>>34225575
Been through it four times in the last handful of years, two of them big episodes. My advice for getting through them is to allow them. That isn’t to say you should blindly let yourself tumble into the mental death spiral, but simply acknowledge your mind is spiralling and let it spiral with a degree of awareness over it. A sort of meta-awareness, being aware that the person’s awareness (your awareness) is currently spiralling. That means using depersonalisation as an antidote, detaching from yourself mentally to observe the observer etc. This allows you enough mental clarity to stay in control while not being in control. Paradoxical to say, I know, but it helps. Because you are then able to realise that psychosis is simply your mind’s pattern recognition going into turbo overclock mode, trying to problem solve at x1,000 speed, in an attempt to fight or process very difficult or painful information. Sometimes triggering from one big event, or burning up in flames from 100 events that built up and you snapped.

Psychosis is your own mind trying to help you process things that are hurting you, and it does it frantically fast, so fast you end up thinking delusional beliefs, or coming to paranoid conclusions, or even losing grip on reality for a while. Let it all happen, just acknowledge why it has to happen, and you will always be OK when it passes.

Afterward you’ll be left behind a few gifts from Mr psychosis, Psychosis rifles and rummages through your mind like an insane man going pilfering a box of papers, but in its chaotic searching it does unearth some banger insights and pieces of perception for you to keep later.

>>34225575
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And also try to identify (during, or after) what circumstance(s) had made the psychic earth crumble beneath your mind in the first place, aka, what caused the psychotic break? Keeping awareness of it as you fall into psychosis will anchor you, even if its a barbed and painful anchor, it keeps you aware of what is happening by remembering what had happened.

For example my last psychotic break happened because I awoke to a message from a decade-old friend that he was tired, depleted, finished, Leaving behind a formal suicide message and a goodbye. He was never prone to suicidal gestures or attention whoring, it was a real attempt.

My mind went into x200 speed, then x400, x600, x800, x1,000. Searching for strategies, words, pleas, sentiments, bargains, threats, honesty, lies, truths, deceptions, plans, contingency plans, plans for success, plans for failure, what to do, what to say, how to say it, who to say it to. This all whirled in my head all at once at the same time within minutes, Because I knew if I spend 1 minute doing nothing, my friend would surely die.

Fortunately I was able to get in immediate contact and bombarded the shit out of him with strong compelling truthful reasons why suicide would be a waste, a mistake, and reminded him of 10 years worth of reasons why he should live, reasons about himself, the good in him, of what he does, and still does, and why he needs to stay. And he stayed, I talked him down out of it.

But my mind stayed at 1,000x speed, still in overclock hyper pattern recognition mode. And then it flew into a mental wall and crashed, Psychosis hits.

That’s more or less an example of how psychosis tends to work. And why even though unavoidable, remaining cognisant of what started the spiral in the first place can make a huge difference.

>>34225575
So you smoke weed or do any kind of other drugs? I was seeing shadow critters in my peripheral vision, but they went away when I stopped smoking weed. Been sober for a year, no hallucinations and my delusions are under a lot more control as well.