>>34222968
joke's on you. I'm just happy someone is paying attention to me.

>>34223024
why do you treat me this way when I'm in crisis?

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>>34222941
I won't read made silliness threads posted by some writing student.

>>34223266
I'm flattered that you think I'm educated.

>rejected me for being too weird
Did this really happen kek

>>34223371
Yes, she told me I was making her uncomfortable, and more or less asked me to leave.

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>>34222941
>...That i am stricken and can't let you goooo!!!!

>A mental health professional rejected me for being too weird.
Did they suspect you are a borderline? If so, that's normal. Not many are trained to handle it.
Try another one.

>>34224581
No, apparently I come across as "blunt and demanding".
I have autism. This is what I'm like.

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>>34224547
>>34224655
>she

Women cannot properly understand your condition. Don't even waste your time with them.

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>>34223371
I know some psychologists who actually reject some patients. Mostly on cluster B, with the exception of histrionics (Antisocial, Narcissistic and Borderline).

The first two: Therapy proceeds really, really slowly. Often times the patient doesn't budge, especially the higher up in they spectrum they go. Why? Simple, they view others very negatively and will promptly challenge, manipulate and lash out. The last one you can imagine why.

It's also suspicious when a patient identifies or is identified as "bipolar". That usually means borderline. Bipolar disorders are much easier to treat, whereas borderline is not.

>>34224655
I take it you are a woman then? If so, i get it. ASD treatment, symptomatology and research is often geared towards boys. And usually women are pushed to develop language, speech and social norms much quicker, so they tend to mask it well "enough" to fly under the radar. But a good trained eye can easily spot it through a couple of sessions. Unfortunately, there isn't much information about this. So, many therapists aren't equipped to accomodate.

If you are a boy, then i suppose it's fine to seek another therapist. Treatment and social training have gone a long way and improvements are quick and palpable.

In either case, don't feel too bad - some autists really hang on to a person get really clingy. That's normal. They have it hard enough making friends and it's only natural they would fight tooth and nail to keep at least one.

>>34224702
no, i'm not a woman

>>34224788
Do you have any special interests? Can you find and join communities that cater towards them? Even when your social skills aren't good, it's still possible to be accepted in these communities - because you're contributing a sharing that space.

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>>34222941
calm down and eat some cheetos

you can always find a random chat to jump in somewhere on the internet

>>34225259
I'm too socially awkward and autistic to even know how to find social groups or understand how to go about joining them.
That's kind of what this was about, actually. I was trying to join a program that was supposed to get people with mental health issues involved in things, and they told me to fuck off.
>>34225390
I do that, but I always feel like I'm just hanging around. None of them ever reach out and try to know me.

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>>34225648
Sure, it's a valid attempt. But what i mean by restricted interests is something specific: Like Amateur woodworking, backyard fish farming/aquarium, any media franchise fandom, book clubs on particular subjects (horror for example), playing cards (yugioh/magic/etc), sewing, amateur drumming/singing/playing any instruments, cubing, homemade gardening, 3D printing, classical history, vinyl collection, etc...

Sometimes it's better to get out of the rut of obsessing over mental disorders. I know how it feels - I've lived in a home with an actual narcissist (as in, fully diagnosed with N.P.D). Reading all about it and consuming books on the matter give you invaluable insights, but it doesn't change your situation at all, nor does it promote any personal growth.

Ultimately you are not defined by your diagnose(s). Just acknowledge it, follow through with therapy/medications and move on.

>>34226345
It's all well and good saying "find a club", but I don't even understand how to do that.
I just don't have whatever that trait is that makes people hone in on things that are going on. Whenever I hear about someone who visits a board game club or something, I'm thinking "how the fuck did you find out about that?".
Even getting a job alludes me. I don't understand how people do it. Literally makes no sense to me.

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>>34226855
Internet has a bunch of places you can visit to get started. And people are usually friendly to new faces. Unfortunately, you gotta try a bit. Even if you go to therapy, you still need to do your homework. As it won't magically solve your woes.
It's okay to be awkward. You can always change that over time by observing people or trial and error.

>>34227029
See, everything you said there isn't helpful.
>the internet will have places you can talk to people
Yeah, I know. where?
Everywhere I try it just ends up being me sitting in a void, while everyone ignores me.
>try therapy
Again, that's just entirely unhelpful as a suggestion. Especially when I've been telling you that I have been reaching out to mental health professionals, and those people reject me too

I need more than "there's people out there somewhere, idk". I need directions.

>>34227049
There's a bunch of social media sites. You can even meet people here on /soc/. There are some discord servers that aren't hornyfests, just people eager to make new friends.

Sorry for being blunt, but i can see why they think of you as demanding. Unfortunately there won't be that shining-armored person who guides you through a perilous path at all times. There are some things you gotta figure out for yourself and nobody else can answer. I've highlighted a couple in the past reply. It's up to you now.

This is the best i can come up with. Maybe other anons have better ideas than mine. If so, i hope it's useful for you.

>>34227102
Okay, but it's been years already, and if I was just going to figure it out I would have done it already.
Everyone else has some innate sense of where people are and how to hone in on them, and I don't have that.
Saying "join a club" isn't going to help when I don't even know where to find one.