i fucking hate women and working and middle easterners and most spanish people and this big stupid city

I wish I didn't have to interact with corporations.

I hate dog owners who let their dogs sniff up on and touch strangers. I have PTSD after being through multiple violent dog attacks (I live in a Detroit suburb) and nobody respects my boundaries. They treat me like I'm overreacting with fake rude kid gloves like I'm that retard from Maury that was afraid of cotton balls. I don't KNOW your fucking dog. I've seen a pitbull shake my dog by the neck like a ragdoll and the shrieks of terror from my dog as he almost died. I remembering beating on the pitbull screaming and crying and my pulling my dog from its grasp and how mean as fuck the owner was to me. I remember my ex's dad's boxer getting attacked by the neighbors pit in his backyard when we were dog sitting and how it took 3 adults to get the pitbull off the boxer and the pitbull bit it's owner so bad her hand was mangled. I go to my bfs house for Christmas and their half wolf dog snaps at me for moving wrong even though it literally fucking sat on me and everybody blamed me for "stepping on its tail"
I am sick of dogfags so much. I grew up with a st Bernard, terrier mix (0 pit in her she was wiry small head long snout and very small), pure bree golden, pug, and Chihuahua mix. They never acted aggressive once. If you own a pitbull or a wolf dog you are a dumb nigger. If you let your dog touch strangers you deserve cancer. If you off leash walk your dog get aids

>>34224142
Move to another state. Living in Detroit must suck ass. Isn't already dangerous their? Move some place safer.

>>34224147
My whole family is in this state and the pitbull/bad owner issue is nationwide

Feels like everyone knows something or can perceive something I can't. It's like - it's so clear there's some unsettling subtext to what they're saying, but I can't figure out what

I feel awful, severely fatigued and so very short of breath. I have an infusion booked at the hospital tomorrow, I just need to hold out until then :(

I will be a virgin until I die.

I don't cry about you every day anymore and I'm talking to new people now but I can't find that spark at all
It'll keep getting better I think, I'm just trying to not use anyone in the interim

Just quit my job. I think I'm going to die as a worthless person

>>34224142
>complains about all dogs and all dog owners
>it's just shitbulls and shitbull owners causing the problems

>>34224177
It's definitely more prevalent among certain communities.

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>>34224543
>virginity is ... le bad
>the media told me so, so it must be true
I. Corinthians 6:18 Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body.

D I hope you're alright
RF I hope you're alright
N I'm saddened, disappointed even to see you haven't killed yourself yet. Praying for your slow and painful death (praying hands emoji)

>>34224193
How can your voice be so annoying when it's just text.
"Well ackkkkksully.."

Stfu

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Saw my ex after 2 years by accident when she was on a date at the same bar as me. I feel like I've just lost the last 2 years of healing and I'm back to square one.

We broke up cause she was glad my dad died after I cried about the death in front of her.

I know what you're doing N. It's interesting, amusing even. I don't know exactly what the medical term is, just know I knowyour game. Please let me live rent free in your head, I appreciate how lots of your insecurities stem from me.
See you whenever. Never as a friend however. Not in this life nor in however many come after. You chose this. lol@u

>>34224743
No one wants to know you or even think about you.

it's over.

>>34224751
Doubtful, I've seen you make this comment for years now

>>34224762
it's a momento. when did you start wearing your name?

As a man who leans rather more feminine than masculine in matters of emotion and socialization, it seems that Weininger was not wrong in positing that the sexes are ideally attracted to one another in proportion to their respective degree of masculine or feminine qualities. Perhaps this is why I love my tomboyish girlfriend, yet tend to disregard and even become somewhat disgusted by 'girly' women who act like sweet innocent fawns despite being borderline sociopathic beneath the surface.

>>34224771
Always but You didn't notice until the bit before you started wearing mine

>>34224781
what

>>34224894
Google it

>>34224912
the Stephen King book?

>>34224927
Yes Now open it to page 275 and read the 5th sentence.

