in him.

I'm gonna go sleep gn friend

>>84286151
>i've got high hopes for the warmer seasons.
well then I'll be crossing my fingers
>what's giving you trouble?
don't feel like explaining now desu I'm very sleepy
>session in tomorrow. wish me luck. (*^*)9
best of luckk!!!
>just not very interested in super hero movies atm.
understandable
>some of my dvds weren't
I've heard blu ray dvda can get moldy
>buying is a scam. >:[
yep
it's cool now you can download whatever you want and have it forever

>>84286332
>Could always be fighting something off.
hm maybiee though I'm not feeling sick
but I'm taking it easy so I should be good on no time
>would say time flies,
for me it has
it's wierd it's been so long

>>84270268
hi guys im having a moderately shitty day, bad but not so bad its cathartic or intense, but at least i am resisting the urge to cut. its been a while im actually doing pretty good staying clean but i dont see it as much of an achievement or shows that im healing necessarily. ughhh i wish i had friends i could talk to when i feel bad

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>>84285975
It's pretty cloudy, but I love it like that so no complaints from me, my dogs are alright both old ladies but my pitboxer still acts like a puppy lol.. im surprised you dont have cats?!

>>84286151
Yeahh, I always end up binging like crazy but im really trying to resist the temptation, will be good for me in the end!

>>84286645
Hope you're doing alright anon, dont let the bad thoughts get to you too much. what usually helps to distract you?

>>84286668
>Hope you're doing alright anon, dont let the bad thoughts get to you too much
thanks, im trying. im going to sleep soon hopefully its gone when i wake up
>what usually helps to distract you?
lately, its studying, for the past week ive done mostly just study and its given me something to do thats productive and rewarding and keeps me busy. or itll be playing piano but its early in the morning. im very tired rn so ill probably just sleep and hope i wake up better

>>84286332
>more software development.
and here i was told that would all be done by ai by now. :p

>Just so far it's much less toxic
always a good sign. hope it stays that way. fingers crossed.

>I don't have time off for this one, but still glad to get some downtime to recover
too bad. :/ easter not much of a thing where you are? here we even have a two week school break for it.

>other than visiting family for easter, not so much but that's fine
you think you'll have a good time?

>I completely forgot this is what the origin of this was
it's a classic for a reason. ^^

>>84286478
>well then I'll be crossing my fingers
me too.

>don't feel like explaining now desu I'm very sleepy
fair. you get some sleep.

>understandable
they've really burned a lot of good will with all their bad releases. even retroactively. my interest in the topic is at an all time low.

>I've heard blu ray dvda can get moldy
could be, though in these cases i think that the company who made disc just did a bad job. these old anime releases aren't known for their high quality.

>it's cool now you can download whatever you want and have it forever
it's often the only way to have things forever now. shame.

>>84286645
>im having a moderately shitty day
sorry to hear you're having a rough time. what's the matter?

>its been a while im actually doing pretty good staying clean
it's still a positive development, i'd say, so well done!

>i wish i had friends i could talk to when i feel bad
i know it's not the same, but you can always tell us what going on in your life.

>>84286668
>I always end up binging like crazy but im really trying to resist the temptation, will be good for me in the end!
you're right. the only way to get rid of any addiction is to actively decide against the behavior when it occurs.

>>84286742
I should probably get into the habit of studying as well lol, im glad it helps you! I hope you rest well!!

>>84286819
Very true.. just praying hardcore that it doesn't end up backfiring on me

ugh i cant sleep im so anxious and on edge for no reason, and i gotta wake up somewhat early to see my friends tomorrow. im tired but i dont even wanna sleep but i dont wanna do anything else not even scroll or watch youtube or whatever. my bed is so big and its cold it feels kinda lonely in here. i have so many plushies to hold but no one to hold me, i guess i cant complain since i only like to fantasize about it and not seek someone out. still i would love to be loved by another woman.. it seems nice. man i kind of hate this house im scared all the time and i flinch at every noise, nothings happening anymore and im still scared but hey hopefully i can move out soon (?).
>>84286819
>what's the matter?
today i guess i didnt get very good sleep and lacked a lot more motivation and focus than usual. didnt get very much done, just wanted to waste away. and because i didnt keep myself busy i guess the sadness hit a lot harder. i feel very pent up with my sadness, its there but i cant feel it fully or cry about it. in a few days or a week ill probably be bawling my eyes out constantly
>well done!
thanks! i am resisting the urge to right now, ill probably regret it if i do
>>84287020
>I hope you rest well!!
thank u im hoping i get to eventually. and good luck with studying!

bumo as in bump fumo 16

how is everyone doing?
>How are you doing today?
i was having a good day then i was triggered by something bad now i feel anxious and idk i hope my brain normalizes it well

>>84288410
I will see a lot of fumos today, I think. I'll report back.

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hello
I'm gonna go on a small bikeride
hope you all are having a nice caturday as well :3

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>>84288657
hey are u a little better now??

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I enjoyed the new fate show quite a bit. Hoping this comes back sometime soon.

>>84286478
> I'm not feeling sick
sometimes you don't need to feel it, your body is doing a good job suppressing, and just feel a little more tired as a result. Either way, hope you got some good rest last night
>for me it has
suppose it's relative in the end. I haven't been having fun so that'll do it lol

>>84286819
> told that would all be done by ai by now.
been 6 months away for past 4 years. In truth, it's idiotic to think it's not a disruptive tech, but overly optimistic by managers that it would net instant cost reduction in a vacuum. Too much faith is being put in to resolve near term economic concerns in a very brittle economy.
> easter not much of a thing where you are?
it's not one of the big holidays in the US oddly enough. Christmas is instead.
>you think you'll have a good time?
idk, at the very least will ramble onto my brother about stuff for a bit which is usually fun

>>84287600
Hope you have a good day anon. Sorry if you had a rough night
>m scared all the time and i flinch at every noise
hmm i can be the same actually. In some ways it's kind of normal brain reaction to be concerned about strange noises while trying to sleep. Does this bother you often? Why is there so much noise?

>>84288657
hey rm, sorry to hear that. Hope you're maybe feeling a little better now

>>84289526
have a nice bikeride!

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no bikeride
I I had to go back because it started raining 3:

>>84289839
heyo
>hope you got some good rest last night
I did :D
how are you?

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>>84289526
>bideride
>no bikeride
sad
you got any fish though?
also hru cat?

>hey are u a little better now??
i'm better
but idk what im exactly feeling

>>84289839
>hey rm
hey officeanon hru?
>Hope you're maybe feeling a little better now
thanks

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>>84290771
eyo
>>84290771
>sad
it's okay
>you got any fish though?
nope but I ate some strawberries ^^
>also hru cat?
okay
just gonna chill today and make a credits room in the map
>i'm better
\o/
>but idk what im exactly feeling
hm is it a distracting feeling? what do you want to do now?

>>84290843
>nope but I ate some strawberries
sometimes u never mention eating anything but fruits and stuff i wonder what do u have for dinner and stuff xD
>just gonna chill today
cozy
same i'm gonna chill
i have a drink and noodles for the night :D
>distracting feeling?
idk i'm just chilling really but when i remember the thing i feel strange
>what do you want to do now?
hard question

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>>84290901
>>84290901
>never mention eating anything but fruits and stuff
hm really?
I do eat dinners and stuff so don't worry ^^
but today I just had some instant noodles
but yesterday I had mushrooms soup
and the day before that I had som fries and fish sticks
wbu?
>same i'm gonna chill
lovely :D
don't have to study?
>i have a drink and noodles for the night :D
sounds like a good night then ^^
>when i remember the thing i feel strange
ao maybe it'd be best to not think about ir and distract yourself
>hard question
maybe watch movie or maybe you could play a game? >>84240910

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>>84290943
>I do eat dinners
lol nice
>I just had some instant noodles but yesterday I had mushrooms soup
are those the only things you ate despite fruits? am i understanding well?
>wbu?
my sleep schedule was weird so when i woke up late at night i just ate whatever was for dinner and then some random things maybe
>don't have to study?
uhh if we're talking in logic i think it'd be better if i studied but i'm tired and no one is gonna do anything to my grades currently so i might study later but not today
also is it strange that i stopped mentioning studying? lol i feel like it was a an important element in my replies
>and distract yourself
man idk the idea of distracting myself from these thoughts kinda feels off to me. like i know i should just ignore it and really distract myself but idk
idk really even i dont understand myself well nvm
>maybe you could play a game?
i might just sleep few hours later

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>>84291203
>only things you ate despite fruits?
I do also eat some other stuff like some chips sometimes or grilled cheese sandwich or cereal
>schedule was weird
you didn't sleep well?
>dinner
what did you have for dinner
>we're talking in logic i think it'd be better
eeeh I don't think so
yep need some rest too !
>that i stopped mentioning studying?
I'm not sure but it did feel like you were always studying
I hope it's not like that now
>myself from these thoughts kinda feels off
you think like you're gonna lose them if you distract yourself?
>might just sleep few hours later
that's an idea too

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hello everyone! probably going to redye my hair today, give color suggestions!!! (I've done pink and purple before!)

