>>16903740
Why should I help you cope lol?
>top university in my country (somewhere in the top 100 globally I dont know the exact place)
I fucking hate this third-worlder nonsense. It’s a shit uni. Ranking is meaningless.

>>16903740
Why math?

>>16903742
lol ok
>>16903743
idk I liked it and I thought I was good enough, but clearly not

>>16903740
man sabine is really crashing out

>>16903746
It's hard to feel bad for you, anon. You didn't even carefully articulate why studying math was your best option, at age 26-27. You said
>I was simply not good enough
What filtered you?

>>16903740
>anybody here ever failed in academia in the full sense of the word?
me, I was a retard and couldn't even get past the first year. fell into depression and then fell ill and NEETed for a while.
managed to get a nice job working with computers at 30, then things got better.

>was just wondering how it played out for those that have already gone through this, with honesty if possible
I kinda got lucky because the people I chatted with online helped me get a job, but that's because they realized I was good, so it was not really only about luck. the thing is, I had been interested in this field ever since I was a kid, and had access to computers since elementary school, even though I was poor as rats.
talk to people, show them interests and skills, and you might get an opportunity. you could go for engineering, CS or whatever.

btw, you will probably forget most of the things you learned in uni over time, so if you want to become a professional, try getting back into academia, or keep learning stuff by yourself. don't let your motivation and passion die like that, just because you failed in the clown world that is contemporary academia.

>I dont know how to put it I just feel like now that I fucked up the best and only chance I got there is no more room for hope left, not because I will die of poverty but rather than I will not live up to my or anybodies expectations or be equal to my friends in terms of achievements
why the fuck do you care so much about your image, what others think of you, and about your friends and their PhDs? real life doesn't work like that, you faggot. there are tons of PhDs working at mcdonalds because their "knowledge" is completely useless IRL. meanwhile, your knowledge of math is useful even in your daily life (unless you are an actual retard, of course).

>im very old for university at 27
who the fuck cares about age? stop thinking like that, and stop giving a shit about anything other than the things you care and love.

>>16903740
You are too busy worrying about what people think of you. You don't have to care about any of that. It's never too late to take action on anything.

Your age means nothing
You labeled yourself as "not good enough", no one else did
This experience does not have to define the rest of your life
Take action on something new or the same thing, why not
You hold yourself back

>>16903740
Me i guess
>be me
>finish high school
>like guns
>go study mechanical engineering because uhhh gotta have that degree and you can do gun adjacent engineering later I guess
>this shit is fucking boring i can't be fucked to make technical drawings of screws for years just to maybe do something gun related after
>drop out after 2 years
>feel bad about dropping out, cope that maybe that particular uni was just too hard for me
>go study mechatronics at a different uni
>nope it's not the uni it's me
>drop out after 2 years again
>go work as a shooting instructor on a shooting range instead
>time of my fucking life doesn't even feel like work
>mom begs i take over the family business
>being older i realize as fun as being around guns all day is, the pay is kinda shit and the family business is a comfy office job i will eventually own for free
>work a comfy office job that is easy as shit, pays well and i can be as late or even not come at all long as the trivial work is being done on time
>actually at work right now at the time of writing this
I am approaching 30 and have now decided I'm gonna go study medicine because i developed an interest and learning is actually fun when it's done as a leisure activity with no pressure, rather than being the difference being being homeless or not. Plus the work is so easy i can genuinely study and work at the same time while maintaining the same quality of life. This is probably how it felt like to be an aristocrat doing natural philosophy for shits and giggles before science became a business and something you do to not starve.