>>34224668
Wolf dogs and all bully breeds too you smarmy ass faggot
The next dog to attack me is getting a broken jaw

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Sometimes I struggle with hating myself, there's a certain fountain of renewal like state I can be in sometimes where things wash over me and I have peace, but I don't know what it is and I don't have it all of the time. Sometimes I struggle with self hatred that causes what feels like psychosomatic illness, and while I'm not suicidal or depressed by any means, certainly not one to kill myself ever (I'm against that for a multitude of reasons) I am put in a lowered state, I will think about shooting myself in the head, the thought just plays in my head like it's cathartic to think about, or stabbing myself. That's obviously not good or healthy. It's not what God would want, and yet I'm harrassed with these things. I'll certainly try to spend less time on the internet because I don't even realize when it stresses me out and makes me want to put one in my head. Beyond this, how do I avoid being in this state? On a related note, how do I stop being irritable and getting stressed out by the people around me in my life? They do nothing wrong yet I become irritated, I'm spiritually ill or demonically oppressed.

Before You started feeling that way, what was different in your life?

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>>34224110
Elon is a kings fool

>>34225347
I don't know, it's been so long. The last time I was mentally well off was before I was 13 years old, that was before my psyche really got raped.

>>34225361
Take out a pen and paper and start listing things that have happened or are persistent in your life past that point. Then look at each of those things and be honest with yourself whether they are good or bad for you.

I think streamers and vtubers are the worst things social media has created and it will have horrible societal affects with so many of these young people not having jobs that affect the world in a meaningful way

My life is objectively pretty decent but I only feel worse and worse. I go to church, I'm happily married, I have a decent job, I've got a second child on the way, I've got good friends. Everything my early 20s NEET self would have wanted the years ago, and every day it means less and less. Maybe there's just something fundamentally wrong with me. Maybe this is actually the greatest trick Satan ever pulled.

ocd has made me afraid to masturbate. cant even enjoy that anymore

I miss her so much.

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>>34225529
She misses fren too

I really hate that I can’t get a little mad about something that doesn’t even involve you. I thought we were gonna hang more, and go hiking at least twice a week. A shame your whole personality has become alcoholic, sometimes coked-out junkie. Almost like your mother, at least you don’t do meth, or at least you stopped (idk if you’re still fucking that drug dealer for free drugs). Fuck that stupid band we saw (would ya look at that, another shitty punk band that’s just loud), if you wanted to chase after the frontman be my guest but please don’t invite me just to make me be designated driver to the “after party” and make me wait until 2:00 am. I just wanted to see if the band was good (they’re not, I left feeling underwhelmed). I can overlook a lot of your stuff because we’re friends but god you’re a little insufferable sometimes and I don’t even know if you’re actually avoiding me or not. Oh yeah stop trying to “set up” our friend with one of those guys from the band, she’s still living with her ex(?) in their apartment, not because they’re good friends but because she’s unemployed and has nowhere else to go. And stop telling me not to contact him either because he’s my friend, if you’re avoiding me because of that, you can miss me with that middle school bullshit.

>>34225491
why

>>34225413
there's not enough meaningful opportunities for them

Something weired going on with our sister and bro inlaw. They never used to talk to each other alot and now they talk for a hours while other sister is distracted. One time i walked into them talking n they both got quiet n sister walked away. Very SUS

>>34225608
That's sus bro fr I'd do some detective work on that business stat

I fucking love fat bitches so much And they love me back

why did i think money would make me happy?

>>34225642
Because being poor made you miserable, maybe.

>>34225491
relatable

>>34224110

Surely a bitching fit that people see here every day, but I honestly cant do life anymore. I made it to 30 and I think this is as far as I can go.
The heating in my shitty, tiny apartment died for the 5th time this winter, so I am freezing and failing to fall asleep, wondering what the fuck went so wrong. I have a degree in engineering but I have spent the last years jumping from one shitty job to another. At the moment I am unironically working in the post office of a big company, helping an AI to digitize documents. Yes, I am helping the AI, not the other way round. A lot of people will call me a faggot for this, but I am also in an absolutely fucked relationship with a woman who gives zero fucks about me in general. She just doesnt want to be alone and seems to enjoy fucking me I guess. She is quite attractive and way more succesful than I ever will be, I fear that is not making me feel any better at this point though. But she is the only real companion I have out there, without her I would be truly alone.
I have abandoned my friends after all, since I just cant look them in the eyes anymore with how miserable I am.