>>84289839
Who is your favorite fate character?

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>>84291701
hey anon
>probably going to redy
woa
>color suggestions!!!
maybe black or grey? or both!
I know it's not very colorful but it I were to dye my hair I'd probably choose those

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Evening everyone. Today was fun. I went to a Touhou concert and got invited to my city's Touhou group so I can go to more 2hu events here. Everything is coming up Discanon.

>>84283560
>It's not a battle anime by any means which can seem misleading at first glance
I tend not to watch those so maybe I'll enjoy it.
>great someone needs to agree with me at some point
Maybe I won't just to be a contrarian...

>>84284355
Good job anon!

>>84284871
Hello Yuanon. I hope you've been well in your absence.

>>84285016
>wish to have a fren like that one day
One day, surely. When you get older you'll just start taking naps involuntarily so it's bound to happen one day...

>>84286645
>ughhh i wish i had friends i could talk to when i feel bad
You'll always have this thread. It's not quite the same but it's pretty close.

>>84288410
As promised, here are the fumos.

>>84288657
I hope you'll feel better soon!

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>>84290512
>how are you?
I'm doping all right. Rocky start to my day since I overslept and have to work out later.
ALSO I am mad because I couldn't preorder a figure from the site I wanted for cheap because tariffs our retarded government thought were a good idea. Too much winning. I wish I didn't live in a failed country

>>84290771
>hru
okay, just slow start and ranting as mentioned above. How are you??
hope you're having a good day

>>84291701
>give color suggestions
That teal blue Ramona Flowers color hair
>Who is your favorite fate character?
This is a tough one since I'm in deep, deep in this franchise. Not sure I can pick favorite overall. Zero I'd do a toss up between Waver & Kiritsugu, FS/N series I like heaves feel route best and like Sakura of the girls Shirou can end up with the most(but very fond of Ilya and getting a chance to shine in that one too), but do also like Saber and Medea, so Heavens Feel having them less kinda hurts in that regard. Apocrypha is kinda shitty at times but I liked servants in it, really enjoying Astolfo, Semiramis, and Amakusa. And I still play Grand Order to this day so have a lot of servants I like and have an opinion on. Sorry if this is too long winded of a response lol I really like Fate

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>>84291869
hey Discanon, glad you had fun!
>Touhou concert
I know almost nothing about Touhou but played some of the songs they have on my rhythm game(the washing machine one). Some of the videos they have with the songs can be a little more "strange" to western audiences compared to vocaloid, so pretty sure the people walking behind with kids were like "wtf".
>maybe I'll enjoy it.
From my own experience, I thought it sounded dumb at first so I ignored it, but ended up being my favorite recent anime series. At the very least, I think he did something special with some of the character and their development up until the second half the series (which can be seen as standalone and isn't animated anyway

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>>84291721
>>84291948
The Ramona thing gave me an idea for pink and blue since my hair is already relatively short, but I didn't have enough cash so I just went with pink :(

Also, no worries!! I haven't seen all there is to Fate (more of a tsukihime person ngl) but I'd say my favorite is probably Sakura! I've been wanting to play some of the spinoff games like samurai remnant cause the character designs are adorable

>>84291869
Thank you! And that event sounds awesome, did they play tracks from the game or doujin ones??

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>>84292279
> didn't have enough cash
the biggest limitation in life. Sorry, hope it turns out well still and happy to help with ideas
> haven't seen all there is to Fate
there's just so much of it. I've seen more than most and I haven't seen everything.
>more of a tsukihime person
I've been wanting to check out the rest of the Nasuverse at some point. Wanted to check out With on the Holy Night ahead of the movie
>probably Sakura
nice choice if i do say. I feel like a lot of people dislike her compared to Saber and Rin, but have softer spot for her being forced into the whole situation she doesn't want to be in and genuinely needed help, plus find her role in the story more interesting than say Rin connects to it and her route.
>samurai remnant
I want to try this too! It's supposed to be an actually fun game. I played the Link games and they're okayyy but a bit less polished and honestly I find the Moon Cell fates kinda weird...

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>>84291869
>went to a Touhou concert and got invited to my city's Touhou group so I can go to more 2hu events here. Everything is coming up Discanon.
I'm jelly, glad you had fun tho :)
>>84284871
Hi Yuanon! Hope you are doing well
>>84283560
Honestly I feel like Once Denji started becoming the protag again Fuji lost interest in writing

I feel weird. I enjoy sexual things and I love my waifu Satania but I just feel a little sad lately regarding sex stuff. I wish I had romance as a teenager or had a girl tell me nice stuff. I know the real world isn't like anime. I'm sad I never grew up in Japan and got to do school festivals and just experience the culture there. I'm in my 20's but I feel like my life just isn't going the way I want. I have many blessed things but Idk. Even if I move to japan idk if they'd let me being my doujins with me ( yes I collect NSFW and SFW doujins I like ) because of a law against immoral items being shipped in ( I think they will since they are Japanese published but who knows? I'm a perv I guess. I just wish my body was normal and I was loveable. My only comfort is my deer waifu Satania. I wanna cut myself but I don't know if I will.

hey guys i just got home from hanging out with my friends it was fun but i feel so horrible and afraid now. trying to distract myself. also just did a run in umamusume where gold ship had to run a race every single turn it was very cruel and funny i am so sorry golshi
>Does this bother you often? Why is there so much noise?
i think i misworded it, i was mad about my home and my family and the way im so scared around them, i get so full of dread just hearing someone move around and im so jumpy and afraid living here. there used to be a lot of violence but its not like that anymore. but there is a lot of noise in general my neighbours do karaoke all the time and my family is very loud, i dont mind it too much most the time

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>>84293000
>spoiler
I agree. It's easy to just say, forget part 2 ever happened, part 1 was fine in it's own right and had a satisfying conclusion. But the downside Asa was very compelling when things started and I think part 2 being so shitty is very unfortunate for her character who got completely butchered by the end
> just feel a little sad lately regarding sex stuff.
it's understandable. I feel a lot of people struggle with this here and pretty common feeling. I'm older, but going to an all guy school growing and knowing literally no girls when I was a teen still kinda bothers me. Nothing to be ashamed of and you're not a pervert or strange for feeling this way. Even in regards to the douijins, being interested in sex is normal and if that's your way of expressing that given circumstances, it really isn't anything to feel bad about.

>>84293327
> gold ship had to run a race every single turn it
that's one way to handle her refusing to train.
>d my family and the way im so scared around them
i see. that makes sense... that's very concerning and I'm sorry to hear that. Shouldn't have to be afraid of family
>neighbours do karaoke all the time
I would go insane.

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>>84292045
>played some of the songs they have on my rhythm game(the washing machine one).
Quite a few rhythm games have Touhou songs because they're really cheap to license. Sound Voltex has a bunch as well.
Incidentally, the guy in the Tewi kigurumi at the concert seems to play a lot of maimai. I'll assume it was you.
>Some of the videos they have with the songs can be a little more "strange" to western audiences compared to vocaloid
There are some denpa songs I'm hesitant to play here because the audio is so weird.

>>84292279
>did they play tracks from the game or doujin ones??
Orchestral arrangements of tracks from the games. It was great!

>>84293000
>I'm jelly, glad you had fun tho :)
It's worth moving to Asia if you can, if only because 2hu stuff is way easier to find.
>I just feel a little sad lately regarding sex stuff
I'll echo the thoughts of officeanon. I've been insecure about that kind of thing for years on account of almost being a wizard. I don't think it's uncommon past a certain age, not that that makes it any easier.
>idk if they'd let me being my doujins with me ( yes I collect NSFW and SFW doujins I like )
You could probably import them without issue, but you might get screwed over if you're unlucky. It depends what your risk tolerance is.

hello everyone! thought i'd stop by to wish you all a happy easter, wether you celebrate it or not. life has been pretty shitty, but i've been able to handle it just fine. relapsed just once, which is good enough?? i guess??? considering they weren't big cuts, i take it as a win.

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>>84293407
>Shouldn't have to be afraid of family
yeahh god i wish it was different. i always wonder what itd be like if my family was normal, or if i actually ran away when i was younger, or if someone found out about what my home life was like and i got taken away and had a different family. thinking about these only make me sad but still
>>84294122
happy easter to you!

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>>84293407
>it's understandable. I feel a lot of people struggle with this here and pretty common feeling. I'm older, but going to an all guy school growing and knowing literally no girls when I was a teen still kinda bothers me. Nothing to be ashamed of and you're not a pervert or strange for feeling this way. Even in regards to the douijins, being interested in sex is normal and if that's your way of expressing that given circumstances, it really isn't anything to feel bad about.
Thanks for being kind officeanon. I do feel like a perv though I'm sad thinking about potentially leaving my doujins behind. Thanks though I do feel better :) You guys are really kind
>>84293899
>Orchestral arrangements of tracks from the games. It was great!
That's awesome, What was your fav song they played?
>I's worth moving to Asia if you can, if only because 2hu stuff is way easier to find.
I'd love to move to Asia in general
>I'll echo the thoughts of officeanon. I've been insecure about that kind of thing for years on account of almost being a wizard. I don't think it's uncommon past a certain age, not that that makes it any easier.
Yeah, it's not even me being sad I'm still a virgin it's just me wanting to know what sex feels like. I am happy with my 2D wife Satania. She helps keep the darkness at bay
>You could probably import them without issue, but you might get screwed over if you're unlucky. It depends what your risk tolerance is.
Well I'm not moving anytime soon but maybe I can have a friend mail them to me or I can bring them in my checked in luggage or contact my embassy beforehand. I know it's silly but I love them. I have some ones from my fav hentai artist and my waifu. I don't wanna give those up

I didn't cut myself so I'm happy. I know I sound like a weeb loser wanting to move to Japan but it's what I really want. Thanks for understanding me anons, love you all hope you are all doing okay

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>>84292685
Would 100% recommend the original tsukihime, the remake is great in its own right but the og just hits man. And yeah, I see a lot of Sakura hate but she's just always stuck to me haha

>>84293000
Satania will be sad if you hurt yourself, anon. don't do it

>>84293899
That's so sick, you're making me extremely jealous right now

On another note, idk if anyone will judge me for (unfortunately) being a poon but im not out to anyone but the guy im talking to so might as well vent here. He told one of his friends that "my girlfriend wants to be a boy" and I know it was in the best way but it feels so horrible, I hate being trans bros, because at the end of the day I really am just a girl pretending to be a boy. Hopefully when I die I'll be some kind of rodent in my next life, like a hamster. Then I won't have to worry about gender and wanting to cut my tits off

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Hello there, I'm sure that probably no one here cares, but I was just thinking that if I keep holding this to myself I'll go crazy, so like, 3 months ago I cutted myself for reasons that I'm not telling right now, the time passed and I got better, but the thing is that from that momment I haven't been able to stop thinking things like "you shouldn't consider this self-harm, there's ppl who do it everyday, so what are you calling self-harm?" "you just did it once, so what are you complaining about?" and things like that if you know what I mean, I'm not doing it again but honestly all this voices in my mind r getting me rlly angry with myself and I'm getting tired of felling like this, whatever, if you readed 'till here I hope ur having a nice day (or night or afternoon or whatever)

>>84295443
Hope you have a nice day too anon

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>>84294122
Happy easter, lavendar. Sorry to hear about the relapse, but progress is rarely linear. As long as you're doing it less often (and doing less damage), I'd say that's good progress.

>>84294559
>What was your fav song they played?
Maybe the medley they did for Mountain of Faith. Koishi's theme was also really cool to hear.
>I'd love to move to Asia in general
It's a lot easier once you have a degree, so let that be your motivation.
>I am happy with my 2D wife Satania. She helps keep the darkness at bay
Please treat her well!
>I can bring them in my checked in luggage
I put most of my earthly possessions in checked luggage when I moved. It's a little nerve-racking going through the nothing to declare bit but as long as you don't look suspicious you'll probably be alright. Incidentally, I did get stopped by some plainclothes officers after I landed but that was to check my visa.
Read the CIA's leaked manual on airport security if you want the pro tips.
>I didn't cut myself so I'm happy.
Great job!

>>84295093
>That's so sick, you're making me extremely jealous right now
I hope everyone can go to something like this at some point in their lives. It's nice to be around a bunch of people who love the same things you do.

>>84295443
I'm sorry to hear you're having thoughts like that, anon.
If it would help, as a neutral third-party I can say that what you did was self-harm.

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mornin
happy easter guys!
I'm gonna go on a bikeride today again hopefully it doesn't rain

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>>84293899
>really cheap to license
makes sense
>Sound Voltex has a bunch as well.
I played this one once and need to get good at it. I'm finally at the point I'm competent with maimai
>play a lot of maimai. I'll assume it was you.
there are a lot of maimai enjoyers in the world so who knows. If you ever are somewhere in see a giant gym bro looking dude who looked like he just got off work at an office job getting way into it, there's a fair chance that's me though
>I'm hesitant to play
My main arcade moved so rhythm games are real close to the front so even the people who are there for non-weeb stuff and are waiting around have to be exposed loudly blasted vocaloid and jpop

>>84294122
happy easter lav! good to have you stop in as always
>relapsed just once
just once in a while isn't bad. Glad to hear it sounds like you've been fairly successful in avoiding it. Hope that things continue to go up for you

>>84294372
I honestly grew up very afraid of my parents and thinking the same thing as you (Wanting to steal money and run away). They weren't good people growing up. It's not much help, but one day you can get away from them. Just need to work towards it when you can. Wish you luck anon, hang in there.

>>84294559
> do feel like a perv
again though, I don't think there's anything wrong with that. Most people are some of the time.
> leaving my doujins behind
honestly going to japan i doubt you'd have much trouble. I've traveled a lot and most countries don't check that closely what you have other than making sure you're not carrying anything dangerous. Can't see Japan caring
> sound like a weeb loser
I have a high paying job, house, and have little people can fault me for, and I have more in common with you as a weeb too than other people around me. Nothing wrong with any of the things you're saying and feeling

>>84295093
>the original tsukihime
I'll keep that in mind! thanks for the recommendation
>Sakura hate
truth be told, I started with fate zero which kinda is considered a spoiler for heavens feel but it also made me want to get to that to see her get saved from what she went through Though he overuse of the term "senpai" is what made me pass on Fate when I tried to watch the OG anime years before hand...Maybe that's where some of the hate comes
>idk if anyone will judge me for
this is the one thread no one is going to judge you for anything honestly. As least as far as regular posters here go, they're some of the nicest people I've met online
> best way but it feels so horrible
I'm sorry to hear this and that you have all those thoughts. This isn't a situation I'm super knowledgeable about, but have you talked after the fact about this? I think this is the case you need to be somewhat direct if there's issues. If something is important to you, you want to be around people who are supportive, not making you doubt yourself. There are situations people can feel bad without either being at fault, but it's not always good to continue if that is the case and both are unhappy as a result.

>>84295443
hi anon. Even if you did it once I would say it constitutes self harm. It's not a contest to see who feels the worse or whether what you're going through counts. If you felt bad enough to do it once, it meant you must of felt bad enough that point in time. Glad you managed to stop and hope you can avoid still and don't have to deal with all the unpleasant thoughts and just accept things for what they are.
And hope you have a nice day to anon!