I have spent my 20s idealizing suffering while being relatively comfortable and I guess the life I am living now would make some absolutely euphoric, self-masturbatory agony for my younger self. It is all not that fun in the end.
I am living the life of the tortured artist I secretely wanted back then. Except I am just tortured and not much of an artist anymore, because I am mostly a depressed sack of shit.
I simply cant warm my ego anymore with coping. How the world is just unfair, how the economy is fucked, how there are many people like me. I cant even warm myself physically anymore it seems.

For better or for worse, I cant have a gun in this country, otherwise I would be sucking on a barrel at this moment. This world does not need me, just as it does not need most people. And I dont need it either in its current state.

>>34225563
guilt & shame from feeling like I'm weak & gross for doing it. also sometimes I think something bad will happen if I do it. a lot of my self worth is tied up with abstinence which is really unhealthy.

What am I hitting tonight, beer or wine?

>>34225703
I'm having a couple beers

>>34224692
This is really mean, Mike. Things have gone downhill for you ever since you broke up.

Fuck you L you autistic fuck! Just b/c of your retarded ass fragile ego I fucking have to find another job essentially ruining my career! I hope your autistic ass have a miserable life!

>tfw out of beers

Life doesn't suck, but I FUCKING HATE REALITY! WHY GOD MUST YOU MAKE MY REALITY FUCKED!

>>34225789
I'm sorry if it came off as mean. Things are too much for me some times since the breakup and I miss her a lot. it hurts when people say stuff like that. Just leave me alone if you're going to be mean

>>34226138
What happened

>>34225529
Where did she go?

>>34226143
I had Ai make the most beautiful video in the world. It brought me to tears how beautiful it was, only to be crushed by how soul crushing reality is. I'm humbled with however my life is from now on, but it was fucking beautiful. I could have had a blonde daughter. And then when the video was done I had to be faced with the fact I'm this damn creepy NEET living in his parents home in his 30s. It was fucking beautiful and no one will ever understand.

>>34225652
So you got a job, a successful girl who fucks you, a place to live, a degree.

What exactly are you looking for in life? A better woman? More friends to just chill with, a magical job that gives 100k a month with 5 hours work? I mean im sorry about the heating issue but get a fucking eletric blanket, some of those camping handwarmers, a fucking bag of rice in the microwave shoved in a sock, cmon bro you got a degree, please tell me you arent just fucking laying there shivering with a full ass motherfucking job

Sitting on my couch and fantasizing about blowing my brains out. I want to leave on a high note. I'm so empty that nothing even reaches me anymore. I smoke a pack a day just to pass the time. Things will only get worse from here.

>>34226164
>in his 30s
Boy STFU and get to work. I know bum ass dudes worse off doing more.

>>34226186
I know.

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after like 13 years of constant pr0n consumption i've been nofap for like 3 weeks so far and it's been great, no desire to jerk off or anything but should i be worried my dick's just gonna not work anymore? I haven't gotten a boner this whole time

*is what I would have said if The post I was responding to wasn't made by a fucking retard asshat that needs to do a flip because he keeps spamming porn addiction and bullshit larps 10 posts about me to my every 1 about her. Completely obsessed with me

I can finally enjoy having sex again, I struggled with premature ejaculation and erectile dysfunction for a long time. Now I found a cure. I had sex for a good hour and a half with my girlfriend, came twice, she told me afterwards she wanted to continue but was KO, and that she hasn't had such intense and good sex for a very long time. She then told me it's a blessing we met each other. Huge boost in confidence, I feel great

>>34224110

I live in an apt unit with paper thin walls. I wish someone or something would permanently stop my neighbor from slamming the door after quiet hours, essentially waking up everyone. Also, drugs. I pray to God that some government audit or that nonpayment of rent can get them kicked out. I can feel the hate, smoke, and jealousy every day I walk into my own unit. Either that or I wish for some gal to come into my life and allow me to move the fuck out. I have to sleep with my gun because I’ve heard my door being tampered with one night. Jesus Christ some people are legitimately tiresome.