>>84296849
happy easter cat! have a good one and hope you manage to get a nice bike ride in!

you ever do stuff you know is fucked up and probably indicative of a deeper issue but you don't actively feel suicidal or anything like that? like i just cut a bunch and used the blood to paint random smears on paper. not because its like deep art or anything. but genuinely simply because i could. it felt good, sure, but even while doing it i knew it was wrong. and i was thinking the whole time 'man this is fucked up. if my friends saw this i'd be so ashamed. if anyone caught me really. i should probably call out of work and go to the hospital for this shouldn't i' but i never actually act on those thoughts the idea of calling out of work because of this to go to urgent care is mortifying. i don't even know what i'd say. i logically know what i'm doing is fucking bizarre and unhealthy, and i should probably get myself checked out, but i just...don't. there's moments of lucidity where i feel ashamed and want to stop, but they're brief and hit me at the worst times. sorty for such a long post, i haven't gotten a wink of sleep

bjuumpp

went to check on a gym. found a good one. going later.
despite that it was a good day but a bit was filled with nostalgia


>>84291293
>I do also eat some other stuff like some chips sometimes or grilled cheese sandwich or cereal
aha i hope that's enough for you
>you didn't sleep well
i dont rmmbr
>what did you have for dinner
i had pizza few days ago
>need some rest too!
yez yez
>i hope it's not like that now
thanks yeah it's better now
>like you're gonna lose them?
im not sure, this might be right

>>84291883
>I hope you'll feel better soon!
thanks disanon
also i thought for a second that the fumos were yours

>>84291948
>because tariffs
lol i laughed when i read what u said about tariffs
i remember when it was announced that was funny
>slow start
are you better now?
>How are you? hope you're having a good day
thanks
im fine and i talked at the top of the reply

>>84296941
>I honestly grew up very afraid of my parents and thinking the same thing as you
im sorry u felt the same. hopefully i can move out later this year, and itll be a lot more peaceful. i feel kinda guilty about not liking them and wanting to cut contact with them, like what they did was deserved and im being ungrateful. i know its not true but no one really saw how bad it was and my family seems 'fine' from the outside so i struggle to see it as something im allowed to feel upset about. i also worry a lot about becoming too similar to them, i feel like an evil black tar pit of a person tbdesu. im so hateful and i struggle with empathy, especially towards other people who also experienced abuse and i find myself thinking they earned it. ugh i hate it i hate finding their mannerisms in me

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>>84285975
>do you like that show?
dexter is like peak background tv. It's easy to follow but interesting enough to watch.
>I've never seen it so don't really have much to say about it
pic rel is like a quater of screen time. the acter never makes a different face. He's just always skeptical.
>>84285894
>any plans for the weekend?
just working and dexter I guess.
I'll probably call out a few days this week. I don't care about this job.
>>84296849
>happy easter guys!
happy easter cat!

>>84297144
i think you should really visit a professional, anon. you sure there isn't any reason? dont you feel sad or something?

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saw a stork today
and he saw me it seems

>>84291869
cool!
so many fumos

>>84292279
>just went with pink :(
that's cool too!
cute picture!

>>84294122
hey lavyy!
happy easter to you too
hope things get better for you friend
how are things btw?
>take it as a win.
yep!
sounds like you're more stable or have more control over yourself

>>84295443
hey anon
but it is self harm by definition
try not to worry about it and don't do it again fren

>>84296992
thank you
how are you btw?

>>84297144
I don't think using blood for stuff is that wierd
I think cutting is the bigger issue
>haven't gotten a wink of sleep
why not?

>>84298091
heya
you're gonna be going to a gym regularly now?
>yeah it's better now
lovely ^^

>>84298280
hello
>dexter is like peak background tv. It's
do you do something while it plays in the background then?
>happy easter cat!
thank you

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>>84296433
>Maybe the medley they did for Mountain of Faith. Koishi's theme was also really cool to hear.
That's so awesome. Glad you had fun there
>Please treat her well!
I will!
>I put most of my earthly possessions in checked luggage when I moved. It's a little nerve-racking going through the nothing to declare bit but as long as you don't look suspicious you'll probably be alright.
So just act normal and maybe put them in my checked in luggage with clothes I guess? I know it's not a concern for now but I keep buying new doujins I like and don't wanna lose them lol
>Great job!
Thanks :3
>don't think there's anything wrong with that.
Thanks anon
>onestly going to japan i doubt you'd have much trouble. I've traveled a lot and most countries don't check that closely what you have other than making sure you're not carrying anything dangerous. Can't see Japan caring
Yeah and especially because it was made there I doubt they'd care. They still apply the censorship laws
>I have a high paying job, house, and have little people can fault me for, and I have more in common with you as a weeb too than other people around me. Nothing wrong with any of the things you're saying and feeling
Once again thank you, hope you are doing well at your job!

The college never replied to me about what courses I should take. Maybe I can call them later this week.
>>84298280
I wanna watch Dexter sometime

I love how loving and supportive everyone here is. Thank you all and I hope you have a great day

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hey y'all long time no see, life has been kinda just exhausting lately, but I'm trying to settle down more and relax..not much interesting stuff has been even going on sadly

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>>84298771
helloo anon
how's it going?

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>>84299286
ali! \o/
heyo
what's been exhausting? you got lots of crap to deal with ?

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>>84298294
i have a psych and a therapist, but i don't really mesh with the therapist well unless i'm in a good mood, which is sorta not the point of a therapist. i was doing it because i was sad/stressed before, but lately it's just become a sort of...i dunno, hobby, for lack of a better word. i feel sad afterwards, because i know it's wrong and fucked up. but i don't really know if i'm ready to possibly be committed for this behavior. i can't really afford it right now. but i can't afford dying by accident either, which could happen if i don't reign myself in. i wish i didn't have to jump through so many hoops to get help.
>>84298582
i mean, how else would i get the blood..you're right though. i dunno why i didn't sleep, i just was wide awake and really wanted to bleed and paint with it. maybe i should try to find a red paint that looks accurate to blood..?

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>>84296849
Happy Easter!

>>84296941
>I played this one once and need to get good at it
I've not played it in a while but I got filtered by level 10/11. I need to get back into it. I've still not played on an actual cabinet.
>there's a fair chance that's me though
I see, I'll keep an eye out.
>people who are there for non-weeb stuff and are waiting around have to be exposed loudly blasted vocaloid and jpop
Rightly so. If you can't handle the heat, get out the kitchen.

>>84297144
>i haven't gotten a wink of sleep
What's been keeping you up, anon?

>>84298091
>despite that it was a good day but a bit was filled with nostalgia
Glad to hear. What made you feel nostalgic?
>i thought for a second that the fumos were yours
I can only hope to have that many. Alas, I only own five.

>>84298582
Nice picture! Do you have a baby on the way?
>so many fumos
They were very eager to get me to add mine to the pile.

>>84298771
>Glad you had fun there
Thank you. I hope you can go to something like that one day as well.
>So just act normal
More or less. Checks are supposed to be random, but really they're "random" and they go for nervous looking people.
>I love how loving and supportive everyone here is. Thank you all and I hope you have a great day
This thread was basically my only source of support during probably the most difficult period of my adult life. Now I'm doing better I've been trying my best to pay it forward.

>>84299286
>not much interesting stuff has been even going on sadly
That's not all bad. "May you live in interesting times" is a curse, after all.

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>>84299294
heya cat how have you been?
>what's been exhausting? you got lots of crap to deal with ?
it's just school mainly, just pressure to get good grades and all

>>84299514
>"May you live in interesting times" is a curse, after all.
true, a calm but enjoyable life will always be better then a "interesting" one

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>>84299310
>how else would i get the blood..
idk
ig you can buy pigs blood someplace right? or donate blood and ask them to give you some for the road

>>84299509
>have a baby on the way?
not that I know of o_O
>eager to get me to add mine to the pile.
^^
sounds like a fun tiem

>>84299610
>how have you been?
pretty okay
I went on a bikeride today
and finished my map basically
>pressure to get good grades and all
sorry to hear that :<

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>>84298582
>do you do something while it plays in the background then?
yeah just study
>>84298771
>I wanna watch Dexter sometime
It's been interesting trying to figure out where you could catch Dexter. I wish the show showed more of his planning and prep so we could know where is mistakes actually are rather then being told.

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>>84299820
>went on a bikeride today
oh nice, did you see anything cool out there?
>and finished my map basically
good job, it did already look really good when i saw it

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>>84300089
what are you studying for?

>>84300090
>did you see anything cool out there?
yep saw a stork!
>did already look really good when i saw it
thanks
and what did y do today?

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>>84298091
>went to check on a gym.
ooh planning to work out?
>what u said about tariffs
tariffs are disproportionately affecting weebs most of all
>i remember when it was announced
still don't know what the goal is other than tanking the US economy. In which case, mission accomplished.
>are you better now?
yeah, it was easter today so visited family. Went okay

>>84298242
>. i feel kinda guilty
if they did something to make you feel this way, nothing wrong with that. I felt weird about my family for years and maybe I should of shown more grattitude, but truth is family doesn't deserve anything if they made you feel that way
> i feel like an evil black tar pit
that's not an unusual thing if you had family issues. They are the start of your life and where you learn a lot from. If they failed to treat you right.. It unfortunately impacts things with everyone. Wish I could offer better advice, but I struggle in ways myself still. In the end, just try to go easy on yourself. What you feel is hard to deal with and accepting that is probably the first step.

>>84298582
>saw a stork today
hey pretty cool
> he saw me
looks like he's looking down judgmentally lol
>how are you btw?
ate way too much and too unhealthy, but i will survive.. ahh
hope you had a good day

>>84299286
hey gator! good to see you but do what you need too. Hope things are going well at least

>>84299509
>I've not played it in a while
I'd like to be decent at the major ones. I was another arcade that didn't have maimai but this and was too intimidated to try at the time
>If you can't handle the heat
I suppose most people with kids aren't going to places for weeb stuff like rhythm games with vocaloid and touhou, they just put it too close to the entrances

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>>84299288
I'm doing good cat how are you?
>>84299514
>Thank you. I hope you can go to something like that one day as wel
Thanks! :)
>More or less. Checks are supposed to be random, but really they're "random" and they go for nervous looking people.
Good to know for the future I guess. I have a few Doujins that hold a special place in my heart ( mainly those of Satania ) and my fav doujin ever is in one
>his thread was basically my only source of support during probably the most difficult period of my adult life. Now I'm doing better I've been trying my best to pay it forward.
I'm happy for you anon. I can see how nice everyone is here and I'm glad you got the support you needed :) Glad you are doing so much better now
>>84300089
>It's been interesting trying to figure out where you could catch Dexter. I wish the show showed more of his planning and prep so we could know where is mistakes actually are rather then being told.
Yeah that kinda sucks. I liked how in Breaking Bad you see exactly Walts downfall and how he fucks up.
>>84300492
>tariffs are disproportionately affecting weebs most of all
FOR REAL! Anime figure prices are skyrocketing

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>>84300328
hope your sleeping well
>yep saw a stork!
that's freaking awesome
>and what did y do today?
played some Minecraft with a friend

>>84300492
>Hope things are going well at least
somewhat ig. how have you been?

im so miserable im givig it my all to not relapse but i think i might have to just to stay a bit sane. aaaa every night i cant sleep this sucks oh i feel so horrible so disgusting so hateful i just want one day where i dont suffer thats my only goal. i hope this posg knocks me out to sleep

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casual morning cut to muscle my first ever it looks like chicken meat

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>>84300955
Suppose the price of everything is skyrocketing as well. Too much winning going on, just not sure what we're winning at other deteriorating quality of life

>>84301270
I'm okay. Working a new job eating a lot of time now

>>84301484
hope you managed to get some sleep without doing it anon

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hey guys
hope you're having a nice monday
idk what I'm going to do today
maybe play some games on puter

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I bought some discounted easter eggs today. They're still stupidly expensive because they're imported from the UK, but marginally more affordable.

>>84299610
>a calm but enjoyable life will always be better then a "interesting" one
Some people find it boring, but as long as you're content I think it's fine. Do you think you'll be content soon?

>>84299820
>not that I know of o_O
I wouldn't be surprised if /r9k/'s most eligible bachelor put a bun in the oven.
>sounds like a fun tiem
It was. Everyone was very friendly.
I got a kick out of noticing that nobody cared about the girl cosplayers and just wanted to hang out with the boyhus.

>>84300492
>was too intimidated to try at the time
The easy levels are pretty intuitive and don't expect you to do anything too confusing with your hands. Give it a try next time you're in an arcade maybe.
>I suppose most people with kids aren't going to places for weeb stuff like rhythm games with vocaloid and touhou
The Touhou music will continue until the kids' morale improves.

>>84300955
>I have a few Doujins that hold a special place in my heart ( mainly those of Satania ) and my fav doujin ever is in one
I have some in my childhood bedroom but I have no idea what to do with them, so I've got a similar issue. I would probably die if my mother saw a couple of them... I should probably scan the ones that aren't on the internet.
>Glad you are doing so much better now
Thank you. I hope you can do the same when you're doing better (and you seem to be getting there from my perspective).

>>84301484
What do you think is keeping you up at night? Just your mind racing all the time?

>>84303744
>What do you think is keeping you up at night?
im probably stressed about exams and everything but cant fully feel it and its getting to my sleep. yesterday i had a lot i wanted to do but i was way more busy than i thought, so i didnt and that probably got me agitated. also occasional ptsd nightmares it sucks i dont get peace even in sleep. ughhh i was doing so good last week this week ive been so much more tired and miserable and have just been lazing around
>>84303044
>hope you managed to get some sleep without doing it anon
thanks i slept eventually and didnt cut!

>>84298582
>gym regularly now?
yeah i think
>lovely
:D
hru today

>>84299509
>What made you feel nostalgic?
things happened and i was reminded of my friend, not that i dont think about him most of the time but yeah it felt more nostalgic
still feeling bad. how are you? how is your life going?

>>84299310
i wish you the best, anon
though it's still like you should tell your therapist or psychiatrist, dont you think? maybe they know how to deal with this

>>84300492
>planning to work out
yup
>affecting weebs most of all
lmao didn't realise that
>other than tanking the US economy
if u think about it they did a lot of things that felt stupid or gave the "why did u do that" feeling ever since trump won
anyways how are you?

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does it count as cutting if its just very shallow cuts that barely bleed??
first time cutting

>>84304754
why do you care anon
dont do it it's nothing good

>>84304863
i don't know, maybe im autistic and just wondering at which point it counts as actual cutting
if you take some sharp object and just gently drag it along your skin without it leaving any mark, that's not cutting right?
so at some point of pressure it becomes cutting
i need to know if im cutting myself yet god damn it
>it's nothing good
my other ways of self harming were much worse and leaving permanent damage easily
this is better

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>>84300955
heya
I'm well, just staying at home today, no bikerides
I finished a map I was working on and I contacted the author of some music used there to ask if can use it but I got no answer

>>84301270
hello
yep I had a nice sleep and I woke up nicely too
wbu?
>freaking awesome
yep ^^
>Minecraft with a friend
that's freaking awesome too :3
we should play some minecraft again some day with the other guys but I'm wondering, should we start a new world or maybe stay on the old one?

>>84301484
heyo
why do you wanna cut?
maybe get in a shower and splash yourself with cold water instead?
Hope you manage to sleep well

>>84303744
>easter eggs
like the chocolate ones?
>most eligible bachelor put a bun in the oven.
uh who?
idk who that it
>just wanted to hang out with the boyhus.
haha that's funny ^^

>>84304273
>yeah i think
woa
do you wanna get ripped?
>:D
:DD
>hru today
pretty okay
I thought about maybe going on a bikeride tomorrow but it's really really windy
also I finished the map I was working on and I contacted the author of some music used there to ask if can use it but I got no answer so far so can't post the map yet D:
but maybe I'll post it tomorrow if I don't get an answer by then

>>84304754
hey anon
it counts
but why did you cut yourself?

genuine question: why do you cut yourself?
i've known dozens of people who have cut themselves for years and ive still never fully understood it. some of them do it for fetishes, self hatred, attention, just wanting to feel something, etc.
But there's a million other ways you could better satisfy all those needs. Besides the fetish part i suppose, if you just found it hot to cut yourself and bleed there's no helping that.

>>84304996
yeah i cut the tip of my finger a bit by accidently and it was not fun at all

cutterss why cut unlesss like true blue light cuts are cooler than small finger tip chunk slicer

>>84304911
>but why did you cut yourself?
chronic emptiness and inability to feel anything
does the reasons matter?

>>84304888
i see.
i think it is self harm, whether it physically hurt or didn't, it can do bad things to your mental health. now idk what you used to do (you can talk about it if u want) but i hope you stop trying to hurting yourself anyhow. wish u the best anon. why did you try to cut?

>>84304911
no bikeride?
i went on a walk today but it rained so i had to go back
>do u wanna get ripped?
not exactly but eh why not let it happen but i wont focus on that
>it's really windy
isn't that better? idk i like windy weather for walks or bikerides
>so can't post the map yet
ohh is it a cs map?
also was it the same one you were working on lately?

>>84304996
>But there's a million other ways you could better satisfy all those needs
like what?
this seems like one of the most accessible and safe ways to feel something
already got bored of drugs, got a whole stash of them and i'd rather just sit here and cut myself

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>>84304996
>why do you cut yourself?
there's many reasons people might do that but for me mainly it's a good distraction, it makes sense that regardless of what's bothering you, it's easy to forget it when your body is wounded because your brain makes you focus just on the injury and treating it
Also there's the letting out frustration and anger part, sorta like when you just wanna hit something but that doesn't (hehe) cut it so you do something more drastic and you hurting yourself is safer than hurting others

>>84305019
>does the reasons matter?
yep
Have you thought about getting some sort of professional help with your emptiness?

>>84305088
>went on a walk today but it rained so i had to go back
dang it :/
did you have an umbrella?
it's raining a lot here too, it's supposed to be raining for this whole week
>not exactl
so what do u wanna do? just pass some time?
>isn't that better?
nope, when it's really windy it makes it hard to go forward because the wind is stopping you and it's tiring
>ohh is it a cs map?
nope I'm making it for half life 2 so it it'll work in any source engine game
>also was it the same one you were working on lately?
it's the one with the rain and trains >>84278650
appropriate for the weather :>

idk why i get shivery when i feel sleepy
>>84305442
>umbrella
i wish
>for this whole week
honestly i dont mind having this lol
>just pass some time?
wanna make progress cuz why not and i want stretching
>the wind is stopping you
oh i didn't imagine it's that hard i thought it's just normal nice wind yk
makes sense
>half life 2
aha oki
>trains
ohhh i didnt see ur post before
and it reminded me of cry of fear's train!
nice!
>appropriate for the weather
haha indeed :D

>>84305442
>Have you thought about getting some sort of professional help with your emptiness?
no, there is no professional help that can help with an objectively empty and pointless world
it's all just coping mechanisms for people who want things out of life - i want nothing out of it

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>>84305491
>get shivery when i feel sleepy
I'm pretty sure body temperature gies down when you sleep ao maybe you're just cold?
maybe you should get an extra blanket
>honestly i dont mind having this lol
I think it's okay too
it'll give me time to finish a different map that a lsd dream emulator map
>cuz why not and i want stretching
oo I see
I should stretch too
I'm very stiff
>didn't imagine it's that hard
yep it's very strong and it kicks up a lot of dust
>reminded me of cry of fear's train!
>nice!
that's so true :0
I actually didn't make that connection

>>84305493
>that can help with an objectively empty and pointless world
true
>want nothing out of it
that's alright
but it does bother you?

>>84305587
>but it does bother you?
yeah, that's why i have suicide planned soon
just hard to get over the survival instincts just like with this first time cutting, so i need some reliable way of disabling them because i don't want to end up a veggie
maybe cutting is a good practice

>>84305587
>maybe you're just cold?
i dont think so. it feels like its from inside not from outside idk if that made sense to you. i cant sleep now anyway im not at home
>it'll give me time to finisg a different map
wow :o i think i would just be lazy to do anything like a map
>very stiff
yeah u should stretch
stretching mates :]
>a lot of dust
ouch.. you know that feeling when dust gets all around your throat?
>didn't make that connection
:D coincidence

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>>84270268
I like fucking girls who are cutters.
>They love sex
>They blame themselves for everything
>They are easy to cheer up
>They can be talked into threesomes
>Emotional bonding over her crying on my shoulder
>Low self esteem
>Creative dress style
I honestly love fucking the shit out of girls who are cutters, but after college they kinda disappear

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>>84305633
do you think there's something that could make you time here a bit nicer? do you enjoy doing anything?
>get over the survival instincts
yeah I wonder how's that's done
suicide is not something you can really practice right?
>cutting is a good practice
idk I feel injuring yourself it's still very different from ending it

>>84305654
>feels like its from inside
hm it's still might be your body temperature getting lower?
I actually have something similar but it doesn't happen before sleeping but its random
but usually putting on a hoodie helps
>would just be lazy to do anything like a map
ooh I'm very lazy, but sometimes I get an idea and think to myself that I watch stuff on my phone for like 12 hours a day, so instead of consuming all the time I should create something for a change
And I don't make maps all that often, before all the maps I made lately I had like an 8 month break and I wasn't really feeling like making things again but I decided I really should make something and post it online to sorta make it known that I existed, like when I'm 50 these maps will still be there
I feel it'd be sorta like looking at old internet blogs or website
Honestly, I should make a website one day just for the fun of it
>stretching mates :]
idk idk
I won't go to a gym because that's scary, and I think I'm a bit too lazy and embarrassed to do it at home
>know that feeling when dust gets all around your throat?
nope actually
like you breathe it in?
>:D coincidence
maybe o_O

>>84305775
>do you think there's something that could make you time here a bit nicer? do you enjoy doing anything?
no

>>84305775
>body temperature
honestly i think its not related to cold at all
so sometimes when i have caffeine i get this shivery feeling and its like the same as the one i get when i feel sleepy
i think they're related
i also had caffeine today but idk if it affected cuz i had it like 7 hours ago
>hoodie
and my clothes are cozy i think
>12 hours a day
yk what sometimes i wish i dont have any responsibility just so i can do nothing serious for days
but yeah it's unhealthy to do the 12 hours thing lol
>8 month break
what?? i dont get it
you mean 8 months before you started making maps again?
>50 these maps will still be there
woah i wonder do you have things you posted long ago? like pictures or smthn
>old internet blogs
sometimes i find a picture and when i check the comments i find ones from like 13 years and it feels strange lol
>because that's scary
i feel you
but i think like no one cares everyone is minding their own business i suppose
also im not going alone so it's a bit better
>embarrassed to do it at home
why? you dont have a place you can be alone?
>like you breathe it in?
uhh its like maybe it automatically gets inside when there is a sandstorm i think

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>>84303744
>bought some discounted easter eggs today.
not much of a market for them post easter I suppose
>easy levels are pretty intuitive
probably this is key instead of assuming I can handle harder first try like last new rhythm game I tried to master first go
>Touhou music will continue until the kids' morale improves.
non-weebs must be put in there place. At the bottom of the hierarchy, where they belong

>>84304125
>probably stressed about exams
might want to try to give yourself cool down time before bed. I know it's hard when you're busy, but if you're feeling agitated before bed it's always gonna impact sleep and I get it since i deal with that a lot

>>84304273
>yup
what kind of routine you trying to do? This is a topic I feel strongly about lol
> didn't realise that
tariffs on anime figures, Japan post is struggling, threats on foreign made films (anime), and the list goes on.
> gave the "why did u do that" feeling
I'm just assuming they want to make this country as shitty as possible so no one wants to move here anymore. Big brain move I guess.
> how are you?
had a good weekend. Still getting comfortable with work. Not too bad though.

>>84304911
heya cat!
>I finished a map I was working
the one with the train? Hope you hear something back. This is one I would like to check out when ready just to see the whole finished thing since I like the feel from screenshots so much

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>>84304125
>im probably stressed about exams and everything but cant fully feel it and its getting to my sleep
That makes sense. I've definitely been like that before. Hopefully it'll clear up once your exams are over.
>occasional ptsd nightmares
That sucks. Are you taking anything that might be causing them?

>>84304273
>things happened and i was reminded of my friend
I see. Yes I saw an old message from my friend who's passed got a similar feeling.
>still feeling bad.
I'm sorry to hear that. I hope things pick up soon!
>how are you? how is your life going?
Much, much better than it was a few months ago. I don't know if I'm quite back to my normal self yet but I'm at least 70% there now.

>>84304911
>like the chocolate ones?
Yeah. I've already eaten half of it. It's mint flavoured and very nice but it cost way too much...
>uh who?
/cat/ from /cut/ - Cutters General

>>84306088
>not much of a market for them post easter I suppose
I'm surprised there was a market pre-easter with how expensive they are here...
>probably this is key instead of assuming I can handle harder first try like last new rhythm game I tried to master first go
If you're reasonably experienced with rhythm games you can probably start out with level 5s and 6s and work your way up from there. Most of it is just building muscle memory, I think.
>non-weebs must be put in there place. At the bottom of the hierarchy, where they belong
I'm sure some of them are good people, but I wouldn't let them sit at the front of the bus, you know?

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>>84305804
sorry to hear that anon

>>84305852
>caffeine i get this shivery feeling and its
hm interested I wonder what you could find on the internet about it
I know people get shivers when they drink too much coffee
hm maybe it's like magnesium deficiency? idk i think I've heard you should take magnesium if you drink a lot of coffee
>my clothes are cozy i think
hm okay I guess not cold then
>just so i can do nothing serious for days
I get it
I was like that too when I had to go drive to uni like two monts ago
and I do gotta say it's not bad, I do hope you get to have a lot of free time sometime soon fren
You got like summer vacation?
>mean 8 months before you started making maps again?
yep I used to make some in the past and then I stopped for a while because uni got too tiring
>wonder do you have things you posted long ago?
besides those couple of maps(the oldest one was posted a year ago)
nope
do you?
>gets inside when there is a sandstorm i think
I don't really know what you're talking about, but we don't have sandstorms here , sry

>>84306088
>>84306088
>the one with the train?
yep \o/
>would like to check out
It's not big just so u know
I'll probably post it tomorrow if I don't hear back
>>84306126
>mint flavoured and very nice but it cost way too much...
you should hide few of them somewhere like in the freezer so you don't eat them all today
>/cat/ from /cut/
whos that guy?
wait a moment!..

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>>84303044
Yeah, it's a shame. I fear the world is getting way worse. The commoners like us keep losing
> have some in my childhood bedroom but I have no idea what to do with them, so I've got a similar issue. I would probably die if my mother saw a couple of them... I should probably scan the ones that aren't on the internet.
Scanning them seems hard but if you can that's a good idea. I'm lucky most of mine are scanned already. I have a few non hentai ones of my wife I have saved but I don't want to rip the pages to scan them.
>Thank you. I hope you can do the same when you're doing better (and you seem to be getting there from my perspective).
That means a lot, I hope I can do well in the future
>>84304911
>I finished a map I was working on and I contacted the author of some music used there to ask if can use it but I got no answer
Good luck with that, hope they respond to you soon :)
>>84302341
Looks painful anon :( hope you are okay
>>84304754
I do cat scratches and yes it counts. You shouldn't do it though it's not worth it

>>84306371
cat scratches don't count

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gonna sleep in a bit so goodnigt frens!

>>84306371
>Good luck with that, hope they respond to you soon :)
thank you :]
and how was your day today?

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>>84306126
>surprised there was a market pre-easter with how expensive they are here
not like easter is exactly a western holiday people in asia care about at all. Even expats i feel most wouldn't think about much, but I'm in the US and Americans barely care about easter save for the very religious
>probably start out with level 5s and 6s and work your way up from there
I think it's fine to just start easy. I had this with maimai too. I didn't want to feel like I was stuck on advanced when i saw how good other people were playing on the hardest, but i hung with it till i start clearing on hard like i do now
>I wouldn't let them sit at the front of the bus
this has taken a strange but necessary turn.

>>84306301
>It's not big just so u know
i figured but also not long to download and take a look at. I do like checking out your work you do on these
>post it tomorrow if I don't hear back
can always pull if you hear back later and they don't want to. You're uploading a free map for people to casually check out so not much to worry about

>>84306371
> world is getting way worse. The commoners like us keep losing
I can't even believe how bad it's gotten in such a short time. Things genuinely feel like a worse situation than when russia/ukraine war started, and prices never fell back from then. No one has work, everything costs a fortune, and people in charge are actively trying to make things worse and worse. I don't feel so great about the future

>>84306498
gn cat see you tomorrow hopefully

my friend got outted grooming a 16 year old on twitter. what now

>>84306638
howw old is your friend?

matters a lot here

>>84302341
please go to the hospital. what did you use to even cause that?

>>84306984
i did have togo to the hospital bc someone saw it and the dr stitched it i didnt want though i still wanted to make it bigger but i can just do another one and i i used razor blades why do people always ask that you can do this with anything thats sharp

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>>84306418
Yes they do
>>84306498
Have a goodnight cat! I'm doing pretty okay today :)
>>84306620
Yeah it's scary. I'm gonna try hard to get a good hardware engineer job for the future so money is less of an issue for me. It's crazy how much stuff cots now. I think this AI shit was pandroas box and it's going to cause all of us issues. Side not the college I want to go to STILL hasn't responded to me yet when I asked them what courses I should take. Might try calling them sometime soon if they don't respond. I hope I don't seem dumb asking them but I want to be sure I'm taking the right stuff.

I don't want to be an adult. This stuff is so fucking scary

>>84307032
i guess i just dont understand how people make it so gaping. i've only made wounds deeper, not wider. does it split that way? or are you cutting around it?

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Does anyone have experience with going to a daytime treatment facility? I'm thinking I need some sort of IOP or PHP but I've never done anything like that, only went to the ER before and I'm not in need of the ER.

Go on lad, have a bump on me

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>>84305442
>just wanna hit something but that doesn't (hehe) cut it

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hey frens !
how are you today?

>>84306620
>like checking out your work you do on these
thanks!

>>84306638
well you should learn the details of what happened and then decide to either cut all contact with the friend or not

>>84307053
>doing pretty okay today :)
that's good ^^
>don't want to be an adult. This stuff is so fucking scary
yep

>>84307529
hey anon
unfortunately, I don't have any experience with that
Maybe there's some hotline you could ask about that?

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>>84307053
>get a good hardware engineer job for the future so money is less of an issue for m
I'm just trying to stay employed for the next 4 years and going to retire after that. I'm just hoping I have income that time, since I don't know how long I can last
> AI shit was pandroas box
AI isn't the only issue, but a big part of why things are bad for certain sectors now. We shut down the global economy for essentially the flu, have had several geo political crises impact supply at several points, and US economy is being crushed by tariffs. AI is being used as a magical cure all since business is looking for some way to reduce costs while the rest of the picture looks hopelessly bleak
> I asked them what courses I should take.
might be able to do research and figure out on your own, but understand your desire to get the info right. Nothing dumb about that, dumber not to be sure

>>84308709
kek'd

>>84309598
heya! I'm good. A bit groggy since I overslept but getting on track.
How are you?

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>>84309639
ello
you got work today?
>How are you?
well
I had to go get my blood work results in the morning but that went smoothly and now I'm probably going to chill at home for the rest of the day
Maybe I'll play some games from itch io

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>>84309598
Okay so far today anon, hope you are okay as well :)
>>84309622
>I'm just trying to stay employed for the next 4 years and going to retire after that. I'm just hoping I have income that time, since I don't know how long I can last
Good luck with that anon! I hope you can retire and rest, you deserve it
>AI isn't the only issue, but a big part of why things are bad for certain sectors now. We shut down the global economy for essentially the flu, have had several geo political crises impact supply at several points, and US economy is being crushed by tariffs. AI is being used as a magical cure all since business is looking for some way to reduce costs while the rest of the picture looks hopelessly bleak
Yeah everything seems to have gotten worse since 2020. The world is very scary right now
>might be able to do research and figure out on your own, but understand your desire to get the info right. Nothing dumb about that, dumber not to be sure
Thanks, I bought some books to help me understand math and electricity. Gonna start my ADHD meds again and maybe I can call them. Worst case I'll look again on google ( I hate the ai shit that comes up now and I don't trust it to not give wrong info )

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>>84310183
>Okay so far today anon
glad to hear that
any plans?
> hope you are okay as well :)
I am ^^
I decided to play a game demo by the same person who made disillusion st
I really really liked that game and I'm having fun with this one too

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>>84309912
>you got work today?
yes, but it's pretty good today. Way less stressed than final days at my last one though still getting up to speed
> but that went smoothly and
glad to hear. Hope all is well and doing healthy
> I'll play some games from itch io
sounds like a plan have fun

>>84310183
>I hope you can retire and rest, you deserve it
I just need to hold stable-ish over the course of that time and it's guaranteed. Just unsure with how the world is now but trying everything i can to keep ahead of changes
>everything seems to have gotten worse since 2020.
the worst thing is that every good thing that came from pandemic (better workers power for white collar workers, more acceptance of "don't come to work if sick', etc) have been strangled away by petty corpos with god complexes.
>maybe I can call them.
wish you luck with both the studying and getting ahold of what you need.
>I hate the ai shit that comes up now
for what it's worth, i think AI isn't inherently the worst thing and it can get some things right (it's very good at summarizing) it's just tiresome hearing about it non stop as being the solution to everything since grifters selling these products are the only thing stopping a stock market crash right now.

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Looking into making another home server. I can probably do it on the cheap since I have some RAM left over and everything else is relatively affordable, but I'd need to get a new SSD and those are suddenly expensive.

>>84306301
>you should hide few of them somewhere like in the freezer so you don't eat them all today
Too late... It's about 70% finished now. I guess I can buy more tomorrow if I'm desperate.
>wait a moment!..
I'm sure there are girl anons who have a crush on you. Stranger things have happened.

>>84306371
>I don't want to rip the pages to scan them.
I think the pro strategy is melting the glue with a hairdryer or carefully removing the staples.
>I hope I can do well in the future
I'm sure you well. Best of luck until then!

>>84306620
>Americans barely care about easter save for the very religious
Do Americans not get chocolate eggs every Easter? I had no idea that was a British thing.
>i hung with it till i start clearing on hard like i do now
I suppose like any other skill you just need to practice until you can do it. I do sometimes find it fascinating that we as a species are able to do that for things that didn't exist in caveman times.

>>84270268
Where does one start with cutting oneself?

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>>84310903
>it's pretty good today
that's nice
hope you everything keeps getting less stressful
>Hope all is well and doing healthy
yep ^^ thanks
>sounds like a plan have fun
played life seeker, it's one by the guy who made disillusion st
I like it

>>84310907
>Looking into making another home server
what are you going to do with the server?
>about 70% finished now
that's still leaves 30% to stash away
>can buy more tomorrow if I'm desperate.
yep I guess
>Stranger things have happened.
I'm not sure that's likely but thanks

>>84310917
why does one want to hurt themselves?
maybe you could do something else instead?

>>84311146
>why does one want to hurt themselves?
just seems like something i could get into

>>84311146
>what are you going to do with the server?
Probably the same as the old one but with a bit more juice and less power draw, and split into a few VMs instead of running everything baremetal.
It'll just be a bunch of hard drives for media storage and torrenting, and Jellyfin so my parents can watch the TV shows and movie on it so they don't have to pay for Netflix.
To be honest I'm not really sure what else to do with it besides using Immich as a nice photo gallery.

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man uni is a bitch

>>84311300
do you like pain?

>>84311593
>Jellyfin so my parents can watch the TV shows and movie on it so they don't have to pay for Netflix.
useful!

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>>84310907
>I have some RAM left over
should be trading that in for a small fortune instead
>Do Americans not get chocolate eggs every Easter?
I know these are a thing, but I always found chocolate rabbits are much more common. It's funny you mention it since I do have the idea of certain chocolate eggs being a uniquely British thing, though I'm sure some people here get them too, just not what i'm used to
>need to practice until you can do it.
me forgetting everything useful to master rhythm games instead
>fascinating that we as a species are able to do that for things that didn't exist in caveman times.
suppose all animals adapt. Some faster than others and don't discount there being something unique about humans ability to

>>84311146
>hope you everything keeps getting less stressful
so far so good!
>played life seeker, it's one by the guy who made disillusion st
i remember you mentioning that one and in this does look quite a bit like that so i see it. that kinda unsettling vibe
>>84312315
hope everything is good

>>84312315
>man uni is a bitch
What's causing trouble this time?
>useful!
I'm a good son sometimes.

>>84312621
>should be trading that in for a small fortune instead
I checked and I bought 16GB of DDR5 for 43 GBP in 2024, and it's now being sold for 225, which is complete lunacy.
Unfortunately the old server is approaching 10 years old and I'm not sure how much life the components have left in them.
>chocolate eggs being a uniquely British thing
I assumed it was a universal thing, and I'm saddened to learn it isn't. You're people are being deprived of something nice.
>me forgetting everything useful to master rhythm games instead
There are worse skills you could have. At least I assume so.
>suppose all animals adapt
That's true. I guess it just blows my mind that life is flexible enough to do that.

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sorry for disappearing again. mix of hanging out with family over easter and being sick again. :/

>>84287020
>just praying hardcore that it doesn't end up backfiring on me
hope it hasn't so far.

>>84287600
>i guess i didnt get very good sleep and lacked a lot more motivation and focus than usual
dang. sounds familiar. did you have some better sleep in the meantime?

>because i didnt keep myself busy i guess the sadness hit a lot harder
i guess i can keep it a bay with focussing on video games rn.

>its there but i cant feel it fully or cry about it.
i can relate to that. it's more of a constant background noise than anything else at this point.

>in a few days or a week ill probably be bawling my eyes out constantly
it's good to let those feelings out once in a while.

>>84289839
>it's idiotic to think it's not a disruptive tech
oh, it is. it's a huge step towards the shitty singularity, so we're all very excited right now.

>it would net instant cost reduction in a vacuum.
pretty stupid. there's always a cost from switching to a new process from a well established one. though usually it'll be quality that suffers, so that speed and cost are less affected.

>it's not one of the big holidays in the US oddly enough. Christmas is instead.
it's an odd one anyway and has lost a lot of it's social relevance here as well, but it's enshrined as a national holiday and people aren't gonna give up on some free time anytime soon. :p

>will ramble onto my brother about stuff for a bit which is usually fun
how did that go?

>>84291869
hey discanon!

>I hope you've been well in your absence
i don't really know. i don't feel bad or anything, but i'm very lethargic. when i come home from work i just play some game or listen to some stream, go to bed and then repeat it the next day. now i had some free time over easter and got sick immediately. it's all so tiresome.

>>84293000
>>84293000
hello anon!

>Hope you are doing well
i had better days, that's for sure, but i'll get over it eventually. no worries. (^-^) how are you?

>>84294122
hey lav! good to see you. hope things will get better. i wish you the best.

>>84298280
>just working and dexter I guess
as good as anything. it was a really nice show up until the last season. it's been a while since i saw it, though. have you seen the new season?

>I don't care about this job.
that's too bad. :[ anything else i sight?

>>84299286
hey gator! long time no see! :D hope you're doing well.

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>>84312621
heya
how's your evening?

>>84313063
>What's causing trouble
desu don't want think about it now
Whatcha up to rn btw?

>>84313447
hello :>
how are you?
still sick??

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>>84313701
hi catbro! (^-^)

>how are you?
all things considered not so bad. took me ages to close shop today, though. was home around 9:00 pm. didn't feel like doing anything either, so i caught up with the thread. surprised me that this one is still up. how was your day?

>still sick??
yeah, but took some pills to get me through the day. they helped, but there's usually a pretty bad low when they stop working. hopefully i'm asleep by then...

>>84313743
>considered not so bad
good to hear ^^
>how was your day?
not much happened
played a cool game >>84310335
now I'm very sleepy
>hopefully i'm asleep by then...
uh on
hope you're in bed already

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>>84313790
>not much happened
usually for the better, isn't it?

>played a cool game
i see. what's it about?

>now I'm very sleepy
same. guess it's time to call it a day. :>

>hope you're in bed already
yup. not much reason not to be today. at least it's somewhat comfy.

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>>84313063
>which is complete lunacy.
part of me is hoping ai crash comes soon so computer parts can come down again. No w
>people are being deprived of something nice.
I at least got to dye hardboiled eggs and eat solid chocolate bunnies in a single sitting that had way too much sugar and calories for a kid to eat at once
>At least I assume so.
I'll let you know I think of any or if I ever get into a situation where playing maimai saves my life
>guess it just blows my mind that life is flexible enough
for me it's when other animals do it. Nothing get me more than how smart birds are specifically. All the videos online of them solving puzzles and manipulating small objects to get food is really something

>>84313447
> huge step towards the shitty singularity
A step but far from that at least. Every time I hear someone talk about an LLM being becoming sentient, I can just assume they don't even have a basic understanding how it works. AI has advanced, but nothing has advanced as much as marketing has. That's the biggest achievement in all this.
>cost from switching to a new process from a well established one.
economy is shit and too many places are hoping for a magical way to avoid running into more costs now that money isn't free like it was during covid.
>lot of it's social relevance here as well
doesn't have much appeal outside of being a religious holiday honestly. plus I think this time of year is already so nice people are less looking for something to look forward to like during christmas
>how did that go?
Day was all right, but mostly hung with him playing old star wars battlefront and me rambling about fate lore. Could not convince him to watch the news fate series though but he's pickier about anime these days

>>84313701
>how's your evening?
not bad. But super tired. need to crash soon to get ready for long day of work tomorrow